Chapter 2:
As Logan sat there and watched his son play with his younger brother, he thought back to when he was a little kid and he could remember playing with both of his older brothers outside in the fields in front of their house but he can also remember wanting to stay out there and never wanting to go back inside and having to face his father.
"Dinner is ready!" Carlos called out from the kitchen. Logan stood up, picking up Landon in the process, "Mitchell go and sit at the table." "Okay daddy." Mitchell ran into the dinning room and sat in his chair, "So Logan how is the album coming along?" Carlos asked as he placed the plates of food down, "Good I guess." Logan sat down, "There are just so many songs to chose from. Ace is worried he doesn't think that we will get the album done in time for the release date and he really doesn't want to change it."
"Well how many song do you have?" Carlos began to cut up some meet for Mitchell as Logan held a bottle in Landon's mouth. "We have about twenty five but we only want about fourteen songs on the album, we are thinking of using some as bonus songs." "Oh that sounds nice, sweetie." Carlos smiled at his husband, "Besides I'm sure whatever songs you chose you will sing great."
Logan smiled up at Carlos, he removed the bottle from Landon's mouth then placed him on his shoulder and began to pat his back. "Yeah but I also have to tell you that Ace wants me to go on a small tour with three other singers, but I'm not sure about it." "Oh why not?" Carlos asked. "Well, I don't want to be away from you and the boys for that long. And besides won't they be a hand full for you?" "Logie it's okay if you want to go you can and no the boys won't be a hand full for me I'll have Kendall and James to help me." Logan sighed, he smiled at Landon, "Well I'm gonna take him up to bed." "Okay."
Carlos watched as Logan walked upstairs. "I wonder what's wrong with daddy?" Mitchell just shrugged his shoulders, "I don't know either." As Logan walked upstairs and towards Landon's room he began to think of his family life as kid. He had his mother Holly Ellen Mitchell who was a workaholic and there was his father Brandon Mitchell, who was a drunk and a drug addict.
He also had his older blood brother Levi Oliver Mitchell, who Logan looked up to but sadly he died when he was eight years old. Then there is Landon Raven Mitchell, his older half brother from his father, but he lived with them so Logan looked up to him as well as Levi and then there is his older blood sister Ellen Emily Mitchell, who is the mother to his son Mitchell Levi Garcia and then when Logan turned five he learned that he had another half sister who is the same age as he is, Elenora Irene Anderson, who is the mother of his son Landon Logan Garcia. When Logan came out to LA to be apart of Big Time Rush his mother divorced his father and married a man named Michael Johnson and she also gave birth to his younger half brother; Michael Logan Johnson.
Carlos tapped Logan on his shoulder and brought him out of his thoughts, "Hey are you okay, sweetie?" Logan smiled at his husband, "Not really." He whispered so he wouldn't wake up Landon, "I'll tell you outside." Both Logan and Carlos walked out into the hallway leaving a sleeping Landon in his room, they watched as Mitchell went into his room to get ready for bed, "I have just been thinking of my childhood lately that's all." "Oh." Carlos muttered, "Why? I thought we agreed to leave that in the past and move on from it."
Logan sighed, he remembered the promise he had made Carlos the night of their wedding. Logan was getting cold feet and was thinking of his past a lot, his childhood and his past relationships and Carlos hated it. Carlos held his face in his hands and asked him to promise him that he would leave his past in the past and Logan agreed to it.
"I know Carlos." He sat down on the bed, "But I can't." "Damn it, Logan!" Mitchell opened their door, "Daddy, I am ready for bed." "Okay, daddy will be there in a minute to tuck you in." Logan smiled at his son. "Okay." Mitchell walked out of the room and went back to his room.
"Logan please leave it alone." Carlos begged. "Carlos, I can't it's not as easy as you think it is." Logan said. "Yes it is." Carlos stated. "No it's not! This isn't your past it's mines damn it!" Carlos was a little thrown back not only did Logan raise his voice but he also cursed and that isn't like Logan at all. "Fine Logan you do what you want to do." Carlos walked out of the room closing the door behind him and leaving Logan on their bed crying into his hands.
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