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PLUM WINGS & A MIDNIGHT DIRGE - DESOLATE

I wish I hadnt run like I did. It landed me and Zexion in the worst possible place, and to top it off, he had a broken arm. I felt really guilty about it, but, I guess some good things came out of being trapped down where we were, even if it was hard to live. At one point, we got in a heated talk about how we were feeling about the people we were always around. I asked Zexion all the questions, but he only asked me one question just so he had something to say.

"What are you like?" It made me wanna laugh, he sounded mad but sort of happy that I had known what he thought about girls all these years.

"The same as you," I answered pretty fast, but it wasnt like I had anything to hide.

"What! How come I didnt know this?"

"Why didnt you want to tell me about you until I asked?" I felt like I laughed at the end a bit, but I dunno. It caught Zexy off guard, though, and that was amusing. But he got quiet after that. He told me to just go to bed. I was supposed to be watching for any animal attacks, but there hadnt really been any since that one squirrel attacked me that one time...so I laid back and closed my eyes to sleep. But, first, I needed to know what he was going to say earlier. I couldnt let something like that go unanswered, after all!

"Can you finish what you were gonna say before?" In all honesty, I wasnt really expecting him to answer at all. I just thought he would be quiet and leave me hangin'. But, instead, there was hardly any pausing before I got the answer I wanted.

"I was going to say that it is a good thing you're not like every body else, and that that was probably the reason why I...why I...sort of...really, like you..."

When Zexion told me that...I couldnt help but smile. I felt all kinds of butterflies rise up and flutter around in my tummy, it made me wanna laugh a bit and smile a whole lot more than I already was. Its hard to explain just how it really felt, but if you've ever felt something that made you so happy, you wish you were able to feel even more happy than you already were, but your body just couldnt take it all at once, you'd know what I mean. It was like that. Again, there arent really words to explain it.

With all of my happiness and giddiness, I was being so quiet, I was getting scared that maybe I had made Zexion feel all awkward or shy or something. I felt a big grin come across my face, and then I said something Im sure he wasnt expecting!

"Same here," Even though he couldnt see it, I had a pretty big smile on my face.

The next morning we woke up to a bunch of water getting poured on us. I jumped up and cleared the water from my face and looked at its source. It was raining, and there was a whole in the roof of our shelter.

"Aww, man!" I crawled out from under our now wet shelter and tried to see how bad it looked from the outside. Apparently, one of the sticks we had tied together with another one had come loose. Zexion said that because of that, the water that had been building up right there got heavy and fell through. And it didnt really help that it was still raining, either.

"Calm down, Demyx," Zexion said. "It's not as if this is irreparable. For now, I say we take advantage of this rain and get whatever we can from the leaves. We havent had the chance to bathe in any sort of decent way in a long time. Then we can focus on fixing the roof. Hopefully by then, the rain will have stopped."

"Alright," I went into the trees to a place that had had a lot of water pouring into it somehow, and it always got caught on these certain kinds of leaves that made it easy for us to get a good amount of water. Zexion didnt follow me, so I dont know what he was doing. But I kind of got upset when I was by myself. It was like the stuff we had said the night before meant nothing, almost like we had never even said anything to begin with. I was kind of hoping things would change...

"Demyx," I heard my name being called, so I dumped a small leaf full of water on my head and face to wash off a bit. I felt so icky...

"Yeah?" I came back through the trees, looking around for Zexion. He was over by the shelter, just staring at it.

"Come over here. I need your help with this." When I got over there, he had worked out a solution to fixing the roof, although it still needed a bit more work after we had done his first step, which was to tie a third stick between the two that had become untied so it would be steadier. Then he had me go out and find some lighter sticks to put on top of the roof a few inches apart, then we would lay more sticks across those ones in the other direction so they crossed each other. After each layer of sticks he wanted us to put different kinds of leaves and grass so our roof would be stronger and more resistant. It worked, and then we both went off to get some water to wash.

The rain did not stop for the next day and a half. It rained from the morning we woke up to a hole in the roof, through that day and night, into the next morning and then the next night, and finally stopped when it was getting close to sunset. It was the wettest time we ever had, but we did come out of that little rainstorm feeling pretty clean.

"I wonder where they've looked for us?" I said during the second night, the same day the rain stopped.

"Hm?"

"I was just thinking about the school, and everyone up there. If they're looking for Axel and havent found him, I wonder if they've looked for us hard enough or if they just looked for us as the search for Axel was coming to a close."

"Why?" Zexion hadnt been watching me before, but he was now. I could feel his eyes on me.

"Because..." I didnt really know how to say what I wanted to, so I ended up being quiet for a little bit. "Why wouldnt they look up here?" I said it quietly, like a whisper. I was staring straight up into our leafy roof, just...sort of thinking about everything and nothing. Zexion propped himself up on his good, unbroken arm and watched me without saying anything. But I really, really wanted him to tell me something, anything. I wanted to hear that we were gonna be fine, we were gonna be rescued soon and that we would go back to the school or even back home and just...and just be okay. I wanted him to tell me that we would get out of the revine just fine, that he would fix his arm and that we would go back home together...

I got butterflies, the kind of butterflies you get when you're about to cry or tear up...

"Hey, Demyx, what's the matter?" When Zexion said my name I just couldnt contain it. I felt the first tear fall down my face and I quickly tried to wipe it away. But that only made more and more tears come, and I eventually just gave up trying to get rid of them. Zexion didnt say anything. He didnt say one word. Hell, he didnt even give me that reassuring pat on the shoulder he always used to whenever I was down. He just sat there. I couldnt bring myself to look at him. I turned my back to him and kept crying. I didnt care if he knew it, but when he didnt tell me anything to get my hopes up...I just cried.

"I wanna go home..." I sniffed, wiping more tears away. I must have fallen asleep shortly after wards, because I cant remember much else from that night.

For the next day or so, Zexion and I said hardly anything to one another. Nothing went wrong or needed mending, so there really was no reason to be talking. Zexion never usually talked to me unless I said something first, or if something needed attention. But me, on the other hand, I was just too mad to say anything to him that was worth it. But two days after that thing happened, he said something to me at night, like he normally did whenever something had happened between us.

"What is bothering you?" He was sitting up, and I was laying down with my back turned to him. I glared without looking at him when he asked, but I didnt say anything. He sighed. "May you please tell me what is occupying you so intently? Really, Demyx, am I not allowed to know?" I didnt say anything, but he kept pushing questions on me. Finally, I just snapped.

"You didn't help me!" I had cut him off in the middle of one of his questions, but now he was only staring at me.

"I didn't help you?"

"No! You didn't!"

"What on earth are you talking about?"

"The other night! When I said that I was wondering where they had looked for us! I was, I was crying and you didnt do anything! You didnt...you didnt tell me anything. You didnt say things would be okay, you never told me we would come out of here together perfectly fine! You...you didnt...You didn't reassure me like you did before. All of those other times Ive been even just a little upset, you'd always be there with an arm around me and telling me that...that everything would end up fine when it all came to stop...You didnt even say anything...!" I was rambling...halfway through I didnt even know what I was saying and I just let everything come out. "Why?"

"You want to know why? You really, honestly wish to know?" I looked at him, because for once he didnt pause before asking me or saying anything, and it kind of surprised me. I nodded, and he sighed, looking away from me. "I have been thinking lately," He started. "about this whole situation that we've gotten ourselves into. We have been living off of leaves and grass for the past two and a half weeks, more than that. We go through each day risking dehydration, starvation, sickness. We have no resources, we barely have any light to live by. Anyone who was searching has probably long since ended the search for us. No one has come near here, and if they did, we would have known. They would have called out for us if they saw your bag up there. They would have tried looking down here. And no one has. No one has come here. No one is searching, and no one has any more hope for us. I did not say anything to you because I did not want to lie to you. I don't know if we will ever make it out of here. Demyx, I have a broken arm! I can't do anything! And with no one coming to look for us, how do you expect to get out of here? By risking your life to climb back up the cliff somehow? When we've been starving all this time? I didn't, I couldnt tell you we would be fine, because I dont think we will last too much longer. It is going to snow soon...and we have no way of living during the storms."

"We're a lost cause..." I said, mindless. I had been looking away from Zexion, taking in, for the first time, our real situation.

"Yes, Demyx..." He agreed with almost desperate relief.

"We...are we gonna die out here, Zexion...?"

"If you want me to be honest with you..." He began, looking at me, then looking away and laying down. "It has been colder each night. Winters here are early, and fierce. Blizzards are common, and we are caught in a very bad place. If the trees are covered, we are stuck in darkness and left to freeze. Our chances are one in a million. And I do not think we are going to survive for more than two weeks, Demyx."