Hey guys. So all the conversations and such from the past are in Italics, hopefully some of the confusion will be cleared up in this chapter…if not it will be in time so don't worry. Reviews are awesome :D Enjoy!

"Can't or won't Ash" I close my eyes just trying to block her out. She called me Ash, she called me Ash and I haven't heard her call me that for a while not since…

I saw a beautiful blond take a seat in the chair next to me "Hey so you're the new girl"

She looks up from her notebooks and smiles, an enchanting smile at me "Yep I guess that would be me"

"Well stranger I'm Ashley Davies" I put out my hand for her to shake.

She takes mine in her own smooth, soft hand "Nice to meet you Ashley I'm Spencer Carlin "

After that meeting we did start to talk a lot, she would come over to my house and we would spend nights just getting to know each other. It was fun and we became really great friends. She knew that my favorite animal was an Elephant and I knew that she was terrified of bridges and spiders. We seemed to be fit for each other. But then I met Katie. She was different than anyone else I knew. She was older than me by a few years, and didn't go to our high school. She became my everything. I started talking less and less with Spencer and I never did tell her about Katie. We still said hello in the hallways but it wasn't the same. Katie took up most of my time and we became so close. She taught me how to live and be free, and she made me happy. Happier then I have ever been before. She was exciting to be with; with her I never knew what was going to happen next. I loved her, in every single way a human being could love another person. Then it happened. And Katie wasn't there anymore. I wasn't the same girl after it. I was just bits and pieces of the old Ashley Davies and I was almost certain I wouldn't be whole again, at least not for a long time. I was lost and I didn't know if I could ever be found. But Spencer noticed. She noticed how torn up I was and slowly we started talking again like we used to. She found me. She asked me what happened, but I never once mentioned Katie…I just couldn't. She was always there and she helped me to become myself again. She was a better friend then I ever was to her and I couldn't understand why. She would always watch out for me and I was grateful, I was so grateful for that. After a while something in our relationship changed and I wasn't sure if I liked the way it was going. All I know is that I was afraid of what would happen.

We were sitting on her bed in the room facing each other and just talking about everything and anything. But there was one question on my mind that I had been dying to ask her for a while.

I look up at her timid, but so curious. "Spence why were you there?"

She chuckles and it makes me smile, a real smile "Ash that's not very specific"

Then I was serious again, because this was one thing that always bothered me "I basically stopped talking to you, but when I was falling apart you were there, and I just don't know why"

She gazes at me "I care about you" she said as if it was the simplest thing in the whole world.

It just can't be that simple though I mean, I was horrible to her "But I was a total jerk to you. I mean, out of the blue I just start not texting you back and not inviting you over and-"

She takes my hand in hers, gently strokes it and makes sure I am looking at her before she says "Ash it's simple. I really care about you and I knew you were always there you were just a little bit distracted" she says it in a soothing tone and I don't know why but everything that she has done for me in the past couple of months just hits me.

I whisper because I feel like it's a special secret I don't want anyone else to know "Spence you saved me"

"I'll always be here to save you" and she had this look in her eyes. This look of sheer hope and maybe just maybe love reflecting back at me from her ocean blue eyes. She started to lean in and I just froze. She lightly cupped my face, slowly rubbing small patterns on my cheek with her thumb, and then gently kissed my lips….I had to pull away. I knew exactly what was happening, I was falling for her. I was falling hard, so hard it hurt. But I was afraid. I couldn't take it, not after what happened with Katie, not after everything I had been through, so I did the only thing that I thought would help me.

"Spencer I have to go" and it was sickening watching the realization hit her and then the pain slowly creep across her face, but I just couldn't do this not with her, not with anyone.

"Ash I'm sorry" she was blaming herself, but it wasn't her fault at all.

"Good bye Spencer" and with that I left. I left her house I left her life and I got as far away as possible. She tried to talk to me at school but I ignored her. I told everyone that I hated her and sometimes even got into fights with her in front of crowds. I needed others to believe that I hated her for me to believe it. She always kept trying to talk to me, to just try and understand I guess. But after a while I had certain walls built and I had to take precautions to keep from letting anyone hurt me like Katie did. Staying away from Spencer kept all my feelings I had for her away, that is until we got this stupid project.