A/N: Okay, Here's chapter 7! I am so scared/excited for this Friday's Degrassi. I'm scared, because Eclare could possibly break up. But hopefully they'll still be friends. :) Im excited because maybe this Imogen person maybe what Eli needs. It's not about what us fans want. It's what makes Eli happy! :3 Anyways, Enjoy*

Chapter Seven-

"Inner most Feelings"

Days passed, and Eli still wasn't talking to me. I felt like my heart has this huge oversized whole placed in it. When I was down stairs he wouldn't come anywhere near me. When I was walking past his room to get to the bathroom he'd immediately shut the door.

It pained me.

I sat at the dinning room table still scared that he could accidentally walk in to find me sitting down here. What would he do? Would he just straight out leave and walk back up to his room? My heart impounded with every creak in this very house.

"Clare honey, breakfast is on the counter and there's money on the counter if you want to you know go somewhere. I'll be home around three. The emergency numbers are placed on the refrigerator. I'll see you in a few." CeCe notified while grabbing her purse clear off the table.

Great! Just what I need alone time with Eli. That sure isn't a problem. I rested my hands on the back of the chair pulling my self up. When I entered the kitchen I noticed that there were pancakes(4) on the counter.

My stomach started to growl and roar and I felt the need to just grab all of them. But knew I couldn't. Eli had to eat to.

I grabbed a fork from the bottom left cabinet and put two pancakes onto my plate and went to go sit back in the dinning area.

"MOM! I need to talk to you!" Eli yelled from the living room. CRAP! He was coming in here. I slouched down in my seat, wishing I'd just die right here.

"Mom-" His sentence was cut off my appearance.

His hair was messy and made my body ache knowing he doesn't feel the same way about me. He was in only his black skinny jeans and a very slimmed down "The Dead Hand" shirt. I wanted to just attack him.

"She…S-She left." I stuttered. Eli circled around the table and made no eye contact with me. Non at all.

"Oh.." He whispered. He fondled with the emerald green ring on his thumb. Something was on his mind.

"Eli, why won't you talk to me?"

"Why haven't you told me about this 'X'?" How did he know? My gaze lowered and I felt like a complete idiot. He was the one who found me in a black out. He must've looked at the computer screen.

"How did you find out?" With out no answer he ran over to me and picked me up and a romantic hug-like feature.

"You need to tell me these things Clare. I can't loose you." He muffled into my hair. I nodded, excepting the tears to fall straight down my face.

"I thought you never loved anybody?" He pulled me back so that I was looking straight at him. Pain was filtered into his eyes. He was just as damaged as I was.

"You're an exception." And with that he kissed me. Deep too.

Minutes later he pulled the both of us up the stairs and threw me onto his bed. I dangled my legs around his waist and kissed him with a burning passion.

He soon intertwined his fingers into my auburn locks and pulled lightly on the ends, causing me to moan. I felt a smirk brush against my cheek.

This was finally happening. I felt safe.

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"Eli! You need to understand-"

"Understand what?" I spat at her. "You cheated. Andrew told me everything." Julia was on my bed and crying. I wanted to believe her side of the story. The part where she said she never cheated. But couldn't.

Andrew was my best friend. He told me everything.

"So what does this mean? Hm? You don't believe your own girlfriend, of course! That's just like you Eli!" She sprung up and grabbed a hold of her shoes.

"Where are you going?" When she was about to exit the door she turned and said,

"Away from you!"

The memory made my arms twitch and made me feel depressed. I love Clare with all my heart.

I wasn't good for her. I'd let her go anyway like I let Julia. And that never ended well.

Because love is the one thing in this world causing my sanity to vanish.

….It's my fault…..

(End of chapter seven)

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