I got home and decided to text Cam my address. I was a little nervous about him coming to pick me up but I knew that if I had him come at 2:30 we might not run in with my mom.
"Hey Cam, my address is 6 busch st, i guess come at like 2:30?". I went to take my nap and I was having a real issues trying to sleep. I was freaking out over Cameron coming to pick me up, but I was finally able to drift into sleep. I swore I set my alarm, but I was awaken by my phone ringing, it was Cam. He said he thinks he's infront of my house. I looked outside and he was here, I grabbed my book and ran outside. I got into his car and he smiled, "I like your hair messy like that", I freaked out, I looked in the mirror and my hair was fine, "thats not funny, I overslept again, I didn't even look in a mirror", "I know, thats why I did that to you" I laughed. He dropped me off at school and said he'd see me in an hour.
As Im walking to class I hear my name being called, I turn around to see my friend Lex behind me. She asks where's the new boy I've been with, and shes wondering whats going on between us. She tells me how cute she thinks we are and how she approves. During our class together I tell her whats going on and asks her for her advice about the entire situation and explains how he is leaving in a few months. Lex tells me what I was already thinking, "if its ment to be, it will be, and dont worry about him leaving until he actually does. or it at least gets closer", her advice helps make me feel better about the situation. Class was finally over and Cam texted me to tell me he's here and ready whenever I am. I walk to his car and jump in. "I have cold groceries, so would you mind coming to the apartment with me?" he suprised me with, "Uhm what about the guys?, I really dont think its the best idea". I really didnt want to go to the apartment I was worried about the guys, but Cam said they will all probably be sleeping, they were recording almost all night. Reluctantly I agreed to go.
As we were heading to the apartment I realized we were very close to my house, so I thought I was getting driven home, until we made a right and kept going. We were going to the apartment but I didnt realize how close to my house the boys' aparetment was. We got to the house and everyone was asleep, except for Michael who was recording a new Youtude video on how to be "Swagalicious". I laughed at him when he told us this, and he told Cam that he should watch the video and take some tips. I stood up for Cam, telling Michael that he didnt need tips that he was already good, Cam just looked at me and smiled. Cam put all the groceries away, I offered to help but he said he had it under control. After he put the dishes away, he wanted to give me a tour of the aparment but warned me that we had to be quiet because Zach, Nathan and Dillion were sleeping. Cam took me around, showing me where the boys were sleeping, where he sleeps, the kitchen(again), their living room, their clean bathroom, that he was very proud of. The last place he took me was their backyard, which was more like a patio with maybe a foot of grass behind it, there was a fire pit and some chairs around it. It was cute. "you guys should have a bonfire and make Smores. Cam liked that idea, then Nathan walked out as I said that and agreed that they should definately do that, and that I better come. Cam excused himself for a minute and Nathan and I are alone.
I've never been alone with Nathan so this is a little awkward, Nathan asked me about how serious I am about Cam. So I wasn't sure if I should tell him the whole thing, but he has that face which looks like I can trust him, "Well, I really like him, like a lot, but my one worry is when you guys do leave whats going to happen, but I'm just waiting to see how everything plays out you know?" Nathan smiled at me, "I really like that answer and its completely understandable." He continues with, "I have a girl back home in Cali, its tough on us, but shes a really strong girl and shes coming here during her college break. Her names Lizzie, I think that you two would be good friends, and if the Cam thing does get serious, it would be nice to talk to someone who knows what your going through." I smiled at that comment, and agreed that it would be great to meet her. Cam came back and offered to drive me home.
We get in the car and Cam was acting really weird. I started to worry that I did something, he wasnt smiling and we didnt talk in the car ride. We got to my house and he let out a giant sigh and looked at me, but not with the happy look that he normally looked at me with. He prepared himself to say something, as I prepared myself to hear what he had to say. "well, I dont know where to start with this. Kerri I think we need to take a break, not forever, just for like a few days, Ill text you when Im ready". I was shocked, I didnt know what to say to him. I just nodded and got out of the car. He drove away quick. As I walked up to my room I realized, I was crushed. How do you go from telling someone you want to be with them all the time, and your really into them, to I want to talk a break. Im so into you, then Oh,no I want a break. What was that. I could seriously feel my heart breaking, and none of this made sense.