CHAPTER 11: APOV

What the hell was the matter with me? I was kissing Belikov's freaking sister! After he threatened me! What the fuck was I thinking? She started talking and I got pissed, so I kissed her. Don't get me wrong, I liked kissing her, but it was so fucked up. And the most screwed up part? She was kissing me back.

VPOV

After the immediate shock of Adrian kissing me, I started kissing him back. I didn't know why, I just wanted to. It felt right, even if I knew it was wrong.

We finally pulled back, gasping for air. He just looked at me with his intense eyes, staring into my soul.

"We shouldn't have done that." I whispered.

"You didn't seem to have any problem with it while it was happening." he muttered.

"It's wrong." I said.

"It didn't feel wrong."

"But it was."

"How? How is it wrong?"

"I'm a dhamphir. You're a moroi. My brother is your guardian. You love Rose." I said quietly.

"Didn't I already clarify? I told your brother this while you were there: I care about her, I want her to be happy, but I'm not in love with her." he said, exasperated.

"But you still love her." I whispered.

"But I will never be with her. I don't WANT to be with her. Do you want me to be?"

"No…" I spoke, barely audible.

"Then why is it wrong? Because I'm a moroi? Whatever. Like I care. I don't give a shit if it's frowned upon, and no one else should, either!"

"You and my brother hate each other!"

"Aren't you the one that said we don't?"

"But you act like it, so you might as well!"

"What if I fix things with him? Is it wrong then? What if I tell him I respect him?"

"It wouldn't be wrong, but-."

"But what?" He yelled.

"You act like a-"

"Like a what?" he demanded. "Just say it!"

"Like you have no respect for women! Like they are just toys for you to play with! Like you don't give a damn about anybody!" I shouted back at him.

He looked at and shook his head. "And who just told me it was an act?" He said quietly. "Never mind. I can get to my room fine, thanks." He started to walk away.

"Wait! Adrian!" I yelled after him. "Wait! I'm sorry! I didn't mean-"

"Yeah, you did. You meant every word you said. And don't worry about it. That's what everyone thinks. That's what everyone expects. How am I supposed to change from that if that's what everyone expects?" He shook his head again and kept walking.

"It's not what everyone thinks." I said quietly. He stopped walking.

"Rose doesn't count." he said softly.

"It's not just Rose! It's Lissa, Christian, Dimitri, Eddie, Mia, and me! None of us think that's really you!"

"Then why did you just say it?" He turned around and yelled.

"I don't know!" I yelled.

"When you figure it out, let me know." He turned and started walking again.

"Because you keep acting like that! If you keep acting like that, people are going to think that's you! Be you! The really you! Drop the act! Take of the stupid mask!" I started crying.

"Why are you crying?" He asked, gently.

"Because you're an idiot!" I yelled.

"Well, thanks. That's probably the nicest thing I've heard all day." He muttered. "Come on. Stop crying. I'll walk you home."

"That's my job." I said, wiping away my tears.

He laughed. It was a warm sound, a wonderful sound. He grabbed my hand and pulled me along, towards my room.

We walked along the halls, silently. When we got to my room, he stopped, bowed, and kissed my hand. "I bid thee farewell, mil lady." He said, in a regal voice. I laughed. He smiled and turned to go. I grabbed his arm, and turned around looking at me questioningly.

"Stay." I whispered.

He raised an eyebrow, but smiled. "Of course."

AN: What do you thinks gonna happen? Hope you liked it! Sorry, it's kind of short. Please review! I love hearing from you guys, it makes me write faster! I'll try to update soon!

-Haru