Hello everyone. Sorry that I am not going to update as fast as ususal, but I have to learn a lot now til april. I´ve still not decided whether this will be Brucas or Brulian. I love Brucas but I kinda love Brulian like on the show as well. I am excited as well how I will end it...thanks for your great support. As you know it means a lot to me. I´ve added the schoolshooting like promised in this chapter-but a bit different!Hope you enjoy it and tell me what you think!

„Hey Jimmy. Everything ok with you?", Brooke asked Jimmy who sat besides her. His glasses were destroyed and he had a blue eye. „Perfect. Everything is perfect." He said harshly back and looked away. Brooke did not know what to asked so she decided to focus on the class.

Brooke was actually enjoying being in the mathlete club. She started liking being apreciated for more than her looks and she liked spending time with Julian. In fact Julian liked spending time with her as well. Today it was the first time that he dared to ask her „Hey Brooke. Do you want to go to the cinema on the weekend?"

Brooke blushed a bit but loved the idea. „I would love to but I am still kinda grounded." „Oh. That sucks.", he smiled down at her and then did the unexpected. He suddenly kissed her on the mouth. In the school. Right in the hallway. He loved childly at her when he saw her shocked but happy face. „Guess then I have to do this here." Brooke blushed and had a big smile on her face.

Lucas was standing only a few metres away from them and his heart made a jump when Julian kissed Brooke. His first instinct was to punch him but he did not do it. Instead he went away and did not look back.

At the end of the day Brooke was going home with Lucas very happy. She did not tell Lucas about the kiss. Not because she did not want to or hide it but she somehow thought that this would be awkward. Lucas was her ex-boyfriend and although she knew that he had no feelings for her any more she could just not talk to him about other men.

Late at night she dreamt about Julian and hoped that this was just the beginning of a great relationship. Unfortunately she did not know that tomorrow would be a day that would change everything.

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The next day:

„I am so sorry Haley.", Brooke sat between Haley while Haley was crying. She felt really bad for her. She knew how important grades were for her and took her hand „Look. I did not mean to do it okay.", Brooke appologized but Haley pushed her softly „God Brooke. You should hear yourself. I am proud of you. I am just diappointed in me." Haley smiled while she wished her tears away.

„So, your the best this year. No big deal.", Haley lied.

„I know that it is a big deal for you. I wish I was not. It´s not important for me. I really just want to go back to the squad." Haley smiled at Brooke´s answer. „Brooke Davis you are weird.", Haley then smiled and got up and took Brooke along with her „Why?", Brooke asked.

The next thing happened to fast. Brooke could see the pupil with a gun and pushed Haley aside as fast as possible. Haley ran outside and thought that Brooke was behind her. But unfortunately Brooke had run into a room nearby instead of out and sat down on the floor and hugged herself. She did not dare to make a move but screamed when someone entered the room after what seemed like an eternity.

„Hello Brooke Davis.", Jimmy said to her and her eyes widened a bit. „Jimmy?", she answered confused and afraid at the same time. He sat down besides her, very near, and began to cry. Brooke did not know what to do but took his hand and pushed it once. „It will be okay.", she smiled weekly at him but was not prepared for his movements. She received a hard slap with his gun that split her lip open immediately. „Ouch", she said and touched her bleeding lip. She could not believe that Jimmy had just slapped her. She looked up into Jimmie´s eyes and could see his fear as well. He was so angry and sad at the same time. Not the Jimmy she had seen at the competition.

„You bitch. How can you say that. Your life is the best life one can imagine. How can you say to me that it will be okay? You know how people treat me. They treat me worse than they treat a dog. And since you took me as your fucking jocker I went up on the looser ranking. Thanks to you" he walked around the room and then took her by her shirt and pushed her against the wall. Her back hurt like hell when it crashed with the wall and her feet did not even reach the ground. „You don´t even know my last name", he screamed into her face and pushed her hard on the ground. Somehow Brooke felt sorry for him. „Yes I do.", she whispered. „So?", he screamed and pointed the gun at her. She shivered immediately. He would not really shoot her? „Jimmy Edwards. Please don´t", she tried to calm him down but he pulled the trigger and shot into the wall just a few inches away from her. Brooke let out a scream of scare and jumped up. She looked panicly at the wall and could not believe in what a situation she was in.

„So fine. You know my name but only because you´re now that popular mathlete", he said and went down crying harder pulling his hands in front if his face.

„I knew it before that. You were friends with Mouth and Lucas." Brooke looked sadly at him. He screamed but a bit softer than before „Yeah, until you came along and made them popular." Brooke widened her eyes. „I...what?", she asked.

„You pulled them away from me. I was too uncool for your clique and I had no one to talk to at school. You did not even look at me.", he revealed. Brooke answered immediately „I am sorry. I did not realize that you feel this way but those were never my intentions. I would never do such horrible things" Jimmy looked sadly at her and nodded „I know. It´s not your fault. And..and...since you´re in the mathlete club you showed me the difference but...but why did you have to pick me as a joker and why did somebody show the time capsule? Nobody cares about my feelings. You cannot understand this. Your life is perfect. You have a bunch of people who care for you. " Brooke whispered „My life is not perfect" He looked at her. „Okay, then tell me what it is before I kill you.", he sat besides Brooke and looked at the ceiling while still crying. Brooke´s cheek were wet as well. Somehow she felt that he was not going to kill her but she could also see his rage and knew that people sometimes acted on affect. He promptly pushed the gun into her stomach and said „Start."

Brooke´s tears were falling down her chin. „I...I dont know. I have no parents that care for me. I´ve seen them two years ago. I am not allowed to be at the cheerleading squad and..." Jimmy pushed the gun harder into her side. „That are problems?", he laughed „I get punched by assholes. I have no friends and I am invisible to anyone." Brooke felt so guilty at the moment.

„You´re not. I see you.", she said honestly not knowing what to do. „Yeah right. Now. But it is too late." „ God Jimmy. We have some classes together, not only the mathlete club. You were always better than me in every of it. You always draw in your little book and I think those are good ones.", she whispered „God Jimmy. We were togehter in kindergarden." She looked at him and although she felt so afraid she took his hands. Jimmy´s eyes widened. He would have never guessed that the Brooke Davis would pay so much attention to those details. „Are...are there more outside?", Brooke asked softly and Jimmy could feel her fear. „No, just me.", he cried. „Brooke." „Yes?" „What have I done?", he asked. „I will never get out of this again. I will get into jail."

„No, you won´t...you..", Brooke had no time to react when Jimmy put his gun against his head and pulled the trigger. A loud sound was coming out of it and the next thing she could see was the blood on the wall and he fell down on her lap with his head. She could not even scream. She stayed sitting on the ground with his blood flooding on her shirt and jeans. It was a warm sensation. She hated it and knew that she would remember this for all her life. At first Jimmy´s body made some fast movements but then it was not moving any more.

Lucas was running around the building when he heard the next shot. His pretty girl was somewhere in there and he had to find her. He did not care whether this would be dangerous. She had to be safe. He looked into every room but could not find her. Finally he saw the closed door. „Brooooke. Are you in there?", he screamed and then opened the door. He was shocked what he saw. Brooke was sitting on the ground. Blood was in her face and all around her body. At first he thought that it was her blood but then he saw Jimmy lying dead in her lap. Brooke did not cry. She just stirred. She did not even flinch when Lucas took his hand on her cheek. He wanted to move Jimma off of her but she protested „No. You´ll hurt him.", she said in a sad voice. Lucas did not understand what she meant. Somehow she seemed to be in shock. „Brooke. He is dead." he said to her and wanted to get her up but she protested again „No. He is not.", she whispered again and again. She did not even realize that she was now in Lucas arms and he was carrying her outside. But suddenly she let out a loud scream and ran back into the building. Karen had seen Lucas with Brooke in his arms and how Lucas and Brooke fell to the ground when Brooke suddenly protested and fought him. She hesitated not one minute and ran after the girl that was like a daughter for her. Lucas and Karen were shocked when Brooke was shaking the dead body. „Wake up. C´mon wake up. I am sorry Jimmy. I am sorry. I did not mean to. Wake up.", she shook him again and again but he was gone long time ago. Karen hugged Brooke from begind and wanted to push her outside but Brooke was not letting anybody near her or Jimmy. „Leave me alone.", she screamed and pushed Karen back. „Jimmy. C´mon. Please. I beg you. Please.", she shook him again and Lucas and Karen did not know what to do. But suddenly the paramedics and Swat team stormed into the building. They had to get the dead body and people who were hurt. „No don´t you dare touch him.", Brooke screamed as they wanted to lay a blanket over Jimmy. Brooke tried with all her might to fight them off but the doctors could see that she was in a shock state and hold her back. Actually one sedated her, so that she would calm down. Lucas finally could carry her outside. Karen was holding her small hand that was convered in blood. How could a day end like this?

Of course the paramedics checked her through but other than emotionally she was not hurt bad. The bruisings would go away soon. Karen and Lucas had insisted to take her home. Lucas knew that Brooke hated hospitals.

Finally she was half awake in the kitchen. She looked down at her hands and then at Karen who was hugging her tight. „Blood.", Brooke whispered the whole time. Karen took a sponge and wished it away from her face and hands. „C´mon sweety. We get it off of you.", she took her hand and went with her to the bathroom. „But that´s the only thing that is left of him.", Brooke said sadly and looked into the mirror. Karen unstrapped her clothes carefully. She was shocked to see that not only her shirt was soaked in blood, in fact her white underwear was now red. „Do you want to take a bath now?" Karen asked softly but Brooke did not react at all. She just looked into space, so Karen decided to help her. She unstripped her totally and helped her into the tube. She washed her hair and body and finally Brooke looked up at her with big sad eyes. „He shot himself Karen.", Brooke whispered and began to cry hard. Karen did not care that her movement pulled herself into the water fully closed. She had to hug the younger woman. It took a while that Brooke stopped crying. Karen stayed in the tube with her the whole time and hold her tight and caressed her back. Finally she wrapped her in a towel and Brooke took on her pyjamas. She felt exhausted and just wanted to sleep. „Can...can you stay?", Brooke whisperd to Karen. She was afraid to be alone. She was afraid to see the blood again and hear the shoot. „Of course sweety. Just let me change too." Brooke nodded and went with Karen into her room. There she laid down on the bed and was happy when Karen hold her so tight that she felt safe. Lucas opened the door slowly and looked into his mother´s room. He was glad that Karen was with Brooke. She could handle the situation better. But he felt the anger, shame, fear and sadness as well. Jimmy had been a friend of him and his pretty girl looked so lost. Karen looked at her big son and saw the sadness in his eyes. It was obvious that he had been crying as well. She held the blanket besides her up and Lucas came into her room as well and laid down snuggling a little closer to his mom. He could not remember the last time he had done this but at the moment he needed it. He looked down at the sleeping figure besides his mother and took his arm over his mother to feel Brooke as well. They stayed in this positon for a long time until Karen had to go to the toilet after some hours. Somehow Brooke woke up a minute later and began to scream. „Noooo. Don´t.", she did not wake up from her nightmare and tossed around until Lucas hold her tight against his chest and whispered words into her ears. „I´ll protect you Brooke. For ever." Karen got back into bed on the other side besides Brooke, so that Brooke was in the middle of Lucas and her. She caressed her back again and could see the big bruise on her back. She could not imagine what Brooke was going through but she knew she would help her every second and her son as well.