A/N: Okay this chapter is dedicated to my sister Gracie. She just became an eclare fan. (I have that effect on people) :P Oh and let it be confirmed. This will have a sequel for it. Yep! Don't worry I'm no where near done with this. So hold your horses. I don't know what to call it so for now...READ!
Chapter Fourteen-
"Haunting Memories" Part 1
The sunlight peered through my window and I flexed my arms over my head. Every event that was played last night was still framed into my head. My memory even. The journal, the cause and effect, Eli. It somehow though pointed at me. In a way I could tell if it were my fault. I mean if I hadn't of moved into the Goldsworthy's home Eli wouldn't have ended up in Crodane again.
But if I hadn't of come I wouldn't have opened up Eli even more. I dug deep into him and found this emotionally scarred boy who was indeed of search for a heart...Someone who cared. Me.
My back arched as I came to half level with my body. I sat up in my bed and let my eyes coax themselves to the light and the scening around me. My fingers ghosted through out my cinnomin locks as I stroked them frantically.
What would be different of I weren't in this situation that I was in now? Would I feel this love-sick guilt that corresponded itself to me? Or would I be at home watching my parents struggle with debt and etc? I guess I'll never know...
"Clare, honey, are you up?" CeCe's sweet voice called from behind my bedroom door. A little grin greeted my face. I loved feeling cared about. It felt warm to me.
"Yeah. Just getting used to the light. It's really bright out today." I could hear CeCe laugh as she entered my room. Today I could tell she was in much better shape. She wore her familliar clothes that I was so used to her wearing. You know the black biker girl's vest that fit her figure so well. Her blonde hair was half up. You get the picture.
CeCe came over and sat on my bed, smile still in place.
"So I was thinking..." She began. " Since Bullfrog is at work and Eli is at Crodane you and I could have a girls day out. Sounds good?" My insides began to tingle from all the affection she was linging towards me.
"That sounds perfect. Where would we go?"
"Well the new school year is starting in about...what...two weeks? So why not go school shopping, see a movie, brunch. It doesn't exactly have to be in that order." I sprang out of bed and hugged her. This was all I really needed right now. To keep my mind off of things. This was effort.
"I'll meet you down stairs after I'm done getting ready. Kay?" CeCe shook her head and stood, exiting the bedroom.
My hands scanned through my drawers as I searched for something decent to wear. Once I did I slipped it on and resumed downstairs, out the door and on our way to the mall.
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"You know what Clare honey, these skinny jeans would look really cute with this top." CeCe held up the outfit and pointed at the designing on the clothing. I had to admit, for someone who doesn't exactly get stylish, she had the greatest taste in clothing.
"I love it. Now to find shoes." I wondered off to the front of the store and skimmed it. There I saw the perfect set of heels. They were fully black but the trim on them was red. Ohhh La La.
As I began picking up the pair of shoes a familliar yet frightning voice scared me. really realluy badly.
"I knew I'd come face to face with you someday." I looked up at the boy, fear in my stark blue eyes.
"Xavier what are you doing here? You need to go!" I whispered-yelled. A smug smile pierced his lips. Sending chills down my spine. His blonde-brown hair and blue eyes made me remember the day that I found him with the knife, and my parents blood caked to the ground.
"You told me you wanted me to take you. So here I am. Ready to."
"This isn't really a good time-"
"I decide when your going Clare bear. And I've decided now."
"Don't call me that." I hated when he called me Clare-bear. The only reason he did was because my father did. AHHH!
"Fine honey...When would you like to be considered mine? When?" I thought about this. I couldn't leave Eli when he needed me the most. That would send him into an even more deadly phase.
"September 29." Xavier's look at me varried between confused and annoyed.
"What's that?"
"The day I become yours." I had a plan though. I wanted Eli to forever be mine. Plans are plans...Right?
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Brook was outside doing some type of physical thing that Crodane let's patients do to still be active and all. It was strange to me. Like, were in here for a reason. Why would we have to be 'physical'? Weirdo's.
I walked over to my bed and pulled a box from underneath my pillow out. When I pulled off the lid, the picture of Julia fell out. Sending me shrill and leaving me with the haunting memory. Again.
I fondled with the cord on my headphones. To scared to move or do any sort. When I heard that Julia...My Julia betrayed me for my own bestfriend I didn't want to believe it. I just didn't. I layed on my bed, glaring at the ceiling waiting for some movement, some sound other than my I-Pod to be put in effect.
And that's when she walked in with that lovely smile that sent shivers down my spine.
She walked over to me and kissed my cheek gently. Really gently. Oh I hated her. When she turned to pick out her bed clothes that's when I pulled my earphones out and began by ballistic yelling at her.
"WHY? WHY DID YOU DO IT?" I screamed. Julia flinched at my tone and her eyes went into wondering. "Did what? You need to relax! Did you take your meds this morning?" I didn't answer her back. I was to enraged to.
So instead I through the closest thing that was near me to the ground and it shattered. It was the picture of us at a Dead Hand concert.
"STOP IT!"
"You betrayed ME! With my own BEST FRIEND!"
"WHAT? Eli no I didn't. Why do you belive everything Andrew ever says? You always put him first!" I threw another picture frame at the ground and it shattered into more pieces this time.
"I hate you! I never loved you! It was all of FRICKING CON!" And that's when the tears began to pour down her face. She quickly moved to my bed and stared at me like I was insane. I was insane.
"Eli! You need to understand-"
"Understand what?" I spat at her. "You cheated. Andrew told me everything." Julia was on my bed and crying. I wanted to believe her side of the story. The part where she said she never cheated. But couldn't.
Andrew was my best friend. He told me everything.
"So what does this mean? Hm? You don't believe your own girlfriend, of course! That's just like you Eli!" She sprung up and grabbed a hold of her shoes.
"Where are you going?" When she was about to exit the door she turned and said,
"Away from you!" And with that last remark she escaped my room and left into the night. On her bike in the bitter air. She wasn't mine anymore.
Weeks later I found out that Andrew was just lying. That he was just jealouse. That's when I began to cut my self. Did suicide attempts. Made my self...
Weak.
The urge for me to cut came back. And this time I couldn't control it. I grabbed the picture of Julia and began rubbing the pointy tip of it across my skin and felt relief coming into me. It felt like the old me...He was just dying to come back. And I finally had found him.
Drops of blood began to dribble down my arm as I kept getting it further and further. Until I knew I needed to stop.
But before I could pullaway, the room's door opened and it revealed Brook who was sweaty and staring at me with shock. Loads of it.
"Eli! You need to stop!" I said nothing. She took the picture from my hand and pulled my wrist closer to her. So she could take a better look. "This isn't even bad. Will clean it up and no one has to know anything. Okay?" I nodded. Tears fulfilling my eyes.
For a total psycho and my secret crush(Will she crushed on me. I loved Clare) She was helpful. She took care of me when Clare wasn't here. This was what I needed the most right now was comfort. I didn't care who it came from. Even though I perfered Clare more than Brook.
(End Of Chapter 14)
A/N: All I can really say for this is review. I'm serious. It's too shocking. 0_0 WOW!
-Saphy 0_0