Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns the characters. The story is mine to tell.
There is black letters it appeared PREGNANT! I was pregnant! Oh shit!
Holy crow that explains a lot. How am I going to tell Mike? We hadn't even discussed children we were both young, only twenty. I sat down as the air left my body. This was huge! I put the stick on the bed and with shaking hands took a photo of it on my phone. I attached it to a message with the caption 'SURPRISE!' and sent it to Mike's phone. Hopefully he'd see the funny side.
I went through to kitchen and made myself a soothing cup of tea. I love working with kids but having one of my own? Will I be a good mother? Will the child grow up happy and healthy? Will I survive the birth? The doctors said my mother had a heart condition, what if it was genetic? Fear and dread filled me as I thought about making an appointment to get checked out, all the what if's and possibilities running through my mind.
I was in the middle of stirring the noodles and checking on the sauce when the door blew open and Mike came bursting in, "What was that picture you sent me? Was it what I thought is was?", way to go straight to the point Mike.
"Well if you think that it is a positive pregnancy test and that you're going to be a baby daddy then, yes it's exactly what you think it is." I smiled nervously. I hoped he would take the unexpected news well.
"I'm….I'm gonna be a daddy? Oh My God Bella! This is like the most fantastic news ever!" Mike came over and hugged me for everything he was worth. A good reaction. Maybe everything will be ok after all.
"You're not mad? I thought you would maybe be upset with me. We've just started our lives together and our careers I didn't want you to think it was to soon…." he put his finger to my lips, silencing me in an instant.
"I've never been happier Bella. Ever since we were in high school I dreamed of us getting married and having a family. Oh…we have to tell everyone like now!" Mike started bouncing around like a child all excited for Christmas. I couldn't help but laugh at his exuberance.
"Easy tiger. Do you not think that we should go to the doctors first, make sure everything is okay before we announce it from the rooftops?" I had a few questions I wanted answered first. The most important being if I was going to survive the pregnancy.
"Okay Bella. Lets make the appointment first thing tomorrow morning. I want all our families to know as soon as possible. I can't stop smiling." he was looking at my face properly for the first time since he walked through the door. "are you not happy Bella? What's wrong?" Mike wasn't smiling anymore.
"I am happy Mike it's just I'm worried that's all. I mean what if my mum's heart condition is hereditary? I never got checked." the tears were forming in the corners of my eyes.
He took me in his arms and kissed my forehead. I felt safe and loved. There was no point worrying until I'd been to the doctor. Inhaling deeply I shook of my feeling of dread and turned quickly to rescue the noodles which were starting to stick to the bottom of the pan.
The rest of the night was quiet. Mike kept glancing at me and smiling reassuringly when I caught his eye. We went to bed and made love to each other. Slow and gentle but heated enough that I fell asleep instantly. My dreams were full of babies and a woman's face that was unrecognisable because of a misty veil. There was crying out and sounds of pain. A gentle voice in the background saying that everything would be okay.
I woke up in a cold sweat and feeling queasy. I hoped that this wouldn't last long. Running to the bathroom and emptying my stomach into the toilet bowl made me feel instantly better. I had a quick shower and brushed my teeth before getting dressed and having breakfast. Mike had already gone to work but left a note saying he loved me and reminding me to book an appointment.
After making a few phone calls I managed to get an appointment for later on that afternoon. Mike wouldn't be able to be with me and I was semi relieved at this fact. I don't know how emotional I was going to become and I didn't want him to worry. I thought about calling Alice but didn't want her to find out before we'd even told our parents so I decided to go it alone.
The day seemed to drag, I was pacing up and down, willing for the time to pass more quickly. In the end I decided to go to the book store. There were literally hundreds of books on pregnancy both during and afterwards. I decided on a book that went from conception to toddler. It was massive and even the brief glimpse at it's pages gave me more information than my brain could handle.
With twenty minutes left I heaved a sigh and went to the doctor. The appointment was actually at Forks hospital which made me nervous as Carlisle was a surgeon there. I prayed that he was busy and I wouldn't bump into him. I felt better as I made it to the appropriate waiting room without spotting him and relaxed further when my name was called.
"Good afternoon Mrs. Newton. If you'd like to have a seat in the examination room Dr. Masen will be with you shortly." the nurse had a kind smile on her face as she seemingly sensed my nerves. I was sat with my head down playing with my nails when a heard a throat clear. I hadn't even heard the door.
"Good Afternoon Mrs Newton. To what do I owe this pleasure?" that voice was familiar but I couldn't place it until I looked up. It was a good job I was still sitting because I felt all the colour drain from my face and an overwhelming dizziness as I was met with the greenest eyes I had ever seen.
"You? I mean Edward…Dr. Masen? I didn't know you worked here. The last time Alice spoke of you she said you were in Seattle. Are you my doctor? Please don't tell anyone about today." I had no control of the velocity of the words pouring from my mouth.
"It's good to see you too Bella. I'm afraid I'm the only doctor available at present and yes I was working in Seattle but I wanted a new experience so uncle Carlisle pulled some strings here. As for telling anyone, I've taken an oath I cannot break patient doctor confidentiality." he was entirely professional apart from a small smirk playing on his full lips.
"Oh okay. Yes that's fine. It was just such a surprise to see you, so can we do this?" I couldn't take my eyes off his beautiful face. I bet all his female patients were the same, he looked immune to it.
"Of course Bella. So what brings you to my office?" he held a manilla patient folder in his hands. I was a clumsy child and was forever being brought here by Charlie, so to me it looked awfully thick but I hadn't really gone into detail about why I was here when making the appointment.
"Ah right yeah. Well the thing is I took a pregnancy test yesterday and it was positive." I was looking down again, my voice soft and slightly trembling.
"I see. So are you not happy about this? Or you're husband?" it wasn't a surprise that he asked this. The way I was acting wasn't exactly like a joyful expectant mother.
"Oh no nothing like that. We're both thrilled….it's…I'm worried about my health and the baby's. My mother died when she was having me. A heart defect that they didn't know about until it was too late. I'm afraid that it might be genetic or something. I've always been healthy so never thought about checking it out until now." a low sob escaped my lips when I had finished. I mentally scolded myself for being so weak in front of Edward.
"That must've been hard for you're dad. Losing the woman he loved like that. First things first. I need to establish how far into your pregnancy you are. Can you roughly estimate before I examine you?" he waited patiently for me work it out.
"Anything between 4-6 weeks? It was on our honeymoon and we went away nearly 7 weeks ago and we were away for two weeks." I nodded my head in affirmation to myself.
"Okay. I have to examine you to give you a estimated due date. Because you seem to fairly certain you're so early on it'll have to be an internal examination. You'll have to take off your trousers and underwear and pop up on the table. Here is a sheet to cover yourself, I'll pull the curtain and if you give me a shout when you're comfortable we'll begin." he a passed me a white sheet and pulled the curtain round to give me some privacy.
I was almost embarrassed that he was going to see such an intimate area on my body. The only other person had been Mike and that was completely different. He's a doctor, I mentally chided as I undressed and got myself as comfortable as possible.
"I'm ready" I squeaked out as he started to pull the curtain back enough so that he could come in with the equipment he had been setting up.
"Right Bella, I want you to put you're feet into the stirrups and relax you're body as much as possible for me. Good. Next I'm going to put this camera up to your uterus so I can see your baby on this screen. From there I'll be able to determine how far into your first trimester you are okay?" I quickly nodded my head the sooner I had clothes on the better.
"I'm putting on some gel so it will be cold okay Bella?" again I nodded as he squirted the gel onto the suggestive looking camera and folded back the sheet to begin. He paused for the littlest of moments so much so I thought I had imagined it as well as him breathing the word beautiful when looking at me. I felt the wetness pool from my core as I thought about Edward thinking I was beautiful.
I was brought back to the present when I felt the cold probe enter me. I automatically tensed at the intrusion which caused Edward to stop and ask me to relax again. Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes and went to my happy place momentarily forgetting where I was I was or what was happening.
"Well from what I can I see I'd say you were 6 weeks and 4 days and everything looks normal. The placenta is where is should be but we'll know more when you have a scan." Edward said as he took the camera out of me, cleaned it and pulled off his gloves. "I'll leave you to get dressed before we discuss your other concerns.
I took a moment to compose myself. I didn't like that I'd had even the briefest feeling of attraction towards Edward. It was unnerving and so very wrong. When I was dressed he said that id have to make another appointment with the cardiologist to check that my heart was healthy and not to worry at this early stage. We said our goodbyes and I left to tell Mike the good news.
On the drive home it suddenly hit me. We must have conceived on our first time. I know that it only takes one time but the first time? I guess that'll teach to be in the moment and forget protection.