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I awoke to everywhere it was blinding.I struggled to open my eyes but could not open them fully.I felt like I had been run over by a car from what I could see I was in a hospital room and for a breif second I wondered how I got it all came flooding back to me no I thought to myself this is not happening this did not happen but the more I layed there and replayed the events of the previous night I came to the realization that it had.I then wondered how much everyone else knew and what had happened in the hours I had been out.I heard a knock at the door and two older men walked into my room.

"Good to see you awake."the man said."I am detective Wilson and this is my partner detective Adkins."

"Hi"I managed to squeek out.

"Can you tell us anything about what happened to you do you remember anything?"

I thought for a second before I in all my pain and confusion I remembered what it had told wanted me to hate him and I knew it wasnt him that did this to me telling them what happened would only play into what it wanted and I wasnt having it.

"Honestly I have no idea I went downstairs and thats the last thing I remember before waking up here."I lied

"Well we are going to do whatever it takes to find out who did this to you your lucky to be alive."detective Adkins said."I want you to take my card and if you remember anything I want you to call."

"I will." I said and they walked out the door.

I just layed there a minute and wondered what was going on baack at the house I wondered if everyone knew what had happened.I then wondered if they were allright.I felt like curling up in a ball and just dying and then I thought what was going to happen when I had to see would I be able to look at him I wasnt mad at him per say but I wondered if I wold ever be able to get past this and past the fact that he couldnt pull himself out of it and stop.I looked up to see my sister standing in the doorway tears running down her face.

"Katie " she said her voice barley above a whisper.

I began cyring and she ran over to sit with me.

"Im so happy to see you awake you dont know how scared and worried Ive been."

"I think Ill live." I said noticing that I couldnt talk above a whisper again.

"Are you ok do you want me to get the nurse?"Kat asked.

"No please dont IM sure Ill see enough of them."

"So how bad is it my face I mean?" i asked."Imafraid to look."

The look on her face said it all "Its better than when I found you I couldnt even see it when i found you there was so much blood."

"I think you might want to withdraw from your classes when we get back and just take some time to heal."

"Are you kidding me why would i do that if people dont want to look at me then they dont have to Im not going to lock myself away like I did something wrong and punish myself."

She looked away from me and ran her hands through her hair."Katie there is something I have to tell you and im not sure how your going to take it and I am so sorry you have to find out this way"

"What do I have brain damage or something I mean what else could you possibly have to tell me Kat I allready know I look like shit and I havnt even seen myself yet."

"Oh my God I cant do this."she said and stood up.

"Cant do what what is it if you have something to say then just say it."I said secretly afraid that she knew exactly what had happened and was trying to figure out a way to tell me.

"Katie your pregnant." she said.

I sat there on the bed in shock.

"What are you talking about no Im not are you crazy?"

"Yes you are and no Im not crazy believe me I would rather be crazy and have all this go away."she said.

I looked at her and could tell from the look on her face that she was the fuck I thought to myself could this get anyworse I didnt know what to say I started to cry my tears burning my bruised face.I went to wipe the tears away and was met with pain.

"You cant tell him."i said quickly.

"Katie he has the right to know its his baby to you cant just not tell him."

"I cant deal with this right now and if you tell him I swear I will never fucking speak to you again and if you think Im joking try me."I said

"Why Katie I dont understand he loves you its not like hes going to walk out on you how can you just not tell him I wont tell him but you better because somehow he will end up finding out."

"Im not telling him shit I dont know if I ever want to see him again let alone have a baby with him I will deal with this I dont want you getting involved."I said.

"I know what happened is horrible but you cant shut yourself off from everyone let himbe there for you your going to need all the support you can get." "You cant just never see him again and you cant hide the fact that your pregnant from im its just not right."

By now I was so mad at her and really I should not have been she didnt know and in all actuality she was right but at that moment i didnt care it was all to much and I just could not deal with having to see him let alone tell him I was pregnant.I wonderd if he was even aware of what happened.

"So what are you going to do?"she asked.

"I dont know all I do know is that right now I dont want to have anything to do with him I have some things I have to figure out please dont say anything."

"I know you have been through alot but i think you need to see him and talk to him you cant just write everyone off we all love you please dont shut us all out." "Im going to go out in the hall and give everyone an update everyone is really worried and I havnt talked to them scence we were in the ambuance ill be right back."

She left the room and I began to think of how in the hell I was going to get the hell away form everyone especally Ryan.