A/N- Well…..(insert nervous laugh here) I got one of my friends pissed at me and there's only one way to fix it…Advertising! You see we're both co-writing this one Naruto story called Masked Intentions and I was suppose to post the new chapter of it sometime last week but I posted a chapter of this story instead….so yeah….she told me she'd stop being so stand offish towards me if I told you people about it….so go take a look at it and review even if it's only to scold me for making such a strange story. PS- I'm sick with some terrible disease (not really…it's just a bad cold) so don't be mad if this chapter turns into crap.

Chapter 12- Blonde in the hospital

Zack pov

"Could I speak to you in private?" I looked at him strangely but nodded my head anyway.

Slowly the others exited the room one by one and for some reason it made me nervous to be alone with the small blonde. He seemed so familiar but I couldn't quite place where I knew him. As the last person left the room he looked me over with judging eyes. Finally his gaze moved to my hands and they froze there. Normally my hands were put under heavy raps but they had been healing rather well as of late and though they were still pretty bad, they had gotten better somewhat. I could wear my class ring again without pain.

I would still have to explain to others why I wore it on my left ring finger but it never bothered me. Shuichi at some point, when we were little, had taken…a liking to me and had convinced me that when we were older that if we continued to wear our class rings like this that it would mean we were married. Of course that was only the wishful thinking of young children and at some point Shuichi had lost interest so it was all for not but we both still wore our rings like this.

I stared at Tohma and for a moment I was confused as he busted into laughter. Seeing this, he quickly collected himself, and raised his own hand, "Another reason to know you I guess. Not many Zack Addys have gone to Hackley's school (1) now have they. You were one of Shuichi's friends, right?"

I was left speechless as I stare at the ring that he had set on his pointer. When I finally found the nerve to speak the only thing I could say was, "You were in Hackley?"

"Lived there for about twelve years! My father was actually the dean but I guess you haven't seen me all that much sense then. Remember the older boy that Shuichi was always following around….yeah that was me…" He was still snickering as he said it. "I see you still wear the ring as you always did."

I turned a light shade of pink, "Shu still wears it this way to..it's like an inside joke!"

He wiped not existent tears from the corners of his eyes, "As I suppose it is in some way…"

He, after calming himself to some extent, became very serious, "I've heard you haven't been very smart the passed year….and out of the three of us you had always had the most common-sense. Tis tis tis….I'm actually a bit ashamed of you….a Gormagon! Shame on you Zack….shame on you."

I raised an eyebrow at this, "Well….your far out of the loop at this point…everyone knows that by now."

He shrugged it off, "Doesn't change the fact that you are one…such a thing should have been beneath you."

"I did it for a reason you know….there was a way to end this and I wanted it to end….the war would only have one victor and if it were me then I could stop this insane cycle….so….I did what I had to do," I muttered.

His eyes darkened a fraction and before I took any real notice to it they had returned to normal, "I never knew that…..an actual war is going….I wonder why this isn't mention around the streets?"

"They keep it secret pretty well," I said nonchalantly.

He nodded his head once and started to move on the bed restlessly, "Zack?"

"Yeah?"

"Grab my bag over there and help me into one of the wheelchairs….I can't stand just laying around all day!" He demanded as he pulled himself over to the side of the bed.

I reached for the bag and accidentally knocked it to the floor. Several things fell out including a bottle of Tricyclic and different types of sedatives (2). I quickly put them back into the bag before he could see. I set the bag on the handle of the chair and wheeled it over to him. He hopped into the chair and gave me directions to get through the hospital. At some point when we got into the elevator, he took his cell phone out and had a short but cheery conversation on it with someone and then put it back. In the end we end up on the roof.

Tohma took in a big breath and let it out slowly, "Ah fresh air! I really needed this. The view's great and it's actually pretty nice out don't you think?"

I looked out at the view and I had to admit the two coupled together did make for the perfect thing. A warm day and a direct view of some blooming cherry blossoms was just right, "Yeah….I suppose it is."

He looked out at the sky with a thoughtful expression, "Zack-kun?"

"hmmm?"

"Do you remember when you and Shu had that adorable little relationship?"

I blushed a deep red, "I was seven and he was five….it didn't really count."

He turned back to me with a smug look, "That didn't stop you from falling for the boy sense then, now did it? I thought it was rather cute actually….how through out the years you ended up falling for him."

"Well…..*sigh* it's not like it matters….." I said half-heartedly. "He's in love with Yuki….."

Tohma pursed his lips and his eyes became a little unfocused, "Yeah….he is."

The wind started to blow harshly and I looked up into the sky only to see a helicopter lowering a ladder down. Tohma stood up shakily and walked the short distance it took to get over to it. He grabbed one of the rails and his sleeve slipped down to reveal his heavily bandaged arm(3). He started to climb up and the chopper rose higher into the sky….in the last minute before it flew out of sight he turned around and threw something.

A sharp pain shot through me. I scanned my body slowly and came across….the hilt of a knife like object(4). In the next few moments everything went black.

Tohma pov

I climbed the rest of the way up and dragged myself in. After the door was securely shut I collapsed onto the seat and the full force of what had just happened fell upon me. Had….had I really done that? W…why? Why did I just do that? There was no reason to do that!

'Who said there wasn't,' a little voice inside me said. 'He was in your way…so you had to.'

My head shot up and I looked around frantically for the person who had just spoken, "Who's there?"

'Who's there? Why it's me…it us…we're all here Tohma,' the voice said. 'It has been so long sense we have spoken…it's only natural that you've forgotten us.'

"Who are you!"

A grouping of voices started to laugh and I felt like I was about to faint because of it. 'We are everything and nothing, I am you…and you are me.'

The room started to spin and I passed out.

Everything was dark and the walls around me were black. I tried to stand but as I got up a gust of wind knocked me back down, "Now now Tohma dear…there's no need to get up now."

"Yeah….no need to get up Tohma!" voices repeated as mirrors(5) came up from the floor. "No need to get up…no need to get up!"

A flash of light travel along the surfaces of the glass and as it got to the bottom another version of myself stood there. Some sad, some happy, most men, some female, some kind, others….not so kind. In the biggest mirror in the center of the room was a man who appeared to be the most like me…but his smile was different. It was sadistic and it didn't reach his eyes.

"Who are you!" I shouted over the voices telling me to stay still.

The man shook his head and laughed, "You don't remember! you don't remember when you father would ignore you and you'd starve….no you'd say it was one of us starving. When he would beat you….no he wouldn't beat you….he'd be beating one of us….when he…when he raped you…he'd be raping one of us.

"You couldn't stand the idea of being in the situation you were in so told yourself that it wasn't happening to you but someone else. We took root in your mind so you could have easy access to us anytime you needed….some of us don't like the arrangement though…namely me.

"Normally you would just listen to my judgment….thinking that it would help you in some ways….but sometimes….haha…sometimes you just won't listen so I have to knock you out and take over, myself. Like in New York! Or that night in the bar! You were planning to comfort Shuichi but then you got a call from Yuki….and it made you angry but you didn't know who to be angry at anymore….Shuichi for loving your precious Eiri or Eiri for loving your little Shu….it really did mess you up to find out that the two Shuichi's you knew were the same person, didn't it?

"It's always easy to take control when your angry…I took over and called Rage to come pick Ryuichi up and then I slipped some sedative into the drink I gave to Shu….and some into Ryu's….When Rage showed up….Ryu was pretty much dead to the world and he didn't even notice that it wasn't you who took him home….and I just stayed and watched….When Shuichi left with that one man….I couldn't help it…I followed…..I even killed the that one boy….Taki? He was a nuisance….though he did make a good meal….Shuichi would have probably been even better had that damn dog not attacked me.

By the end of his rant I was cowering away from him while holding my head, "No…no…I wouldn't!"

"I'm you…so if I would then you would," the voice said slickly. "And I suppose you will….or rather I will….I'll be in control for a little while….and Shuichi will be my only real company for that entire time."

A/N- Well that's it for this chapter. Sorry if it turned into crap…like I said…I'm sick so I have an excuse. Go check out Masked Intentions. And Review review review! PS- you should go check out my fan fiction Ride on Gravity (Gravitation/Maximum Ride) crossover. Review review reviw!

(reasons for the random numbers in the story)

(1) The school actually exists. it's a boarding school in New York K-12.

(2) It can be used to treat (DID) or (MPD) Multi-Personality Disorder and the same sedatives that could have been used to treat this could have been slipped into their drinks.

(3) In the bar only his hand was bitten…but he had his whole arm bandaged (that was a hint I put in the story) and Shuichi had told his dog to attack.

(4) Remember Tohma's letter opener? (evil smile) yeah…I gave a couple hint's

(5) hint from the last chapter.