Chapter Eighteen

Bella's Point of View

After my little breakdown we continued our tour around the castle. I showed Edward the Library and the Music room. We then came to the bedrooms on the top floor.

"This is Rose's room… this is Alice's room… My mother's room is on the other wing of the castle, and this is my room." I said showing him the rooms.

We stopped in front of my door and I opened it. I walked in and he followed, automatically looking at the pictures of my friends and my family on my walls.

"Look around if you want. I don't mind." I said with a smile. He smiled back and before I could blink, he was looking at the pictures of me and my family smiling into the camera. There was one of Alice and I when we were younger shopping at the mall with huge smiles on our faces as mom picked out a shirt that Alice and me really liked on her.

There was another with dad and I putting on goofy faces while looking into the camera with Rose and Mom in the background laughing at us. That was when Alice was holding the camera trying to take a picture of us.

He then came to one of me on the beach. I was looking out into the water with a white sundress on. It looked like a professional picture, but it was actually one my father took when he was coming to check up on me. My hair was blowing in the wind along with my dress. My arms folded just under my chest.

"So this is what you look like when you go to the beach?" Edward asked, it sounded more like a statement though.

"Yeah, dad was coming to check up on me that day and he thought it was a good shot so he took out the camera and took the picture before I could notice." I said, looking at the picture now.

"You loved your father very much didn't you?"

"Yeah, he was my best friend." I said with a smile, still looking at the picture.

Edward looked at me with adoration in his eyes. "Your father loved you very much. It's hard not to notice the way he looks at you in these pictures."

"I guess." I looked at Edward with a smile.

"I know." Edward smiled and brought me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around his waist and smiled into his chest.

"You're too good for your own good you know that?" I asked looking up at him.

"You're too good for me, do you know that?" He retaliated.

"We're meant to be together. I think everything happens for reason and fate had brought us together for that reason."

"Well I'm going to have to thank fate later." He smiled down at me and slowly leaned in to kiss me.

My lips moulded into his as my hands travelled up his chest and snaked around his neck. His hands moved down to my lower back. He hugged me closer. We were so close that not even air could pass through. I loosened my hold, but continued to kiss him. He broke apart from my lips but continued to trail his lips down my neck. My hands moved to the front of his shirt and started to undo the buttons there. Edward froze and grabbed my hands before I could undo the third button.

"Bella, we can't do this." He gasped.

"Why not?" I asked… feeling rejected. Did he not want me? Of course he didn't.

"Because I could hurt you." He replied.

"Are you sure that's the reason?" I asked.

"Of course it is! I wouldn't want anything more then to make love to you! I just don't want to hurt you." Edward released my hands and moved his to my face.

"I'm stronger then you think. Fairies are a lot stronger then humans." I told him.

"I still don't think we should do this. I love you. I don't want anything bad to happen." He said looking into my eyes.

"Nothing bad can happen when you are with me." I said and kissed him once more. He broke away but kept a hold on me. I felt tears come to my eyes. He didn't want me.

"Bella… no, don't cry. I want you. I really do. I just don't want it to happen like this. I want it to be special for you. I also don't want the chance that someone is going to walk in. I heard someone coming Bella. They decided last minute to leave you alone." Edward explained. He held me tightly to him.

"It's not that you don't want me?" I whispered against his chest.

"No. I want you. I just want it to be special. Okay?" He said looking into my eyes.

"Alright." I said with a little smile and pecked him on the cheek.

"Now, what is to be expected at this 'ball' anyways?" He asked as he sat down on my huge bed and brought me with him.

"Well, since you are technically my date, you will wait at the bottom of the staircase for me. They will announce My mother's then my sisters and then my name and I will gracefully walk down the stairs and into your arms. That's about it. it's different then in the movies. No one really expects you to be all, I don't know… stuck up and perfect." I said to him. "It's almost like a dance at a school but, this time, everyone's going to be there. Fairies from all over the world will be there. Even the annoying."

"They cannot be that bad." He said.

"You try being asked out by five guys in one hour, then tell me if it's bad or not."

I heard him growl and turned to meet his gaze. I touched his face with my fingers and said, "There's only one guy I've ever wanted."

He smiled at me and said, "I wonder who that is…"

"Oh, as if you don't know." I smiled at him.

"Oh, I think I do." He smiled and we just laid there for a little while before I fell asleep in his arms.