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Chapter 5- All Time Low

"What are you looking at? Can't a girl get a drink around here now?" I shouted, too drunk to think before speaking.

"Rose, we should go." said Lissa trying to pull me out of the moroi dorm room. Emphasis on trying. I don't think she could pull a dog on wheels let alone me. The badass Rose Hathaway.

"No! I'm having fun." I pulled away from her. A pained expression crossed over her face as I pushed her away from me. "I don't want to be alone. Being on my own is no fun." I said slurring my words.

"Ah! Rose is here. This should be a right laugh." Jesse said to Ralf, "Do you want to have some 'fun' with me Rose?" I looked at his smug face. "Stay calm Rose. You're better than him. He's a piece of shit that is not lucky enough to be on your shoe. The bad thing is, at the moment I don't think that your brain is attached to your mouth.

"Yeah, I like fun." Great Rose. Don't give him the ammunition. He will wipe the floor with you. Shut up brain. I can handle this myself. Good luck. He laughed at my enthusiasm.

SMACK!

I punched him square on his nose and felt a crack beneath my fist. I watched in slow motion as his face crumpled and he fell to the floor clutching his nose trying to stop the blood that was pouring down his face. Good one Rose. I liked the way you handled that. Why thank you brain. I thought it was rather fantastic. Been wanting to do that for ages.

"You blood whore!" he barked at me. II think it's safe to say I nearly pissed myself. How the high and mighty do fall. And fall a long way.

"Oh. Wasn't that as fun for you as it was for me?" I said smiling down at him. Finally being able to, Lissa dragged me away. I didn't want the agro of people asking me why I punched Jesse. I didn't want to have to keep repeating 'Cuz he's a dickhead.'

"We are going. Right now!" We pushed our way through the crowd and exited the room. "Rose, you have to stop this. He isn't coming back." We began to make our way back to my room.

"I can hope and prey can't I?"

"You can, but it won't change anything. It's been six months and you haven't heard anything from him. He doesn't want you." I smiled at her hiding my pain.

"I know. I hate him!" I screamed. There was a long pause before she said,

"No you don't. I know you Rose. It seems better that you know yourself. You don't hate him." A tear rolled down my cheek.

"I have to… else I won't make it through this." The lyrics that I had been working on never seemed more relevant than in this moment.

"Preying won't do it,

Hating won't do it,

Drinking won't do it,

Fighting won't knock you out, Of my head,

Hiding won't hide it,

Smiling won't hide it,

Like I ain't tried it,

Everyone's tried it now,

And failed somehow,

So when you gonna let me,

When you gonna let me out - out

And if you know,

How do you get up from an all time low,

I'm in pieces,

Seems like peace is,

The only thing I'll never know,

How do you get up, Get up…"

"Enough!" Liss screamed. "You have to stop this! Get over it Rose!" I couldn't believe what she was saying. "I know I'm being a bitch, but this isn't healthy Rose. He isn't coming back. Move on. Please." The last word was a plea.

"I've tried. Honestly I have, I just can't seem to."

"I won't rest until you're okay again. Let's talk about something more cheerful."

"Thank you, Liss." I hugged her to me. "Do you want to stay in my room tonight? We could have one of our girly conversations just like the old days, before I was battered and bruised."

"Rose-" I cut her off.

"Plus, it's your birthday next week so we could talk about party details and search for dresses online." She smiled.

"Yeah, I'm so excited, of course I'll stay over. I can't wait for my party. What's my present?"

"Aha. It's a surprise." She pulled a sad face.

"I want to know." We finally reached my room. We went inside and jumped on my bed.

"You will," she looked hopeful. "In a week." I laughed. She picked up my pillow and hit me with it.

"Bitch." She laughed.

"Ha ha." I mocked her.

"See," she smiled, "I think you're on the mend."

"Oh I really hope so. I hate being like this. I don't want to miss him anymore. I don't want to love him anymore."

A/N: Sorry about this chapter, it's a bit of a filler. Lots of action kicks off in the next chapter. I hope you're excited. Keep reviewing! J