He only stays the weekend, not wanting to miss any of the trial. Plus, he feels awkward around JJ now. He spends most of his time with Henry and Penelope while he's home, going to the aquarium with the two. When he gets back, he visits Amanda, who agrees to see him. She's much more at ease when she sits.

"You're back." Amanda drawls with a smirk on her lips.

"I have to testify for the defense."

"Not until Thursday." She said, looking at him. "Why are you here 4 days early, Doctor?"

"I want to speak to Adam." He tries, although he knows it won't work.

"You don't get to speak to Adam." She says, rolling her eyes.

"How about Aaron?" He says, even though he doesn't. Aaron is the last person he wants to speak to after the incident with JJ.

She glares. "Why would you want to talk to Aaron?"

He shrugs. "I want to know all about you." He says, using her words against him

Amanda snorts. "Sure you do, Doc. What am I a study now? Are you going to write a book about me?"

"He said you're more like Mark than any of the-"

"Shut up."

"You're supposed to protect Adam and the other alters think you're like the one who caused-"

"I said shut up! They don't know anything! Aaron uses Adam just as much as that asshole did. He takes his body and takes him to clubs and does things - IMMORAL things! I kept Adam safe! I took that pain for him. I was the one who dealt with Mark every time he came around. They don't know. They don't know anything."

"You took his body and you killed those people."

"They deserved it! They deserved everything they got. That one guy pushed him and tried to hurt him. I couldn't let Adam get hurt like that again. I couldn't let another man push him around."

"And the others, they did nothing-"

"They all treated him like he wasn't good enough. That he ddidn't deserve to be there. It was his home! It was his home and they walked in there and acted like they owned it! They acted like they deserved to be there and it was his home and the things they said to Julie... It wasn't right. It wasn't right at all."

"Like Mark?" Spencer asks, softly. "Like Mark came into his home and treated him like he wasn't good enough. He acted like he owned it. He hurt Rosemary."

"He killed her and nobody did anything."

"He murdered her?"

"He caused her death." Amanda says and rubs her eyes. Spencer wonders if another alter is trying to push through. "And Adam..." She pauses, looking down, unable to continue.

Spencer reaches out to touch her, slowly, seeing sadness in the alter's eyes. It can't be Amanda. Amanda doesn't feel sadness. He places his hand on his/her knee. He looked up at the person who raises their eyes to stare at him. For a minute, they just looked at each other before she pulled away with a sneer. That's definitely Amanda.

"Don't touch me!" She growls

"I was just trying-"

"I know what you were trying to do and you can get the hell out."

"Amanda, I wasn't..."

"GET OUT!"

Criminal Minds || Parts of You

Spencer looks at his phone, debating if he should call JJ. He didn't know what to say to her, though. He didn't want her to think he was mad at her, because he wasn't, and yet... he couldn't dial her number. Her words had been stuck in his head for days. She was an attractive amazing woman and when they had kissed...nothing. Was he really just... not attracted to woman? He thought women were beautiful, that had to mean something, didn't it? He sighed and laid back on the bed. He thought men were strangely beautiful though too. But that didn't mean anything. Everyone who fit a specific mathematical equation due to facial feature height and position were 'attractive.' Adam was attractive. He frowned. Where had that came from? Spencer shakes his head and closes his eyes. His mind going back to his conversation with Amanda. She had reminded him a little of Adam today. Vulnerable, almost. Was that why he reached out to her? To reach out and touch Adam? He sighs in frustration and dials up a number. He waits until someone answers.

"Home of the knowledgeable, ask and you may receive." Garcia's voice flutters through his phone.

"How do you know if you're gay?"

There's a long pause. "Reid?"

"Is there a test or something that helps you distinguish, because I keep thinking about Adam and I kissed JJ and I didn't feel anything." He tells Penelope. Other than JJ, he's the closest with her. They understand each other, the two "different" ones of the BAU.

"You kissed JJ?"

"Penelope!" He whines and Garcia clears her throat.

"Spencer, I can't just ask you a few questions and say, "Yep, you are!" or "Nope. Try again with JJ."

"Do you think I should try again with her?"

"No... Spencer. You're not listening to me. " She sighs. "Sexuality doesn't work like that. It's more...fluid. Whoever you find attractive is who you find attractive. You don't have to label yourself. you just... do what feels good."

"That doesn't help me."

Garcia chuckles. "Okay, then... hold on."

Spencer listens to her as she typed.

"Check your messages." He hears her say a few seconds later and he sighs, pulling the phone away from his ear. He has a picture message. He opens it and his eyes widen seeing Derek Morgan shirtless with his pants slung...very low. He gulps.

"Why did you send me that. That's my.. He's my friend!"

"Yeah, but did it turn you on, because honey, if that doesn't make your pants a little tighter, you are not gay."

"I.. ah... uh.. He's... He's my best friend!" He squeaks before shifting a little.

Garcia chuckles a little. "Maybe so, but those abs are just lickable aren't they?"

"Penelope! I'm never going to be able to look him in the face again."

"Oh, honey. Now you just know what I see every time I look at him. Although, if you are...excited, it might be a little awkward for you, seeing how your... reactions are a little more physically showing than mine." She teases.

"Garcia!"

She giggles. "Oh don't worry. that eidetic memory only works for things you read, right? Oh! Got to go, my chocolate hunk just walked in. TTFN, lover boy."

Spencer hears the click of the phone before shaking his head. Sometimes he really disliked Garcia. He bites on his lip before looking around the room. He clicks on the message again before looking at the picture. He sighs. He definitely was something other than normal.