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This is really bad, I mean she's not saying anything; she shouldn't have heard all that. She didn't need to know my life story. "Spencer say something."

She's looking down at her hands, and I wish I could have an Edward Cullen moment and read her mind. "I don't really know what to say to that"

Well since I am in fact not Edward Cullen I guess we will have to go the old fashioned way and just speak our thoughts "Just tell me what you're thinking"

Her eyes are on me now, I can feel them "Well, I understand. I totally understand now and it basically all makes sense. I- I just can't believe it."

Jesus fucking Christ, I wonder which part is the hardest to believe. "Which part?"

Her voice is louder now with a hint of anger to it. A sharp edge. "That someone would do that to you Ashley. That someone who knew you trusted them that much would do something like that to you."

Now I'm really in shock and I have to look into those endless eyes because I can't believe she still cares after all I did to her "It doesn't matter, I should just forget about it and let it go. Spencer I basically hurt you just as much. "

I look around and notice she's rubbing her hands together, she seems to do that a lot when she's thinking about something really hard. It makes me uncomfortable knowing that it's me she's thinking about "That's what I thought at first too Ash, but this made me realize that what you did honestly wasn't that horrible, I mean you did humiliate me and it will take a while for me to get over that. "

I say the first thing that comes to mind "How can you ever get over something like that?"

There is a small smile on her face and a little spark in her eyes… it's adorable "Because, you still cared even when you did that to me, it was just your way of caring."

"But-"

She put her hand over my mouth I guess for some kind of extra effect, but I can't really think too much because when she takes it away my face is all tingly. Then she starts to talk "No, no buts. You thought you were helping me, by keeping me away from you. You are honestly too hard on yourself. I am willing to forgive you, but you need to start forgiving yourself. There was one thing that you didn't understand back then and I guess you still don't understand it now. "

What the….."And what would that be?"

She has taken both my hands in hers and her eyes are boring into mine. I pay close attention because when she's talking it is always important, but now it seems different, like something I need to hear. "That the only thing that helped me was when I was with you. You made everything better for me and you didn't even know it. I wanted to help you Ashley, after what Katie did to you, I WANTED to be there to get you back to normal, because I missed the old you. I missed when you would smile and laugh and everything would instantly be ten times better, you would just live in the moment and enjoy it. You were never like that again, I'm going to help you, but this time I'm not going to let you push me away, and I'm definitely not going to let you run from your feelings."

Oh god…this cannot happen again. We cannot get that close again. I take my hands from hers and stand up "I don't think that's a good idea"

She is now also standing a challenging look in her eyes and a big smile gracing her beautiful face "I think it's a great idea"

I sigh because I truly don't understand her. She must not remember the last time she tried to help me. "Why would you even say that, you know exactly what happened last time, as I have stated before you should just stay away from me. No matter how I feel about you, I just- I'm too afraid to act on it, you would know…..it would be just like the night when we kissed and what happened after. You know how I made your life hell. I don't want to hurt you again Spencer."

And now she's stepping closer to me. Intent on keeping her eyes locked with mine "Do you like me Ashley?"

Ummm that was random. "Yes"

Another step closer "Do you like me as a friend?"

OK this is getting funny and not funny ha-ha funny weird "Of course I do but I mea-"

Another few steps and now she's in my personal space "Did you like me as more than a friend when we kissed?"

I take a couple of steps back, away from her intoxicating presence. This conversation is not heading in the right direction "Spencer"

Her voice is strict, and she just looks like she needs to hear the answer "Just answer my question"

I want to run, but I've done that before and I guess it's time for the truth "Yes"

She takes another step towards me her eyes blazing "Did you want to kiss me that night?"

I don't know what to do, I thought we already covered all this "I was afraid"

One more step towards me and once again almost too close for comfort "Did you want to do it Ashley?"

Honesty is a bitch "More than anything"

And with the next step she is merely inches away from me….way too close. "Do you still feel the same way?"

I try to move back and get away but all I do is feel my hit the wall "It's not the same Spencer and you know it"

She has her hands on either side of my head against the wall and I can smell her, it's just too much "Maybe it's not the same situation, but do you still feel the same way about me?"

I look down at the floor. I can't keep looking into those eyes and get my thoughts together at the same time. So I take my time and chose my next words carefully "No, It's different. I liked you before, I liked you a lot, but I could at least try to hold my feelings back and ignore them. I mean that is exactly what I did when I left your house the night that we kissed, I totally ignored my feelings. But now with you here I can't ignore them anymore. I'm trying so hard to just put my feelings away, anywhere. Just get them out of my head"

She leans in close and whispers into my ear "What are you feeling?"

Why can't she just let this be "I shouldn't Spencer, not after everything that has happened"

Her voice is a harsh whisper. Her eyes have darkened and they are breaking me, totally tearing me apart. She's frustrated, I can tell "Ashley please just tell me. Take down the walls, stop with the filter just tell me what you're really feeling for once, be honest with me for once"

I guess I can't hide it anymore so I assume now would be the best time to say it. And this time I don't think before I talk, I just look into those eyes that I love so much and say what I'm thinking "Fine, alright. I like you Spencer I really, really like you, I never stopped. And right now I'm freaking out because I can't stop. I can't stop noticing the way your eyes get dark like the sky in the middle of the night when you're upset or curious, I can't stop noticing whenever you even slightly move next to me, I can't stop almost dying whenever your hand accidentally touches my arm, whenever you touch me at all, I can stop noticing how you rub your hands together whenever you're thinking, I can't stop noticing that little sparkle in your eye whenever you have hope or a mischievous idea, and how it makes your dream like eyes even more amazing , I can't stop noticing how beautiful you are, I can't stop falling for you all over again" I'm out of breath after my little rant and I have little hope of just going back to hating her or at least pretending that I do.

She moved in closer, her cheek gently brushing against mine, and then pressing against my jaw line, down to my neck. Then I felt her nose agonizingly slow, make its path from the base of my neck up to my chin and only then did she pull back. I closed my eyes just trying to take it all in and understand it all. And when I opened them back up her eyes were still on mine. Her eyes were soft yet filled with determination and confidence. And her next words that came out in a soft whisper I never expected. "Then don't."