A/N: Oh how I love Kames. Especially angsty Kames. I see a lot of you like the one-sided Shane/Kendall relationship. I'll try to add some more in. OMG! 100 reviews! It seems like one person did two anonymous reviews just to make me happy. Dante and Jason? Well, thank you! I love you all oh so very much! I am so glad you all have been here to read this and review. This is my most popular story and I'm at 100 reviews! AHH! Thank you all so much! Without you guys, I wouldn't be writing. So, in thanks, an extra-long chapter…
AND OMG! I just saw My Soul To Take and, even though it wasn't the best horror movie, I liked it. And Bug totally reminded me of badass Kendall when he wore the dark shirt! Hahaha…that makes me laugh…
Chapter 18:
To say Kendall was scared shitless was the understatement of the year. He didn't want to go in without his powers. He now regretted the fact of being human very much. How could he go in, keep himself, Carlos, and Logan alive, get the dagger and ash, get out safely, AND save James and Shane? It was almost impossible! Emphasis on almost…
Kendall was heading up behind the house now, with Logan and Carlos trailing behind him closely. God…why did he have to be the leader? Didn't it ever occur to anybody that he could be scared, also? Did it ever occur to anyone that he just put on a brave face and got through it?
Kendall, you are brave. You were meant to be the leader. Now stop having your own pity-party and get in there! We can have a pity-party after you get the dagger, ok? James whispered to Kendall in his mind.
Kendall growled out a fine before pushing forward again. He was now at the back-door of the currently empty house. Damon and Elena, apparently boyfriend and girlfriend, had gone out on a date, and Stefan was out with Caroline. They were alone, and were going to break in. Kendall timidly reached out to the door when James' voice burst out in his mind. Come on, Kendall. I believe in you. Kendall smiled and pushed against the door…to find it locked.
"Damn it!" he whispered, taking out a pin from his pocket. He didn't like picking locks. It was tedious and annoying. But he did it anyway and the door swung open quietly. "Yes." He whispered, motioning for Logan and Carlos to follow him. Once inside, they immediately spread out and started their search. "Logan, take the top floor. Carlos and I will search this level. Okay? We'll have James go on the roof to keep an eye on you."
Logan nodded and said, "Ok. But if I get hurt-"
"It's my fault, I know." Kendall interrupted.
"I was going to say you'll have to come save me but whatever suits your fancy." And with that, Logan was off.
"Who says 'suits your fancy' anymore?" Carlos whispered to Kendall as they walked into the living room.
"Apparently Logan. Now go into the kitchen/dining room and search while I search here." Kendall said.
Carlos made a face and muttered, "Yes, Dad," before walking out of the room. Kendall rolled his eyes and laughed before setting to work. This is one big room he thought as he started shuffling around in the cabinets. He found a ring, it looking similar to James', and so he put it on. Now, he was not one to steal, but this ring looked cool. Now, where was the dagger?
It's in the most obvious place, Kendall. James told Kendall in the blonde's mind.
What?
The most obvious place! Lying right there out in the open! James said.
Kendall turned around and looked at the table behind the couch. There, lying out in the open like James had said was the dagger and bottle of ash. Well alrighty then. Guess you were right.
When am I ever wrong? James asked smugly.
Uh…well, there was that one time when-
That was a rhetorical question! James answered. I just told Logie and Carlitos that you have the dagger. Now, get out of there. Damon and Steffi are coming.
"What?" Kendall asked aloud.
"What?" Logan asked, unknowingly repeating Kendall's own question.
Kendall rolled his eyes and motioned for them to be quiet. "We need to get out of here, fast. Now c'mon. We need to go." They made it to the back door only to hear shouts from outside.
"What the hell are you still doing here?" Damon asked snidely to a furious James.
"I needed to talk to you, smart ass." James answered back.
"Well, get lost. I'm not talking to you and neither is Saint Stefan." Damon answered, taking ahold of Stefan and dragging him into the house and locking the door. Luckily, the three boys were already outside and running.
"C'mon, you two! We need to move!" Kendall shout/whispered.
The five took off running at a fast pace, James running ahead at vampire speed to get the car while the four hid in the forest. Kendall felt a breath tickle his neck as he turned around, finding Shane standing there. "Uh…What's up?" Kendall asked awkwardly.
"You," was the only answer Kendall received before Shane pushed his lips onto Kendall's. (A/N~I would totally end it there if I didn't promise you an extra-long chapter…)
The blonde boy couldn't move. This was Shane, James' brother, kissing him. It was shocking, weird, and just plain wrong. He stood there for a second or two before pushing Shane off of him. "What the hell?" he asked angrily.
Shane swallowed thickly before answering. "Uh…I'm sorry-"
"Don't sorry me!" Kendall snapped. "I'm dating James! James! Your brother! You can't go around kissing your brother's boyfriend!"
"Kendall-"
"Don't Kendall me, either!" Kendall glared angrily at the tall boy in front of him. "I cannot believe you just did that. No, I can believe it! You just want to get back at James for hating you! You want to make James feel at least something towards you! I can't believe you! Ugh! And I wanted to be your friend!"
"Kendall…I really like you. This has nothing to do with James…" Shane answered.
"It has everything to do with James! He's going to find out you did that, you know, and he'll loathe you for it! I can't keep that from him when he can read minds!" Kendall shouted.
"Kendall, calm down…" Shane soothed.
"Don't tell me to calm down! Tell me to calm down, I get more riled up!" Kendall yelled.
Shane rolled his eyes again and stood there, waiting for Kendall to calm down. "Look, we have something way more important to focus on."
Kendall slapped him. "I know." And before Shane could retaliate, Kendall was gone.
The blonde ran as fast as he could, and he had no idea why. He just needed to get out of there; just get away. He couldn't take it any more…all the drama. He just wanted James to be normal again and Shane gone so he could be happy. Kendall started slowing down, though, and ended up stopped in a barren clearing. "Oh God," he breathed out. "Where am I?"
"Right here," something growled out.
"Whose there?" Kendall gasped.
"Remember me? That's ok if you didn't…you are, indeed, human." Damon smirked.
"You."
"No, really?" Damon laughed. "I want the dagger back."
"You can't have it back!" Kendall shouted.
"Why not?" Damon asked, pouting.
"Because I need it!"
"To do what?"
"To kill my boyfriend!" Kendall burst.
"Now, why would you want to kill your boyfriend?" a different voice asked him.
"Because I want him human again, and this is the only way to do it!" Kendall turned to see a blonde girl and Stefan.
"Oh my God! You're Kendall from Big Time Rush!" The girl screamed, running towards Kendall and throwing her arms around the human.
"Yeah! I do believe that's me…" Kendall gasped out.
"I love you guys! Your music is amazing!" the girl squealed.
"Caroline, they're trying to take the dagger!" Stefan growled out.
"So? Let them have it! If it's going to make them normal, I say shut up and let them have it!" Caroline growled out Stefan.
But Damon was already gripping Kendall's neck like there was no tomorrow. "Drop the dagger or I kill you…"
"Drop my boyfriend or I kill you…" James spoke quietly, stepping into the clearing.
Damon laughed, tightening his grip on Kendall. "Is that a threat?"
James nodded.
"Well, sucks for you." And with that, Damon snapped Kendall's neck. (A/N: OMG I would LOVE to end it there!)
Kendall gasped in pain, and fell to the floor of the clearing, limp and cold. James didn't hold himself back as he launched at Damon, snap kicking the vampire into unconsciousness. He turned to Stefan and said, "Any last words?"
"Bye." Stefan spoke, grabbing Caroline and running. James just shook his head and dropped down by Kendall's form, feeling the light drops of rain hitting his head. Here he was, holding the limp form of his former lover, soaking wet from the downpour of rain. How cliché; he could even hear the distant calls of their friends in the distance. But other than that, all that was left in the world was Kendall, lying limp in James' arms, and James, sobbing into the blonde's hair.
"Kendall, please…please don't leave me…I need you, more than you know…" James sobbed. "Kendall, please…I love you…without you, I'll die…"
"Don't die on me, James." Kendall whispered hoarsely, looking up at James' watery hazel eyes.
"Kendall!" James shouted, kissing Kendall on the lips. He hugged the blonde boy tighter. "I love you so much!"
Kendall laughed at James' actions. "I love you, too."
"But…how are you alive?"
Kendall shrugged, but pointed at the ring on his right ring finger. "Might've been that. I put it on when I was searching through the house."
James hugged Kendall close again and whispered out, "Thank God…" James stiffened at hearing a moan come from across the clearing. "Crap…he's awake…" The brunette picked Kendall up and ran away, using his vampire speed.
"Uh…James? I have…something to tell you…" Kendall whispered as they were running.
"What?"
"Shane…uh…Shane k-kissed me…" Kendall trailed off, biting his lip and looking away.
"God damn it. I'm going to kill him." James whispered.
"No! Don't! James, he's your brother and is just confused about his feelings, ok? But please, don't kill him." Kendall said, eyes wide and frightful.
"And so you're going to defend him? When I'm your boyfriend?" James said, setting Kendall down.
"Well, yeah! He is my friend, you know! I don't see what the big deal is!" Kendall yelled out in frustration.
"The big deal is that you, my boyfriend, was kissed by my very own brother! If I can even call him that!" James spat out. "He has already ruined my life so much, and now he's just taking you from my grasp! It's…he's taking you away from me. I can feel it. But, it's just so hard to tell you…everything…Can't you see what you've done to my world? You have made me into the person I am today! I used to be quiet and shy; scared of taking risks! Then you came into my life and made me go after my dreams." James sighed. "I have no clue what to feel anymore. I know I should be sad, I know I should be sobbing, but the fact of the matter is that I'm not. I'm not happy, sad, angry, or okay. I just…feel empty." (A/N: Underlined things are from Man-Suz-She's profile page! She let me use some of her quotes, so here is one!)
"James…God no, don't do this…" Kendall swallowed thickly, covering for his quavering voice.
"I can't be with you if I don't know…if you don't know how you feel. It…I can't wait forever, you know." James breathed out. "I need a break."
"James-"
"Don't James me! I can't take it, Kendall! Just, give me a call when you know how you feel. Because, it's either me, or Shane, but you can't have both." James growled, walking away.
"James…Don't go…I need you…" Kendall broke down, collapsing on his knees. It's not the goodbye that hurts, Kendall. It's the flashbacks that follow… Kendall could hear his mother's words ringing in his brain. "The flashbacks…"
*Flashback*
{"Sort of…You're not entirely human anymore. You have powers that like…no human has. And you smell different…sweeter…" James answered, smiling sweetly at Kendall.}
{"Your sweet smell is unmistakable." James got up and walked over to Kendall. "It smells so delicious to me…like I could eat you all up."
"What? N-n-no…No need to d-d-do that." Kendall said, trying to back up, but James grabbed his shoulders.
James laughed and smirked. "I would never do that to you. I was joking. Sorry if you thought I was serious."}
{James came towards the shuddering blonde again and did the unthinkable. He kissed Kendall.
Kendall was shocked at first, but soon melted into the kiss. He'd had feelings for James since Minnesota, and he didn't ever think James would like him back. But James was kissing Kendall feverishly and wasn't planning on stopping anytime soon.
But as soon as Kendall joined in the kiss, it became a little too much for James. He was hungry, and Kendall smelled like a delicious cookie just waiting to be eaten…or drank… And to top it all off, James instincts as a vampire were popping out and drawing him towards the blonde's neck. He kissed it at first, but the shorter boy's smell was positively intoxicating. He then latched on to the blonde's neck and bit him.}
{ Kendall mumbled a reply as he kissed James back fiercely. He felt James' fangs against his lips as James opened his mouth and slipped his tongue out, begging for entrance. Kendall granted and the two made out before James' self-control shattered. James mumbled a feeble sorry before kissing Kendall's neck and biting down. His teeth sank in easily and he started to suck. Kendall's sweet blood started to flow down his throat and he sucked harder as Kendall moaned. When James was about half way through Kendall's blood supply and as Kendall fell limp against his arms, he came off with a pop. His lips were stained red and blood dripped down his chin and neck. Kendall had it worse. He was dizzy and his shirt and neck was bloody.}
{What? I don't want to forget us! I love you, James! If anyone doesn't deserve the other, it's me! I don't deserve you! But please…don't…make me forget…I love you too much," Kendall said, tears streaming down his face.
James was taken aback. He had thought that it would be better for Kendall to forget everything romantic between them. But he smiled and said, "Ok. I love you, too. So, so much. Too much for my own good."}
{But on the couch, James laid down on his side with Kendall in front of him. He hugged Kendall close to him and whispered into the blonde's ear "I love you."
"I love you, too." Whispered back Kendall.
"Night." James said, kissing the top of Kendall's head.
"Night."}
{Logan nodded and helped Carlos up while James just stood there. He quickly dashed over to Kendall and kissed the boy before shutting the door and dragging Kendall back inside the apartment.
"What the hell, James?" Kendall asked.
"We need a plan."}
{Kendall rolled his eyes and climbed on top of James. He was surprised that the chute was big enough for him to do that. But he snaked his arms around James; head and laid his body on top of James'. He then smiled as his hands lit up blue and the grate flew off and flew across the room.
Kendall smirked and ground his hips down against James', purposefully arousing the brunette as punishment for his cockiness. Kendall shoved James out and quickly fell out, too. He saw the slight bulge in James' pants and smirked at the glare James sent him. He mouthed 'later' to the taller boy before nodding toward the three shocked people at the other side of the room. "Guess you don't have to do all the work…but this is your specialty…not mine."
James just rolled his eyes and glared at the blode, the bulge a little more pronounced. But he hid it well, considering they all had a major task at hand. But just before James walked over to the freaked out human, he whispered huskily into Kendall's ear, "Payback's a bitch. Just warning ya." And then he walked over to the cowering human with a triumphant smirk plastered on his face.
Kendall bit his lip, imagining what James was going to do to him, and upon feeling his length harden a bit, he rushed over and emersed himself into the current conversation.}
{That's all Kendall managed before James started fervently kissing him. Somehow, the boys ended up standing up (probably to take their shirts off or something) when James pushed Kendall back. Kendall gasped as he was shoved against the wall behind him. James immediately attacked Kendall's lips with his own and shimmied a knee between Kendall's legs, rubbing it shamelessly against the blonde's growing bulge.
"Do you like this?" James huskily asked, removing his knee and thrusting his hips against the blonde's.
"Yes!" Kendall cried, pleasure rolling through him as their clothed members rubbed against each other, creating delicious friction between the two. "God, James. I love you…so freaking much."
"Love. You. Too." James grunted as Kendall rolled his hips agianst James' again.
James went down Kendall's body, stopping when the clothed bulge of his boyfriend was staring straight in his face. He unbuttoned the blonde's jeans before yanking it and the boxers down to the floor. He saw a bead a precum roll down the erection before he took it all in his mouth, giving occasional sucks and prods with his tongue.
Kendall gasped and moaned, writhing in pleasure as James did so many unmentionable things to him. He came in the brunette's mouth and slumped against the wall behind him, exerted from his orgasm. James pulled his pants and boxers up before pressing a light kiss to the blonde's cheek, which was glowing even more now.}
{James bit into Kendall lip, sucking the blood that came out. Kendall was too busy to notice, as he was reaching his climax right then and there. Only seconds after Kendall did James reach his climax, sporadically thrusting into the blonde and working them through their orgasm. Once finished, James let go of Kendall's now healed lip and collapsed onto of the blonde, still buried inside and panting. After resting a bit, he pulled out and Kendall whimpered at the loss, but sighed when he felt James pull him onto his chest under the covers of the bed. The two quickly fell asleep, happy to have made love.}
{So there lay James, on the couch, under a blanket, his heart no longer was beating, his lungs no longer filling with oxygen, his eyes closed and his skin paler than usual. And to think that Kendall, his very own boyfriend, had done this…}
{Kendall found himself running into the fight, grabbing James and pinning him down, yelling for Logan to check Carlos' wellbeing while he tried to calm James down. "James…listen to me. Remember all those nights as a kid, before we came out here, where we would just talk about anything and everything? Remember our first kiss? Our first fight? Any of it?"
"I remember it all, Kendall. Too bad I can't feel anymore." James spat out, trying to get out of Kendall's grip.
"What? Of course you can feel! Just, let your human side back…it's easy. Please, don't become some cold, heartless bastard." Kendall pleaded.
James laughed crazily. "Too bad I'm already one. I have no live heart and I'm cold as hell. Wait…that didn't fit the analogy I was going for…"
Kendall rolled his eyes and gripped James tighter. "Doesn't matter if your hearts beating or not. All that matters is that you can still feel."
"I can't anymore, Kendall. Face it." James spat out again.
"Fine." Kendal spat back before crushing his lips to James', feeling the softness push back harder. They continued their small make-out session until Kendall pulled back, looking James in the eyes and finding so many emotions. Love, anger, hurt, guilt, pain.}
{"Come on, Jamie…wake up." Kendall whispered, stroking James' back.
"Nngh…why?" James mumbled.
"I want to talk to you." Kendall sighed, sitting on the bed beside James when the brunette didn't move.
"About what?" James was more awake now, sitting up and putting his arms around Kendall's waist.
"Why were you holding that bottle of whiskey?" Kendall blurted, immediately looking away.
"Oh…" James said, before kissing Kendall's face gently. "The Vervain hurts vampires…a lot. The alcohol just takes the edge off the pain. It was actually the first time I've used it." James admitted, kissing Kendall's temple.
"Really?" Kendall asked. James nodded earnestly, fluttering his fingertips along Kendall's side and smirking when he heard Kendall squeal. "James! Stop! It tickles!" Kendall gasped out. James stopped, still smiling when Kendall kissed him lightly on the cheek. "Come on…let's go get breakfast." James nodded and stood up after Kendall, following him into the kitchen where their breakfasts were already made.}
{"Kendall…that was amazing. Thank you." James said, kissing Kendall sweetly.
Kendall smiled and pulled back. "Any day. Now, let's get some breakfast. I'm hungry."
James rolled his eyes but followed Kendall out, gripping the blonde's hand. Once the two received their breakfasts, they quickly ate and got ready for the day.}
{James just sighed and held Kendall, kissing the blonde's head lightly before pulling back slightly. "Kendall?"
"Yes?" Kendall sniffled, looking up from James' shoulder.
"I love you." James whispered.
Kendall smiled. "I love you, too." The blonde kissed James before pulling back. He sighed. "I don't want you to die, though. I love you too much for that."
"I won't die, Kendall. I promise you. Okay?" James reassured the blonde.
"What if you break your promise?" Kendall asked, tears filling his eyes once more.
"Then I'll wait for you, wherever I go after I die, and I'll still love you and I'll be terribly sorry." James looked away. "I have no clue how to take this all in, Kendall. I need you to believe in me. Please." James looked down at Kendall's eyes.}
{"She was annoying." James muttered, taking Kendall's hand.
"Good. For a second there I thought you were going to kiss her or something." Kendall confessed.
"I would never do that. You're my one and only…" James trailed off, kissing Kendall's cheek.
Kendall blushed and looked up again, seeing where they were. "We're here."}
*End of Flashbacks*
"Oh God…What have I done?" Kendall whispered, wrapping his arms around himself as if that would mend the gaping hole where James tore his heart out. "What have I done?"
A/N: LOL LONG! Yay! The flashback is most of the chapter. Its Kames moments from previous chapters. Man-Suz-She, thanks for the quotes! They helped me out A LOT! Here it is! REVIEW please! I love you all!