A/N: I'm back! haha. So I just watched the finale of "In Too Deep" and really had me thinking... Maybe this new Imogen person is what Eli needs. Don't get me wrong, I'll always have a place in my heart for Eclare but what Eli needs is what matters most. So here's chapter Eight! Enjoy :3

Chapter Eight-

"Breathing Breathlessly"

Ever since the last kiss I had with Eli things seemed to get alot better. He acted surprisingly different and it sort of bothered me. He acted by polar and at times I felt like he was giving me mixed signals. I mean he insults me, then kisses me, then tells me he doesn't love me, then kisses me again. It made me feel crazy.

I walked up to the Dots enterance and strolled on in. Bullfrog took me here last week and I just fell inlove with the tea. It was so warming to me, so home.

When the little bell rang eyes darted straight to me and my face became flush.

"Clare!" A voice echoed through out the whole entire restraunt. It was Adam. Now this is where all answers to my ubseen questions would be answered.

I paced over to the two-some table that Adam sat at and plopped down onto the seat, enduring the heavy talking coming from tables near by.

"So, Clare, what did you need to talk about?" His voice sounded despearte yet demeaningful. It shook me. My hands intertwined with oneanother and I turned my full attention toward the not so manly boy. When I was about to speak my voice shook. I was afraid of what the answer whould be.

"I have a question about...about Eli." His eyes widened and filled with concern.

"What's wrong? Is he cutting himself again?"

"Adam no...Wait-" I made my voice into a whisper. "Cut himself? He does that?" Hell was about to break loose for my mind I could just tell.

"Clare, Eli...He needs help. He needs to go back to Crodane." Crodane? The mental institute? Eli w-went there? My breathing hitched when my mind imploded with answers that I was to stupid before to know. Eli's sanity was vanishing from me. I was making him give me these mixed signals. It's all my fault. If I would have never came here in the first place I might of let him be this sober boy again. It's my fault...Wasn't it?

Tears filled my tear ducts and I bent over to grab my bag, leaving the Dot in an instant. I had to leave the Goldsworthy residents. That was the only solution for Eli to become better again. To become something more than better. Sober.

My mind wanted me to stop, turn back and ask Adam what to do. But my heart wanted me to do the right thing. Set Eli free. Leave him to become better and all.

As I turned my bike onto our street my heart began to race. Eli would be waiting for me to arive. So he could loose more sanity just by looking at me. Just by breathing my air.

Without thinking, I crashed the bike onto the pavement and ran inside, up the stairs ansd into my room. The only person who could take me away from this place and get Eli safe was the one I feared all along. The one who gave me gruesome memories.

The one who killed my parents...

Xavier Danforth.

Even just thinking of his name made my spine go cold and make me breathe breathlessly. I opened my laptop and began writing to him on Facerange and began writing to "X."

Xavier,

I'm ready for you. I need you to hurt me. Hurt me like you hurt my parents. Take what I've done to this poor, beautiful boy and turn it into a punishment for me. I don't deserve to breathe this air. I deserve to be lying, dead, in the middle of nowhere and let yourself gain the power and inforcement and be known as mine. If your still up for this hell of a game I'll be waiting. Waiting for you to indice the force of pain my way. Meet me by the Bloom woods over by West Kengston Market. I'll be wearing a black hoodie and denim jeans.

Yours Truly,

Clare E.

I clicked the send button and all the pain and fear that was no longer inside of me finally came back in. And I felt like running in to see Eli but decided not to...

...I'm leaving for him. Like he wanted all along...

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"Boy, would you get your feet off the couch! God Dangit. Your just like your old man when I was your age." Bullfrog scoleded from just across the room. I rolled my eyes and placed my feet back onto the hollow ground.

Where was Clare? I haven't seen her since yesterday. I sat up straight and tossed the remote to my father.

"Where you going?" Bullfrog teased.

"I'm going up to see Clare. You know, check on her."

"Okay, don't get caught in the moment." I sighed and ran up stairs to her room. I knocked three very hushed sound knocks and waited for her to answer.

The floor board in there squeaked, knowing that she was getting off from her bed to open the door.

When she opened the door I noticed that she was crying alot and was very exhausted. Very.

"Clare what's wrong?" She breathed very fast, like she had no air.

"Eli, your right...From before. We shouldn't be hanging out or-" She stopped to breathe. "Making out. Let's just be people who live in the same house." I arched an eyebrow and grew curious. What is she talking about?

"I don't understand-"

"I know. You won't understand anything right now. I'm sorry." And with that last remark she closed her door and all that sounded were sobs. Very heavy, painful sobs.

Anger grew inside of me and I felt the need. Just like all the other times. I felt the need to...Cut. I pounded off into the bathroom and found the razor lying in the bathroom cabinet and gripped it tightly.

I shut my eyes and hestiantly counted to three. When the number three was said I plunged the untencil forward and it entered my skin. Deep.

I whimpered from the pain and hurried and pulled out. When my eyes grew on the wound I dropped the razor and slid onto the bathroom floor.

It was stinging so badly. I needed to cover it up...But knew that I was loosing quite alot of blood. Tears streamed down my face and all that entered my mind was...

Hello Crodane, Good bye my normal life...

(End Of chapter eight.)

A/N: How was that fro intense? Is Clare gonna actually go off with Xavier to leave Eli at peace? Or is Eli gonna be entering his new familliar home at Crodane? REVIEW! Tell me how you liked it. Bye...For now.

-Saphy :3