"G….Grimmjow", I moaned out, I grabbed onto his shoulder for better balance…..i am truly pathetic.
Why do you do this to me, you make me feel all these
Emotions that I hate so much yet you make me scream out your name
You are the only one who can get through my mask, the only on that can break me
"Yah, ya like that huh ya little slut", Grimmjow's growls; his thrusts becoming faster and harder, hitting that spot mercifully.
I moan out his name again, and again, and again…I just can't get enough,
It's like when im with him everything else doesn't matter
He is the only thing I care about in this hell whole I call my life
But it's too bad….because I know he doesn't care
"Ngh…ahhhh more Grimmjow ", I scream out….pathetic I think to myself
He pushes me down and throws my legs over his shoulders and slam into me with much more power than before. "Yah that's right beg for me", Grimmjow purrs.
I do what he says, because I know if I don't I will be punished and I didn't want to anger him. "Mhmhm please Grimm more I….I want you".
With my final plea to him, he comes inside me, gripping my hip so harshly I knew there was going to be a bruise there.
I felt him pull out of me the next 2 words rip my heart in the inside, even though I hear every time we do this, "Fuck off", he says.
Do you even know what you're saying to me Grimmjow?
Do you know how much those words hurt me inside?
Do you even know how much I love you and how I love to have you inside me, of even next to me?
Me being the obedient type it was not like me to say something back at him, I just couldn't take it I have to tell him how I felt or I will never get treated how I want to.
"Grimmjow, I need to tell you something", I say; my eyes glaring into those beautiful blue ones. Not getting any answer from him I just continued.
"How can you not have feeling for me, after all the stuff that we do"? I asked "Is there something about me that's holding you back"? "Please explain to me Grimmjow because I love you", I say.
That's what got his attention, "Ulquiorra get the fuck out of my room", Grimmjow yells out; his eyes flaring with anger and rage, as if anyone like Ulquiorra could love him…right.
I refused to leave at this point, "I will not leave until I get an answer Grimmjow", I yelled back.
Grimmjow was across the room now with his hand around my throat, I could have easily overpowered him but after his previous activity with Grimmjow, he was weak at this point.
Why can't you just tell me the truth, just tell me how you really feel about me?
As if reading my mind Grimmjow said…."Ulquiorra I don't give a shit about you okay, actually I hate your fucking guts I always have, the only reason why I do this is because you're a nice fuck so get that through your thick skull-before he could say anything else Grimmjow felt Ichigo's spiritual Pressure, Grimmjow looked back at Ulquiorra "I don't have time for your bullshit right now, I have better things to do", he said.
Grimmjow face twisted in a devilish smirk he let go of Ulquiorra and ran right out the door, but for some reason his mind kept traveling back to Ulquiorra. And what he said, he felt his chest tense up at the desperate look on Ulquiorra's face. His thoughts were cut short when he laid his eyes on ichigo, running up to him with Pantera out….. ~ICH~I~GO!
Is that what you really think of me….Grimmjow?
Am I only a sex toy to you, do you not love me the way I do
A tear falls down my face…..how pathetic I am….to ever THINK that Grimmjow would love me back. I felt his retisu drop dramatically and I started to panic.
I know you don't love me but I still don't want you dead for any reason
I tried to keep my composure but it starts to break slowly as I near the battle field
I can feel it you are losing badly
Grimmjow….please don't die
Im really pathetic chasing after someone who doesn't even love me back
But I can't help it
I watched as Ichigo raised his sword….I watched as Grimmjow eyes got wide at the sudden appearance, but the sword never cut Grimmjow right down the chest….because I jumped in his way. And before I fell to my death, I cero'ed a hole right through that bastard who tried to kill Grimmjow;
I watched as his eyes got wide before losing its color…..
Our body's fell to the ground from the air, making a bone crushing sound
I knew I was going to die, because that attack went straight through my body into my lungs
I really am pathetic, saving this idiot who doesn't even love me
How unsightly I think
I lay there on the ground on the verge of death, I watch as Grimmjow kneels down to caress my cheek.
Why are you doing this, after all the things you said to me but you still make me feel this way
"W….Why'd you do that"? Grimmjow asks me….
Why should I give him an answer?
Why should I give him the satisfaction, I should just die and leave him here feeling guilty
But deep down inside I knew I couldn't do it
I loved him too much to lie to his face while in on the verge of death and lying in a pool of my own blood
"I….couldn't….let …you…die….because …..Of me", I said, I was surprised myself I got that all out in one sentence. "It's my fault that you came out here", I said again. And it was true, if I hadn't confessed my actual feeling for him, he wouldn't have gotten so mad and ran off after Ichigo.
Grimmjow was taken aback did Ulquiorra think that this was his fault, he was starting to feel guilty now…..wait a minute Ulquiorra was the 4th there's no way that little wound could kill him. (Grimmjow doesn't know that Ulquiorra can't regenerate organs). His face turned into a scowl "Ulquiorra I hate you, you are nothing to me", he said.
I knew he was going to say this, I felt it coming
I can feel myself drifting away now
And yet…I still love him
I smile to myself and looked up into Grimmjow's shocked eyes "I really am pathetic….because…I still…love you…Grimmjow", I say; a tear rolling down my cheek the last of my body is turned to dust not a trace left.
Grimmjow on his knees just stared at the spot I've been only seconds ago, feeling lost, guilty and heartbroken. The 4th really did love him…..he really did.
Now he is the one who felt…..Truly Pathetic.
I don't know what to say about this…umm just felt like I needed to write this.
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