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I'm nervous. No I don't think nervous is the right way to describe what I'm feeling. I'm scared. I'm afraid that it will happen again, I'll fall for a girl like I did before, and I won't be able to stop myself. It was a mistake inviting Spencer to my house; it was a mistake not asking the stupid teacher to change partners. I probably should have asked her why we had to do a project on pandas for Latin class too, because that still confuses me. I glance at the clock and its 12:55. And now it's too late to change anything, I'm always too late.

And the then I hear the knock on the door, and being the smooth person, I am I almost die trying to get there to open it, but then again maybe dying would be better.

"Hello, I see you got here" I look anywhere but at her afraid of what I may see. Actually not really what I would see, but how it would make me feel.

"Yeah I guess I did, considering I'm at your front door right now" I can hear her giggle quietly and I've never heard something so, so carefree, so light, so happy in my life. Then I make the mistake of looking at her, and once I do I can't look away. I can't look away because it just wouldn't be right. She's, she's almost like a fallen angel but better in every way possible. Even though she's only wearing jeans and a simple T- shirt with her hair up in a messy bun she is still so beautiful it's impossible to describe.

"Oh wow you are just so funny" I use the one defense I know best to try and shield myself from what I am feeling, sarcasm. It usually seems to work pretty well.

She looks around my yard and then back at me with her piercing eyes "Yeah I try…..are you gonna let me in any time soon or should I try and break in through a window" It pisses me off that she thinks she is so funny, but what makes me more mad is that I would think she is too, if I wasn't trying so hard not to like her.

"Yeah, yeah whatever just come in" I'm seriously starting to regret this.

She looks at me like she expected me to tell her to leave and never come back, and for some reason that upsets me deeply, she lets out a whispered "Thanks" as she walks past me into the house gently grazing my hand with hers. I can feel the sparks shooting up my arm. And I'm not sure if this was an accident but I can only hope it was.

I need some time to just breathe "You can go up to my room if you want, second door on the right and I'll bring up some food or something."

She looks at me with a smirk on her face, and I have no idea why "I remember where you're room is. And "Or something"….what would that be" she gives me a suggestive sort of smile, her rich blue eyes roaming over me. And now she's flirting with me, truly unbelievable. I don't know if she understands the lines that she is crossing, but even if she did I doubt she would stop. I'm not going to flirt back though because I don't think I could take it.

I roll my eyes and quickly say while pointing to the stairs "Just go."

She shakes her head and smiles at me like she knows something I don't. Then she salutes me "Whatever you say boss."

I walk into my room with some popcorn. Popcorn is most likely the best snack ever and I am pretty excited to be eating it until I see her holding one of my pictures. I am actually considering running out the door right now until she says, still looking down at the picture.

"She is pretty..."

And like I always was with Katie, I was unable to stop myself. I walk up behind Spencer not realizing how close we were and took the picture from her hands. "Yeah she really is beautiful"

Then she turns around and looks at me. Straight at me and it is then that I realize we are only inches apart and I can't do it. I see the way she is looking at me. She wants to know, she understands exactly what line she is crossing and she couldn't care less. She knows what she is asking of me, I just don't understand why, why she has to care so much. "What happened between you two?" She asks the question that so many people asked me before, but it's different with her. It's absolutely terrifying.

"I can't talk about it" I start to back away because I shouldn't be this close to her, I should never be this close with anyone after what happened.

And she looks me dead in the eye. I can't tell if she's mad, or upset, or confused. I don't know if she's trying to understand me and open me up but honestly I just don't care. I wish I had stopped her before she said her following words. "Can't or won't Ash"