Christmas
I looked outside of my window and watched the snowfall. It barely snowed in Texas and it NEVER snowed in LA. It wasn't time to go to breakfast yet so I stayed in my bed. I sat there and thought. I was nervous, very nervous. I hadn't left the security of this TC for almost two months. I didn't want anyone to see me. They'd laugh. I know they would. I was just like every other teen celeb. I had issues, and I can only imagine the crazy rumors they were making up. I had to remember that this wasn't about me. My family hadn't seen me since Christmas, and they missed me. I finally got up when I heard footsteps at my door.
"Aw man, I wanted to scare you again this morning." I looked over at Lauren. She actually looked disappointed that I was already awake. I could just imagine her planning my reaction to her waking me up. I giggled and handed her a box with blue and silver wrapping. Her eyes lit up. She sat on my bed and opened up her gift. It was a hat and a silver necklace I got my parents to send to me. She picked up the silver chain and held the charm. It was a juicy couture crown.
"O-M-G DEMI! YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO GET ME… OMG! I LOVE IT! EKKK!" I smiled at her and sat down on the bed and helped her clasp the necklace. She put on the hat and started making posing faces at the mirror in my room. This girl was crazy.
Lauren left my room, and I starting getting ready. I had no idea what to wear. I had just been wearing sweats and t-shirts. That would definitely not do. I looked through some of the clothes my family brought me on thanksgiving. There was a leopard print jacket along with many black articles of clothing. I put it on the print jacket with a tweed-skirt, lace legging, and my personal favorite combat boots. I went to do my makeup. Man I was out of practice. I forgot to put on moisturizer before I put on concealer, and my face looked all blotchy. I washed it off and tried again. I put on some rogue dark purple lipstick and took a deep breath in and breathed out. I was okay. I was just going out with family. I was safe.
My parents pulled up. We exchanged hugs, kisses and laughs. I got into the car. I felt so different. So many times I was in the car with my family, but never like this. All my issues were known and out there. I wondered if they were nervous that they might set me off. I was wishing they hadn't known these issues. I started to sink in my seat.
"Demi, I made you something!" I looked over at Maddie. Just seeing that angelic smile brought tears to my eyes. She was my little piece of heaven on earth. I wanted to pick her out of her seat and squeeze her to death.
I nodded for her to continue. I was smiling ear to ear at my little princess sister. She pulled out a box wrapped in sponge bob Christmas wrapping. I giggled at the wrapping paper. I tore off all the paper then pulled the top of the box. Inside was a handmade book. The cover read "Merry Christmas Demi". I looked over at her smiling eager face then opened the book. Inside were pages of letters to me. I started tearing up. I put the book back and box and put it on the floor mats of the car. I whispered thank you and pulled back my tears. I wasn't completely sure to why it upset me. I think it was the fact that Maddie was the one who had to cheer ME up. It should be the other way around. She was the little sister, but she was having to grow up too quickly because of me. I couldn't look at her anymore. The car got awkward as we pulled up to the movie theatre. We had to park far away and oh my god.
There were paps everywhere. This day was just going great. The constant flashes brought me back.
I decided to wear a silver glittery dress. It was perfect for an event like this. I was going to my first premiere EVER and it was the premiere of MY first movie. The nerves were taking over me in the limo ride. The boys would be let out on the red carpet first then me. I wondered if anyone would even know my name. I mean, I was only on As The Bell Rings. I wondered if it would be awkward for people to pretend like they knew who I was. Then again, I wasn't even quite sure who I was. I was an actress, I guess? But I always wanted to be known as a singer. I imagined my first red carpet event being the grammys, but hey I wasn't complaining. The car stopped and I got out. People started cheering. There was a MASSIVE billboard of my face. People were wearing my face on their shirts. I was star struck by the fact that people were acting star struck to me.
I started walking the red carpet. The flashes weren't stopping. I needed at least a second to prepare myself for a picture. When I posed in the mirror, I was able to make the mirror see my most flattering angles, but these people were getting them all. I was nervous to know what I looked like in the pictures. I was being compared to Miley Cyrus and Vanessa Hudgens, two beautiful and thin young ladies. I wondered if I was enough. I started looking at the photographers, they would take pictures then look down at their cameras and shake their heads then go right back to taking pictures. I was I not good enough? I tried to keep up my smile. I held it almost too tightly. When I finally arrived in the Movie Hall, there were more and more people. I realized this night would not be the easiest.
My parents dropped me back off at Timberline Knolls. I was relieved. There would be no photographers here. I took one last look at Maddie and turned back into the main entrance. I hated myself. I was taking things and memories from the ones I loved. Maddie didn't deserve a Christmas like that.
I got back in my room and showered. I had to get those flashes off of my body. I went to sit on my bed. I cried. I didn't even know why at first. It was so weird to cry. I barely ever cried before this. I guess it was because for the first time in years I had started to feel. I almost began to enjoy the rush of water falling down my cheeks and the salty taste of my tears. It was the best release. I lay down with wet eyes and cheeks and felt. I felt pain, I felt sorrow, I felt anger, but I finally felt.
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