AN – Thank you to all the reviewers, I still cannot decide on what the endgame is going to be (BRATHAN OR BRUCAS). I do feel myself swaying towards BRATHAN just because there aren't that many stories about a Brathan romance and I am really enjoying writing it. We'll see! So please vote on the poll on my profile. Sorry about the wait for this chapter my internet has been so annoying lately and hasn't been turning on over the past few days but I'm hoping its back on now for good! Sorry about the long AN too anyway….Enjoy
Chapter Six
Brooke walked out of the hospital doors
Leaving the boy that she loved, her best friend
But taking her heart with her
She walked the half an hour walk to Nathans flat
Opening the door she took a deep breath knowing that it was going to hurt so much having to leave somewhere that had made her so happy.
Brooke walked in and closed the door behind her
It was strange to be there knowing that Nathan might never return here,
She shook the thought out of her head
She couldn't think about that.
She pulled out the suitcase from the top shelf of the cupboard and a box fell down
Photos and letters flew across the room
Brooke sat on the floor and was surrounded by memories of her and Nathan
Photos she'd never seen before
She picked one up; it was of the two of them on the beach
They were about ten, she was asleep and he was lay next to her grinning into the camera
Brooke picked up a letter; the envelope said "Brooke Davies – Letter 27"
She looked around and saw loads of them
She crawled around the floor on her hands and knees trying to find number one
Finding it she pulled her knees to her chest and began to read
'Brooke Davies,
I don't know why I've decided to write to you, but it's kind of nice to know that I can write anything down and it'll be here forever.
I can write all the things that I can't say to your face.
I don't know if I'll give you this letter, I don't know if I'll write anymore, I guess we'll see
The date is 29th July; we're 15 years old and tomorrow is the first day of our summer holidays.
You're dad left yesterday, for good this time I think, and I can see how much you're hurting but I don't know how to stop it.
I don't know how to make this better.
You're trying to pretend like you don't care but I can read you like a book, you're hurting and I want you to know that I am here and I always will be.
I remember the first time your dad walked out; you turned up on my doorstep in floods of tears.
Dan and my mom were out as always and I let you in.
You sat on the sofa and I pulled you into a hug,
I wanted to tell you how beautiful you looked
How when you're afraid your eyes turn a lighter shade,
How each tear slid down your perfect face and made you look so lonely.
I swore I never would make you feel like this.
I promised myself that I would always be there to protect you from that.
After a while you stopped crying and fell asleep.
I never told you this but while you were sleeping I went to your house,
Your mom was passed out on the sofa with empty vodka bottles around her.
I guessed she would be in a state so I tidied your living room up so you wouldn't have to.
You were 13 years old; you shouldn't have had to deal with it
Even though you had been since you were 5
I carried Victoria upstairs and placed her on her bed.
I walked into your room; do you know that was the first time I'd been in your room?
I saw the photos me and you in frames, stuck on the walls, on the mirror.
That was the day Brooke Davies that I realised you loved me.
That was also the day that I realised I loved you.
I walked back home and woke you up and I kissed you
You never asked me why, you never questioned it
You smiled that beautiful smile and put your hand into mine
Like it had always belonged there,
I'm pretty sure it always will.
You're coming over in a minute so I guess I'll end this letter before you get here
You're mine forever Brooke Davies, don't forget that, not even for a second.
Natey.
X'
Brooke slide the letter back into the envelope, tears streaming down her face
How had it all gone so wrong?
Brooke picked up the letters and put them in order
There were 79 letters in total
She couldn't bring herself to read the rest of them
She put them in the box with the photos and put them in her suitcase
Grabbing some clothes, she shoved them in and zipped it up
She hated the thought of leaving the flat but she couldn't stay here.
She needed to get out, to get away,
She pulled the suitcase out the door and started walking home,
She hadn't seen Victoria in months, and she knew she wasn't going to get a warm reception,
But she didn't have anywhere else to go.
XXX
Karen watched Lucas pick at his lunch
"Sweetie, you need to eat something. I'll take you back to the hospital after I promise." Karen smiled at him
He nodded and returned the smile
A small brunette caught his eye outside his mom's café
"Brooke." Lucas said as he got up and ran out
Karen watched her son take the suitcase from the girl she recognised from Lukes, basketball games.
Karen realised that it was Nathans girlfriend and opened the door to let Lucas in
"Luke, please its fine. I'm just going to stay there for a bit. I'm ok." Brooke said quietly
"Brooke. You'll stay here." Lucas didn't even look at her
Both Karen and Brooke looked at him like he'd gone crazy
Karen looked at Brooke, she saw a scared girl who needed someone
"Lucas, take Brookes stuff and put it in the spare room. There should be some clean bedding in the dryer."
Lucas nodded and smiled at Brooke who looked shocked
"That's really kind of you, you don't have to, and I can go home." Brooke said timidly
"Nonsense. You must be Brooke, I'm Karen. Would you like something to eat?"
Brooke nodded, she hadn't eaten all day and she was starving
"Hayley, can you take Brookes order please? I need to finish baking.
Brooke, I'll just be in the back if you need me. Lucas should be back down soon.
Take a seat and Hayley will come over, you might recognise her from school." Karen smiled and left
Brooke sat down, she looked at Hayley, she recognised her straight away she was the girl that was always with Lucas
Brooke felt embarrassed and she didn't know what to say to her
"Hey, I'm Hayley, what would you like?" Hayley smiled a genuine smile
Brooke gave her order and sat waiting for her food
Hayley brought it over and surprised Brooke by sitting down
"I'm sorry about Nathan. Lucas told me about the HCM and stuff, I hope you don't mind.
I know you don't know me, but if you ever need anything then I'll be happy to help."
Brooke was shocked at the kindness of a stranger
She knew if she said anything she would start crying
She felt like she could tell Hayley anything even though they'd only just met
Brooke smiled and started eating her food
Hayley left to serve another customer,
Brooke looked around the Café, it was cute, she'd never been in here before but she liked it,
It felt homely.
"Hey, I've put your stuff in the spare room. You going to tell me what happened? Why you've moved out?"
Lucas said as he slid into the seat next to Brooke
"I don't want to talk about it. I think I'm going to take a walk, do you mind?"
Lucas nodded and watched her leave.
She walked to the River Court and sat on the bench looking out over the river
She removed a letter from her bag
-"Brooke Davies – letter 2"
Opening it up, her hands were trembling
"My Brookie,
So I decided to write to you again. I still haven't given you the last letter but I miss you.
You've gone to LA with your mom.
You left yesterday and I haven't heard from you since.
It doesn't sound like a long time, but trust me, it feels like centuries!
I don't know when you're coming back and you haven't switched your phone back on.
I hope you're okay.
I know how tough your mom can be on you.
This summer is going to suck without you!
I wanted to tell you something before you left yesterday but for some reason I couldn't.
You once told me that words don't mean anything, that they're just words
I wanted to tell you that I love you, but the words just don't sound enough
They don't even begin to cover how much I need you
How I couldn't cope if you ever left me,
How my heart beats three times as fast when you're around
How every time I see you smile, I feel myself smile
You make my days better
You make my life better.
I don't honestly know what I'd do without you
And 'I love you' just doesn't sum up how I feel.
I promise you though, one day I'll tell you
I'll look into those beautiful eyes and tell you how much I love you and you'll believe me
One day.
I miss you Brooke,
You're mine forever.
Nate.
Xx"
Brooke felt tears slide down her face for what felt like the millionth time in the past few days
She got up and walked to the hospital
Opening the door to Nathans room she was glad she was his only visitor
"Hey Nate, it's me.
The doctors said you're heartbeat is a little stronger than it was this morning.
They said not to get my hopes up but your signs are looking better
I have to tell you something, and I just hope you can hear me
I tried to tell you on the day we came to get your results
And I tried to tell you at the basketball match before you took your free throw
I guess it's better late than never
Nathan, I'm pregnant."
XXX
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