"SHANE!" I looked at him. "What do you mean you know!" I looked away.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I said. Nate sighed.

"You are going to tell me Shane." He said. I looked at him.

"You want to know! You really want to know!" I asked. Nate nodded. "Cause you got Mikayla pregnant that's how I know." His whole face fell.

"What! For what!" I asked Jason. He looked down.

"I was diagnosed with Bipolar." My face fell. I remember he could switch is moods a lot but I never knew it was that bad. "I started being a different person when I switched and I started drinking. One day it go really bad and I kind of beat Shane up" My eyes widen and then hugged him.

"Oh, Jas!" I said. He hugged me back. I looked at him. "Are you better now?" I asked as he pulled away and nodded.

"Yeah. They helped me get a better handle on my life." I smiled.

"That's good." He nodded.

"So what's this about a baby?"

My eyes widen. "Oh god" I said and hit my head. "I forgot my appointment was today" I said. Lilly looked at me.

"You want me to take you?" She asked. I shook my head.

"No it already passed." I sighed and looked down. Mitchie had fallen asleep on my lap. "Besides I wouldn't want to wake Mitch." I said. Lilly looked at me.

"Its important you know" I nodded.

"I know, before I left I looked up all the good and bad about pregnancies and what's important to know." Lilly nodded.

"I remember" a tear fell. "When dad told us mom was pregnant." A tear fell from both of our eyes. "I miss him." More tears fell.

"I miss them both." I said Lilly hugged me from her chair. "I wish they were here. They would know what to do." I said. "I use to curse that stupid baby." Lilly stopped hugging me and looked at me. "I cursed that it was going to die cause I didn't want anyone messing up our family. I was so mad at it. It took away everything I had, I thought. It was going to take mom away and put her attention on the baby and not me or you and that it would be daddy's favorite." Tears fell. "I'm such an idiot." Lilly hugged me again.

"No you're not. We both had our problems with the baby." Both of our eyes were filled with tears. "I blamed it for her death." I nodded.

"Same." I looked at her. "I think it would have been great to have a little brother or sister, now that I realized it. I can't believe how selfish I was about it."

"Both of us were" She said and then smiled. "I saw it being born" I looked at her. "Mom was happy. She was so happy. Dad was filled with joy. When mom started to lose her life she was still smiling. When the doctor started to worry about the child both or there smiles started to fade. Mom was so upset about it that she literally died." Tears poured out of Lilly's eyes. "She couldn't hold on. She said she love daddy and us and then just closed her eyes" tears poured out of our eyes.

"We are stupid" I said. Lilly nodded.

"Yes, yes we were.

"Hey" I looked up. Jackson smiled and sat down. "Here's your coffee" I nodded and took a sip.

"How's he doing?" I asked. "And thanks."

"He's awake. He's having a hard time remembering what happened." He nodded.

"I'm sorry." He said. "About trying to ruin you and Lilly" I shook my head.

"It's fine dude, that's the past." He nodded and smiled.

"Yeah." His phone vibrated and he flipped it open. Reading the text he got he smiled and replied.

"Who was that?" I asked smirking. His cheeks burned a little as he looked at his Coke can.

"The future."

"You don't make a scratch! You got that!" The poor boy nodded. It was my second time up at the valet parking place, waiting for Justin. I'd paid for Mitchie's car for over night. I don't get why I keep doing this to myself. I should have left them all behind but ever since my breakdown I just can't. I don't know why I couldn't just tell them to fuck off and stay out of my life. I don't know I didn't just tell Justin that I didn't want to record the song I that I wrote for about them! WHY DIDN'T I! I kicked the wall next to me "Gah!" I said. I sat back down on the bench when Justin's car pulled up. I got up and walked to the car, opening the door. "Finally!" I said getting in and slamming the door. He looked at me.

"Sorry. The security wouldn't let me go cause of paparazzi." He said then started driving off. I sighed and leaned into my seat.

"Why do I keep doing this to myself J?" He shrugged.

"Maybe cause you don't know how else to deal with it. Or you do truly miss them and hanging out with them." He said, still looking at the street.

"They abandon me! In my time of need." He stopped at a red light and looked at me.

"Shane didn't fully" I turned my head and looked out the window.

"He did after." Tears fell. "He was there through everything until it ended." I felt the car moving again and Justin grabbing my hand. I smiled. The ride was silent until we reached his house. He let go of my hand and I gathered my purse. I looked up and he opened the car door, I smiled. "Thanks." He grabbed my waist and held me.

"You know I'm there for you. Whatever and whenever you need me." I smiled.

"Thanks J" I said. He nodded. We started to walk up to his front door when things started getting blury. "Justin?" I asked.

"Kayla!" He said. I felt myself fall and being caught. I could hear Justin screaming for Elena, his maid, to call for my doctor and then I don't remember a thing.

"You are lying" I said to him. Shane shook his head.

"Remember when all the gossip sites said that she was in the hospital for a broken leg or something like that. Its cause she tried to kill herself, because of us, because of you. She couldn't hand the the fact that we all abandoned her." I looked at him.

"NO!" I said "I never had a kid. Ever." I walked out of the room. I shook my head. I never had a kid. I walked into the waiting room and was gabbled into a hug. When the figure stopped I looked to see who it was. "Jas!" I asked. He smiled.

"The one and only." My eyes widen…

"But. But. But!" I said. "Your not suppose to be out for another 5 months." I said, confused. He laughed.

"Glad to know that everyone is happy to see me." I smiled at him.

"I am." I said.

"Dude, don't worry. I won't have anymore freak outs or weird things going on" I smiled.

"I'm happy Jas" I said and took my hand out. He smiled and smacked it away.

"You know I hug" I laughed as he did a 'bro' hug and the girls laughed. I looked at Miley and she smiled. I walked over to her.

"Come with me." She nodded. We walked off until it was clear. I was think about what Shane said…it made sense…as much as I didn't want it to. She touched my shoulder.

"Nate?" She asked. I looked at her. "What's wrong?" She said, with concern in her eyes. I looked up at her.

"There's something I need to tell you."

Short I know I'm sorry. I wanted it to be longer but that means I would have to go against how I write and I can't bring myself to do it. Lol I'm the kind of person not to do that :P

You'll find out the whole thing with Niley/Mate(hahaha) in the next chapter ohhh and btw

There's only like 3 chapters left :P

Trivia: This is the first chapter I feel like I screwed up on :/

Words: 1,322

-Devin.