Luckily, Blaine's chemo schedule worked out so that he would be able to attend the first day of school, which was now less than a week away. Blaine was excited and nervous about attending McKinley, but was glad to at least know Kurt, Finn, Rachel, and Mercedes. And, of course, he would be trying out for New Directions. He hoped Mr. Schuester would understand his frequent absences, and that the group would still accept him anyway.
Blaine had spent the last week of summer rehearsing a song to audition with. Kurt thought it was silly that Blaine was worrying over being accepted to New Directions. Kurt had never heard anyone with a more beautiful and angelic voice. Sure, Blaine wouldn't be able to make it to as many rehearsals as the other students, but he had the talent to make up for it. But Kurt was glad that Blaine finally had something to take his mind off of chemo and cancer. He couldn't remember that last time he had heard Blaine sing, and he couldn't believe how much he had missed hearing that voice. He couldn't believe he had forgotten how beautiful Blaine sounded when he really got into a song.
Soon, the last week of summer was done, and it was the morning of the first day of school. Burt had made a few phone calls to the school in order to arrange Kurt and Blaine's schedule so that the boys had all the same classes together, that way Kurt could keep an eye on Blaine and easily be able to help the boy catch up on missed classes and assignments.
Kurt and Blaine had also gone shopping for Blaine to get some new clothes for Blaine, since he would no longer be wearing the Dalton uniform. Kurt had picked out some fabulous hats for Blaine to wear, as well. Blaine was still a bit self-conscious about his bald head, even though Kurt reassured him time and time again that he could pull off the look. But Blaine didn't want the other students to be able to tell that he had cancer just by looking at him. Sure, New Directions and the teachers would know, but he didn't want special treatment from anyone else.
The second Kurt and Blaine walked through the front doors of McKinley, hand in hand, Rachel and Mercedes were instantly by their side, talking about how excited they were to have Blaine be joining them at school and in New Directions. Santana was next to greet them, mentioning that if anyone gave either of the boys a hard time, to let her know and she would kick some serious Lima ass. Sam, Puck, and Finn walked with them to class, glaring at anyone who so much as looked at the boys the wrong way, threatening them with their eyes if someone seemed to even be thinking about making a move to harm the two teenagers.
Kurt and Blaine relaxed a lot at having so much care and protection from their fellow glee club members. At least Kurt wouldn't have to worry about that.
Kurt, however, was wrong. It was the break right before glee club rehearsal at the end of their first day, and, so far, they had made it through the day without a single problem. But then, it came out of nowhere. An ice-cold, grape flavored slushie. Kurt and Blaine both hissed in pain, feeling like they had been bitch-slapped by an iceberg. But then, it was the other students around them gasping. Kurt looked around, surprised that the other students had even reacted. Normally, they just went about their business as if nothing had happened at all. Then Kurt saw what they were gasping about. When Blaine was slushied, his hat had fallen off, revealing his bald scalp. The students had put two and two together.
Kurt now felt that it was once again safe to think that he and Blaine would be safe from bullies. He knew that bullies didn't mess with Artie because he was in a wheelchair, so he figured the same rules would apply to a young boy with cancer.
Kurt quickly grabbed Blaine's arm and his hat from off the ground and rushed them into the closest bathroom to clean them off.
Blaine was shivering from the cold.
"Keep your eyes closed, Blaine. Trust me... if it gets in your eyes, it will sting like a bitch."
Blaine just nodded, but didn't say a word, still gently shivering.
Kurt cleaned Blaine off, then took care of himself. Blaine reached out a hand to help him, but Kurt shook him off, not wanting Blaine to worry about him. He needed to be strong for Blaine.
The boys left the bathroom hand in hand and set off for the auditorium so that Blaine could audition for glee club. Kurt was glad that this incident had happened right before glee so that Blaine could express himself through song, something both the boys had often done in order to cope with difficult times.
Blaine made it into New Directions, of course. In fact, Finn was beginning to worry that he would have major competition for a solo at Sectionals this year.
The first week of school, after that first day, of course, went smoothly for both Kurt and Blaine. They passed notes to one another during class, held hands in the hall, sang to one another in glee club, and no one slushied them again.
And then it was Saturday. The day of Blaine's third chemo treatment. Kurt went with him, like he always did, and was there by Blaine's side the entire weekend. Before leaving for school on Monday morning, his first day back at McKinley without Blaine, Kurt made sure that the painkillers and water were right by his bed for Blaine, and that Blaine's cell phone was within reach and fully charged so that the older boy could contact Kurt if he needed him. Kurt would gladly leave school, even in the middle of class, to take care of his boyfriend, if that is what Blaine needed of him.
But Kurt didn't hear from Blaine that day. He did, however, hear from quite a few bullies, who had no problem throwing slushies in his face and yelling hateful slurs at him, now that his cancer-laden boyfriend was nowhere in sight. But Kurt wouldn't tell Blaine this. Blaine had enough to worry about. He didn't need to know that Kurt was daily being tossed into dumpsters, shoved into lockers, and verbally abused regularly.
Every day that week when Kurt came home from school, he would instantly run up to his room and tend to Blaine. He would do his homework while Blaine slept, and stay up through the night with him when Blaine was crying in pain. He refused to let show how much all of this was affecting him. He didn't want anyone to worry about him. He had been through a lot before and was sure that he could take care of himself. He didn't see why he shouldn't be able to take care of Blaine at the same time.
And then Blaine was back at school. The bullying directed toward Kurt stopped once again, and things began to return to normal. Of course, Blaine was tired during that first week back, and had a lot of homework to catch up on, which Kurt helped him with, despite his own heavy workload, and they fell back into a regular routine.
After another week, Blaine had most of his strength back and he and Kurt were back to normal, enjoying high school among their peers. But Kurt was secretly dreading Blaine's next chemo treatment. He knew it wasn't fair to dread it, when Blaine was the one who would be suffering, but that's part of the reason why Kurt didn't want it the impending date to arrive. He was tired of seeing Blaine suffer. He knew that as soon as he was alone again at McKinley without Blaine by his side, the bullying would once again pick up too. New Directions and teachers didn't notice because they were only concerned with looking out for Blaine, forgetting that bullies had it out for Kurt in the past.
Kurt was exhausted, and didn't know how he would keep up with his own workload at school while taking care of Blaine all afternoon and into the night, then help him catch up on his homework the week after. There was only so much he could handle. But he had made a promise to Blaine. He had promised that he would be there for him. And Kurt never went back on his promises.
So Kurt didn't complain. He kept a smile on his face and supported his boyfriend, did well in all of his classes, and competed for solos in glee club. No one knew how much he was breaking inside.
And then Kurt's world fell apart. It was October, and Blaine had just returned to school after a week off to recover from his fourth chemo treatment. Both boys were exhausted, but were trying to push through it to do their best in school.
It was during one particularly exhausting glee rehearsal that Kurt began to notice something was off with Blaine. He seemed a bit sluggish in his movements, and Kurt was pretty sure that he was lip syncing. He wasn't really into the performance either, which was really odd for Blaine, who always went all-out.
Then Blaine began to sway on his feet. Kurt instantly made his way over to his boyfriend to tell him to take it easy and sit out if he needed to. After all, he had just returned to school after his week off for chemo, so his body was still recovering. Kurt was really tired, so he could only imagine how Blaine must have been feeling. But Kurt only made it to his boyfriend just in time to catch him as he passed out unconscious in his arms.
Kurt let out a yelp, then cried out for someone to call 911. Kurt sat on the floor, holding Blaine tightly in his arms, pleading for him to wake up and be ok. He was vaguely aware of two paramedics attempting to loosen Kurt's grip on his boyfriend, lifting Blaine onto a stretcher, and wheeling him away from him.
Kurt jumped up and began to run after them, shouting out, begging them to let him go with them. The paramedics apologized, saying that there was no room in the ambulance and that he should just meet them at the hospital. Kurt collapsed to the ground, crying, watching his boyfriend being wheeled away from him. For the first time since that fateful day at the hospital, Kurt was breaking his promise to Blaine. He wasn't there for him. Even if it was just a for a little while, Kurt was breaking his promise. His heart broke.
He vaguely felt a pair of arms wrap around him, and subconsciously realized that it was Finn providing this action of comfort, but Kurt's only reaction was to whisper, only loud enough for himself to hear,
"Please don't let him die."
A/N: Ugh, you guys. I'm so tired. I just posted this chapter without even editing it first. lol. Had to go back and make some changes.
I was really stuck on this chapter for some reason too, so I hope it doesn't disappoint. I'm really excited about the next chapter though. In fact, I might go ahead and write it right now... Kurt's going to hit rock bottom, and the sick masochist in me wants to make this happen asap. lol.
Hope you guys liked it! Review and let me know what you think. And again, I love all of you who have reviewed already. You guys are amazing, beautiful people.
