BPOV
I shouldn't have looked up Jane Denali's social media profiles. She was smart, successful and so beautiful. In short, she was everything I wasn't!
She was everything Edward should deserve!
But, it seemed she already had a boyfriend, and well, that made me feel better!
So I guess she wasn't interested in Edward.
Edward.
He had become such an integral part of my life!
It's like I was getting used to him.
I was badly missing him while he was away. I didn't expect him to call me from his business trip, but he did, and now I wanted something...more!
He was nothing like I had thought him to be.
I disagreed with him at that time, but Emmett was right about him.
He was so caring, and thoughtful.
He was so smart and intelligent, and also, so handsome!
He was such a sweetheart!
I realized I was missing him.
I wanted to talk to him.
I wanted to see his face.
I wanted to see his smile.
I didn't know what was wrong with me.
He was Emmett's brother.
Emmett.
How could I do this to him?
I had already betrayed him by marrying his brother, and now... It seemed I had actually begun to like him.
How could I do this to him? Didn't I love him? How could I betray him like this?
I couldn't understand my feelings at the moment.
I was so confused with everything.
I was being insecure seeing Edward with his business partner.
I was missing him.
I felt some unknown things in my heart whenever I saw him smiling.
I didn't know what was wrong with me!
And... He said he was going to call me back after an hour, and now I was desperately waiting for him to call me back since three hours had passed since then.
Should I call him?
But what would I say?
I could just ask if everything was okay since he didn't call back.
No, that would sound stupid!
He might be with Jane right now. Would they be discussing something business specific?
Could it be something more between them?
No, but Jane had a boyfriend!
Let me just call him. I'd think about everything else later.
"Hey..." I smiled nervously.
He looked extremely tired now. Maybe he was busy?
"Hey Bella... Can I talk to you later, maybe tomorrow? Sorry, I'm trying to get some work done here." He said.
"Oh yeah... Sure. No worries. I don't have anything to talk about... I just called because..." I replied nervously.
"Bella, relax." he said, "I'm sorry I need to get some work done right now. Will talk to you tomorrow."
"Yeah, bye." I said.
I felt so stupid.
What was I thinking before calling him?
He said he was going to call me back. He'd have called me back when he was free anyway!
I was busy cursing myself about why I had called him when he called me back, after ten minutes. Wait, was he done with his work already? Or was he feeling bad for not talking to me?
"Hey..." He said.
"Hey..." I said, "We can talk tomorrow if you're busy."
"Look, I need to talk to you on something important." He said. He seemed very serious.
"Yeah, tell me," I said.
"Maybe I don't owe you this explanation, maybe I do. I don't know..." He said.
Ummm... what?
"I just want to let you know that I understand the fact that we're married. It doesn't matter what kind of stupid marriage we've, but I know we're legally married. And so, maybe yeah, I do owe you an explanation about something that happened tonight."
He was scaring me.
What did he do?
"Jane is going through some personal crisis right now," he said.
Jane!
I got insecure again when I heard her name.
"She found out today that her boyfriend was cheating on her." He said.
Oh! Did he cheat on her?
"She was upset... I was just trying to be a good friend..." He said while roaming his hand in hair and rubbing his face.
And?
"Then she kissed me..."
What?
She did...what?
"And I kissed her back."
It's like my worst nightmare was coming true.
When were my troubles going to end?
I felt like crying!
"I stopped... But I did kiss her back for a few seconds. I don't know what I was thinking. Actually I wasn't thinking at all while kissing her back. But please understand that I don't have any intention of cheating on you," he said.
My mind was racing.
He said he had no intention of cheating on me.
And that's why he stopped.
But maybe he wouldn't have if he wasn't married to me, right? There wouldn't have been any need for that!
Why were we still in this marriage?
Why was I holding him back?
"Bella... Look, please don't cry..."
Wait, was I crying?
Why was I embarrassing myself?
God! I was so stupid!
I disconnected the call.
But he called me back immediately.
I didn't answer.
But he kept calling.
He wasn't even giving me a chance to think.
Finally, I answered.
"Please!" He said, "I swear, Jane is just a friend. I didn't have any intention of cheating on you. Not with her, not with anyone."
"You... You don't owe me any explanation," I finally managed to say.
"Bella, I'm sorry!" He said.
"No... There's no need to apologize. The reason why we got married is not there anymore. We need to end this marriage. There's absolutely no point!"
He didn't say anything for some time.
"Yes, I agree," he said, "Maybe there is no point. But... Let's not end it like this. Let's talk when I'm back."
But what were we going to talk about?
There was absolutely nothing to discuss.
But maybe I could use this time to get some composer. I was absolutely a mess right now. I'd end up making a fool of myself if this call continued.
"Yes, let's do that," I said.
A/N: Oh, it seems there is some issue with email alerts for this story! It could be some FF glitch!