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Chapter 3

Confusion

Sakura awoke the next morning and wondered why she felt so miserable. She than remembered her incident with Yue from the previous day.

"I wonder what was wrong with him." She muttered to herself. Her voice caught Natsuki's attention. She peered through the bars of her crib at Sakura and cooed at the sight of her. Sakura smiled and got up. Pulling off her pajamas and putting on some clothes she than picked up the baby and took her to the bathroom to change her. Once changed she headed down the hall long enough to poke her head into her room to wake Kero up for breakfast. To her surprise the little guardian wasn't there. She shrugged it off, assuming he was already downstairs waiting to be fed. She set Natsuki up in her high chair and began to make a bottle for the baby. She glanced around the silent kitchen wondering where Kero was. Her father would have left for work already, and Yue never really ate. Kero was nowhere in sight. While she boiled water she picked up the phone and dialed Tomoyo's number. To her dismay Kero was not at Tomoyo's house either. Frowning she tested the warmth of the liquid in the bottle on her tender wrist. Finding it suitable she fed the baby. Once the baby and Sakura ate she picked Natsuki up and headed back up to her room. Once there she snatched her purse up to see how much money she had. Finding she had more than enough she decided to go shopping for some clothes for Natsuki. For the only clothing the child had was what they found her in and the couple sleepers they bought the next day. The poor baby needed more than that.

Glancing around one last time wondering where Kero was she picked up Natsuki and headed downstairs. She feel Yue's aura from the basement and knew he had probably buried himself in another book. She headed down the dark stairs and sure enough found Yue reading in a corner. She cleared her throat nervously and he looked up.

"Um…I'm going to go out and buy some clothes for Natsuki. I can't find Kero anywhere. Would you like to come with me?" She asked softly afraid of upsetting him after the night before. Yue gave a small nod and carefully put a bookmark in his page and set the book back on the shelf. Without speaking a word he headed upstairs and Sakura silently followed. Natsuki fidgeted a lot. The little girl could feel the tension and didn't like it. "Hey Yue I thought we could stop by the a new store that opened last week. It s a bookstore but they specialize in rare, out of print and old books. Seems to be right up your alley." She said trying to relieve the tension between them. Yue looked up at her and his hard, carefully guarded eyes softened and he nodded.

"That would be nice. I think I've read everything in your father's library twice now." He responded softly as he slipped his shoes on and held the door open for Sakura. She smiled to herself and she walked out the door, glad that some of the tension between them had gone. Not all of it but enough for now.

Sakura and Yue headed down to the stores and immediately found a baby store. They headed in and Sakura gushed over the incredibly cute clothing they had for a baby girl. Yue sighed and a faint smile appeared on his lips. He knew he was going to have to hold her back or she would spend a fortune in here. In the end they settled on enough clothing to last a week plus a few spares just cause babies were known to be messy. The sales clerk caught them off guard congratulating them on their baby and asking how old she was. Sakura appeared to be speechless but Yue had assumed someone might take it that the baby was theirs and was prepared for it.

"The child is not ours. There was a family emergency and Sakura is caring for the child until her mother gets back. I'm just a family friend. Natsuki is about 6 months old." He said with a small smile as he took the loaded shopping bags from her. The clerk appeared surprised but smiled and handed over the rest of the shopping bags.

As Yue and Sakura headed out into the sunbathed street they decided to stop for lunch. Sakura even managed to talk Yue into eating something, pointing out that it would look strange for her to eat alone while he was sitting there with her. Under the cover of the table they used to fire card to hear Natsuki's bottle and feed her. Once fed, they made their way up the street to the bookstore Sakura had mentioned.

Once there, Yue immediately found several books that caught his eye. Sakura was not surprised to see that they were all older books. Once shopping was done at the store they headed home. Natsuki was getting fussy and needed a nap.

At home Yue took the new baby clothing to the washing machine and threw them in to wash while Sakura took Natsuki upstairs to change her and put her down.

Once the baby and clothes were taken care of Sakura and Yue met up in the living room. Sakura plopped down on the couch.

"Man I didn't know a baby would be so much work." She said closing her eyes. Yue looked at her wearing a mildly amused expression.

"An infant is completely helpless. Its every need is up to the care giver to meet." He said simply as if he were only commenting on the weather. Sakura opened her eyes and looked up at him as if studying him.

"Yue, did Clow Reed have any children?" She asked curiously. Yue blinked in surprise. He hadn't expected that. He shook his head causing his silvery hair to fall around his shoulders and face.

"No he did not." He replied. Sakura nodded absently, staring at Yue's hair and the effect it had on his pale face. She'd always known Yue was very handsome but somehow his looks had never hit her quite like they did now. She could feel heat rising to her cheeks the longer she took in his appearance. It took her a moment to even realize Yue was asking her something. Giving her head a shake she smiled, "Sorry what?"

"I asked why you wanted to know if Clow Reed had any children." He said watching her.

"Oh just cause you seem to know so much about them and I just wondered about it. I mean you were stuck inside that book until I let the cards out so I assumed if you had contact with children it would have probably been from the time when you lived with Clow Reed." She explained. Yue nodded and excused himself from the room and headed into the basement. Once there he sat down on his soft chair and thumbed through his new book without really seeing it. Sakura's face while she had been so intent on looking at him kept flashing before his eyes. He could read those emerald eyes so well. He had seen her studying and saw the interest and something a little more. Almost desire he'd guess at just with more of an innocent quality. He leaned forward and rested his forehead on the cool shelves. He had to leave the room before he did something he would later regret. Seeing that look in her eyes, and remember what used to happen whenever she wore it back then almost made him act on his own desire. Frowning he did his best to push those feelings away and began to read his new book.

Sakura went upstairs to her room feeling terribly confused. Sure she'd known how good looking Yue was. Hell, it had hit her like a ton of bricks the day her hormones started kicking in. But his personality had always somehow killed it for her. But now that they were living together and they had become friends he had opened up to her. But that still didn't explain the feelings downstairs. She wanted him. Not just pure desire for him physically it had been a lot more than that. She'd somehow sensed a deep hurt and regret locked up in him. She wanted to ease it, to comfort him. To be there for him in every way. Sakura quietly threw herself on the bed.

"Sakura get a hold on your hormones." She told herself softly banging her head on her pillow. Slowly she began to drift off into a troubled sleep.

Broken images danced before her closed eyes and she tossed and turned in her sleep. A flash of pain, a newborn cry, a presence of Clow Reed, Kero's true form, a large European style mansion, and woman with black hair hurling balls of magic.

Sakura jumped awake. Tears were running down her face, she was covered in sweat and shaking something terrible. Only a few sounds and images remained with her. Without even thinking she ran from her room following the only other aura in the house.

Yue was about to head upstairs to his room, having read his fill when a very distressed Sakura came running into his arms. He blinked several times in surprise and looked down to see her sobbing unrestrainedly into his chest.

"Sakura? What's wrong?" He asked softly. She shook her head with almost violent force and continued her sobbing. He guided her gently to the couch and sat beside her keeping his arm around her shoulders. A soft sigh escaped him as he decided to just let her cry.

After several long moments she got her tears under control and sniffled. Yue reached to the little table beside the couch and grabbed some tissues for her. Once her eyes were wiped and her nose blown she seemed to be better although still upset.

"Now what was wrong?" He finally asked hoping she didn't start crying again. Sakura looked down at the patch of couch between them.

"I had a bad dream." She muttered feeling stupid now that she was calm. Yue appeared confused.

"A bad dream? About what?"

"I…don't really remember. I know I felt Clow Reed's presence. But there was a baby….and a lady with red hair. Bright red." She said. "There was also a baby too. I remember hearing it cry. I think the lady wanted to hurt it."

Yue froze in his seat. She couldn't be remembering. Ignoring the gut wrenching pain in his stomach he swallowed hard.

"Perhaps you are just worried about Natsuki. Caring for a baby is a lot of responsibility that you are unaccustomed to." He said. Sakura looked up at him and gave him a weak smile.

"Maybe but I have a feeling its something more than that." She replied. She closed her eyes and leaned against Yue, surprising him. Glancing down at her he noticed she was already asleep against him. He carefully picked her up and carried her to her room. He laid her down onto her bed and covered her up warmly. Glancing behind him he noticed Natsuki was awake. Turning his attention back to Sakura he leaned down near her face.

"Please don't remember the past. Its over and I wont let history repeat itself." He whispered. He watched her sleeping profile for a moment before giving into the small indulgence. He moved in close and gently placed his lips on hers, savoring the feeling. She stirred slightly and he pulled away before she could really wake up. Turning back to the crib he picked up the baby girl and left the room so Sakura could rest.

Halfway down the stairs he realized the little girl was hungry so he took her into the kitchen. He hunted around in the cupboards until he found the jars of baby food. Dishing out some in the baby dish Sakura had bought he heated it up and fed it to her while the bottle of formula warmed. Once the baby was nice and full he took her into the living room and sat back down on the couch and flipped on the TV. He didn't really like watching the thing but decided it was a decent way to pass the time while he waited for Sakura to wake from her nap. Finding an animal documentary he settled down with Natsuki.

Sakura woke about an hour later and looked at the clock. Realizing she left Natsuki in her crib during her normal feeding time she jumped up. Going over to the crib she felt mild panic cling her as she saw that the baby was gone. Calming a bit she focused and realized she could sense Yue downstairs and Natsuki was with him. She headed downstairs surprised. She paused in the kitchen for something to drink and noticed the dirty bottle and baby dish.

'Yue fed her for me?' She thought and checked in the fridge finding the open jars of baby food. Surprised but pleased she headed out into the living room to find him watching TV and holding the baby.

"Thanks Yue. I didn't mean to sleep through her dinner time." She said with a sheepish smile. Yue nodded.

"You need your rest to." He simply said returning his attention to the TV. Sakura sat down beside him.

"Was she good for you?" She asked concerned. Yue nodded.

"She is a very content baby."

Sakura smiled in relief. Settling down beside him she watching the show he was watching with him. Yue glanced over at his mistress every now and again thinking of the moment he stole in her room. "You had no more nightmares?" He asked. He nearly sighed with relief when she shook her head.

After the show was over Sakura took Natsuki to change her and put her to bed. She found Kero in her room already asleep in his bed. She wanted to wake him and find out where he had been all day but didn't since he was deeply asleep. She put Natsuki in her bed and covered her with a pretty pink blanket before turning out the lights. She quietly got undressed and wrapped herself in her towel before heading into the hallway. Just as she turned around from her bedroom door she walked right into Yue, who was heading to bed himself. Surprised she grabbed at her slipping towel, struggling to hold it in place and balance the pajamas she was holding as well. Her cheeks flushed as she glanced up at Yue, an apology on her lips.

Yue on the other hand had others things to hold his attention. The towel came to mid thigh on her, exposing her shapely legs to his eyes. When they bumped together and the towel slipped the tops of her breasts showed as well. Finding the desire burning in him fought very hard against his instincts, trying to remember what he told her sleeping form earlier today. When she finally looked up at him, the innocent pink stained across her cheeks he could not fight it anymore. Grabbing her shoulders he yanked her forward against his chest pressed his mouth to hers.

Sakura was shocked to feel Yue kissing her. Speechless and dumbfounded she stood there for a moment before she through caution to the wind and returned his kiss. Dropped her pajamas she wrapped both arms around him, not caring about anything at this moment that the feeling of his lips against hers. She could feel his desire in their kiss. She was drowning in it and she was certain she didn't want to be saved. Yue's hands caressed her back causing her towel to slip down even more but neither seemed to care at this point. Her hands were buried in his long silky hair, pulling him closer to her. His hands slipped under her towel and pulled it away from her body and tossing it on the floor beside them. He heard her gasp in surprise and pull away from their kiss.

"Yue?" She asked, slightly breathless and wearing a worried look on her face. Reality hit him like a ton of bricks. He realized what he had been doing, and what he had intended on doing. Without looking at her he gently pushed her away and picked up her towel and wrapped her in it.

"Forgive me Mistress," he said flatly before walking away. He headed into his room and slammed the door behind him. Sakura stood in the hallway, holding her towel to her chest utterly confused, disappointed and somehow relieved at the same time. Making her way, somewhat dazed into the bathroom she stepped into the shower. Leaning against the wall she tried to make sense of it all. Yue was her friend, her guardian and protector. Things like this shouldn't be happening to them. Wasn't he after all more family than anything else? And wasn't she just a friend to him? She'd always know how beautiful he is but it was wrong for something like that to come between them. The one question that burned within her was if it was wrong….than why did it feel so right to be with him?

A/N: That's it for now guys! Hope you enjoyed the new chapter. As I said in my other recent update I am terribly sorry for the long absence. Having two little children now and trying to see if I can fit college in has been really eating up my time. I'll try and update soon.

*Nacris*