this is a work of ficton nothing more nothing less

I woke up that afternoon and the events of the night before came flooding back to had I was going to happen from here on out?Ryan and i had had sex and i wasn't sure where to go from he going to ignore me now and pretend nothing happened?Was this something more?Iguess this would be why I have never had a serious boyfriend i thought to I not only had classes to deal with but i now had this guy that I was slowly realizing that I was crazy for and I had no idea where i stood with him.I also had a sister that was beyond pissed off at me great i thought to myself she thinks Im a whore that much i this is quite a fine mess you have made for yourself Katie I thought to myself.I got up off the bed and went downstairs to face the music.

When i got downstairs i saw my sister sitting at the kitchen table I turned back to go back to my roomwhen i heard her say...

"Katie stop i want to talk to you."

"Why" I said"So you can tell me what a whore i am again I think Ill pass Kat."

"No sit down I just want to talk."she said."Im so so so sorry for how I acted last night i had no right and Im sorry."

I sat down and looked at her with a blank expression on my this point I wasn'twe had much to talk about.

"Kat its the weekend Monday I will see about getting housing on campus you dont have to apologize to keep the peace.""Ill move outyou made it quite clear how you felt last night."tears started to form in the coroners of my eyes.

"No please don't leave I really am sorry I don't know why i acted that way but I didn't mean it.""Katie please stay."

Tears rolling down my faceI said"Kat I have put up with other peoples shit mywhole life from mom when dad was being an asshloe and from dad because I would never be perfect in his eyes like he thinks you are I have no intrest in taking your verbal abuse as well."This was it I had never put my foot downabout anything in my whole life but I was now."For your information last night was my first time with anyone ever so Im hardly a whore and second don't act like you have never done anything wrong your not perfect."

"Your not mom Katand Im not a child and I wont be treated like one.""What happened last night was between Ryan and I not you YOU HAD NO RIGHT!"

"I know that and Im sorry please dont leave Katie."she said I dont want to fight I just want to be there for you I just hope you know what you are doing getting involved with ryan."

Just then Ryan walked into the kitchen.

"What do you mean you hope she knows what shes doing?"Ryan said."Kat i would never take advantage of her it's not like that and she is right it's really none of your business."

"Look you two if you want to be together or what ever you are I can't stop you I just don't want you to hide it from me I realize I was wrong to act that waylast night and Im sorry I want both of you in my life please forgive me.

I thought for a minute and it really wasn't going to do me any good to stay mad at her.I had allready had my say and layed my opinion out there and I honestly believed she was sorry and she was my sister.I also felt better after i heard what ryan had said.I was glad i wasn't some one night stand or something.

"You know i can't stay mad at you forever."I said and I hugged her.

"Me to"Ryan said"just don't ever do that again I would never use anyone for sex least of all your sister I really enjoy her company and I think we have something special."Ryan said.

There now it was all out in the open I thought to myself.I turned to walk out of the kitchen when I felt arms wrap around my wasit I turned around and saw Ryan smiling down at me.

"I mean what I said."he said."I would like to make something of this I have not ben able to get you out of my mind for a month and it has been driving me crazy."If thats what you want of course."he said.

"There is nothing I would like more."I that he pressed his lips lightly to mine.

"Get dressed ."he said. "I want to take you out to dinner and I won't takeno for an anwser."

"A little pushy arn't you?"I said.

He laughed."Just please be ready by 5:30 please."He said. "Ive got plans made for us."with that he walked upstairs to get dressed.

I went upstairs in my room and sat down on my bed. I could not believe this was all happening and so days ago I would not have even imagined this .I felt like pinching myself to make sure i wasn't dreaming.I got my outfit out which consisted of one of the new dresses i had boughtand a pair of heels.I wasn't by any means a pro at wearing heals but I figured I would have to learn sometime and there was no time like the present.I hurried and took my shower and got dressed I straightened my hair put on some makeup and looked in the mirror.I was nervous I had never been on a date like this and I hoped it didn't show.I was doing things ass backwards I thought to myself the date should come before the sex I thought to my self and laughed.I had tomany things running through my mind I all of a sudden wanted to call Josie and ask her what I should do but I thought better of it.I didn't know if i was ready to tell anyone yet and with Ryan being on t.v. and all I didn't know how he would feel about it there was a knock at the door.

"Can I come in?"Kat said.

"Yes you can come in im decient."I laughed.

"You look reallynice Katie."Kat said."I hope you have a good time tonightand just remember you can always talk to me im here for you please always remember that no matter what."she said.

"I know."I said."Now do I really look okok or do i look a hot mess?"

"Katie you look beautiful you have grown into such a bautiful woman now go and have a good time."

I grabbed my coat and headed down the stairs .When i reached the livingroom i saw Ryan standing there waiting for looked georgous in his dark jeans and his black button down shirt.

"Whoa"he said "You look beautiful."

"Thankyou I said you look pretty damn good yourself."

I slipped on my coat and he slipped his arm around my waist as we walked out to his truck.

The restaurant we went to was a nice little italian place out of the sat and talked and all the nerves I had had melted away.

"So you think we can really make this work?"I asked ryan.

"Katiewhy do you say that I mean Ive only known you for a few months and I cant imagine my life without youyour not only beautiful but your a damn good cook and my best friend."he said."I sat across the table from this wonderful man in amazement and wondered how did I get this lucky.

He took my hand and said"Katie I am in this for the long haul please dont ever doubt my feelings for you.""I thing we have found something really special."

"I do to for the last few days all I have been able to think about is you I have always hads trust issues but somehow I trust you completly.

We just stared at each other until our food arrived After we finished our meal and Ryan took care of the check and we headed we walked in the door I took off my coat and ryan spun me around and we shared the most passionate kiss im sure each of us had ever had.

I hope to have a new chapter up in a few days sorry about the long break.