Okay, so some of you might object to this chapter and some might agree. I just want to say that I see Reid as kind of... Lacking in the sexual contact with women department. You guys may disagree but that's just what I think. Every one has their own views and opinions when it comes to Reid and it would be pretty boring if we all thought the same thing. Anyway, I just wanted to say that before anyone started reading the chapter... You all have started reading it already, haven't you? *sigh* Carry on.
Tucker carried some of the plastic bags into Reid's apartment. Reid had suggested they stop at an all night grocer so that there would be food in the apartment. Tucker had just nodded. She was too drained to think about what to get and had just walked beside Reid in the store nodding whenever he asked her something. She turned and took the rest of the bags from Reid as he placed the paper bags holding the take out Chinese food on the coffee table. She carried the bags into the kitchen ignoring Reid most of the time.
Reid sat on the couch and began empting the bags of food and placing the containers on the coffee table. He listened and heard something fall on the floor in the kitchen and then a string of curses from Tucker. He got up and hobbled his way into the kitchen and flicked on the light. He saw Tucker on the floor wiping up some orange juice from the floor while the now half empty container sat on the floor beside her. Reid went to kneel down to help her but Tucker got up and grabbed his arm.
"I got it," she said tossing the soaked dish clothe in the sink and grabbing another one.
"I could help you put all this away so then you could have something to eat. I mean, this is my apartment I do know where everything goes," Reid said watching her. He saw how stiff she was moving and knew that she was trying her damnest not to fall apart on him.
"I can figure out where the hell everything goes. You aren't that hard to profile, you know."
Reid stopped. Gideon had told him the exact something once. He reached out and grabbed Tucker's hand before she turned away from him. He watched as she turned and looked at him. He saw her hand start to shake and he pulled her closer to him. She tried to pull away from his touch but he wrapped an arm around her waist and gently rubbed her back.
"I still want you," he told her softly feeling her tense up.
"How, Spence? How could you still want me? You sat there all day and listened to me explain the horrible things I did with my father and-," Tucker started.
She was shocked when Reid cut her off with a kiss. She felt the end of the counter against her lower back as Reid leaned her against it. She kissed him back running her hands down his chest. She pulled on his tie and felt him deepen the kiss. She felt his hand push the sweater she wore aside and then slip under her wife beater. She sighed when his warm hand came into contact with her skin. She leaned against him more and then she pulled away.
"Spence, I won't jeopardize your job," she told him softly.
"And usually I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize it either but," Reid kissed her again gently, "I need you to know that I will always want you. Nothing I heard today could change that."
Reid held on to Tucker tight waiting for her to pull away. Instead she rested her head on his shoulder and closed her eyes. He stroked her hair and took in her scent. She smelled like vanilla mixed with his own cologne because she wore his clothes. It was a scent he wanted to smell all the time. He pulled away when he felt Tucker pulling his shirt out from his pants. She turned and looked at him. She had tears in her eyes.
"Make me forget about my life, Spence. Just for a little while," she asked holding the bottom of his shirt.
"I'll try," he said leaning in and kissing her again as he felt her fingers working on the buttons of his shirt.
Tucker slowly undid all the buttons on Reid's shirt. She let Reid push off the sweater and she tossed it aside. Reid then pulled away and took her hand. She smiled at him and let him lead her out of the kitchen. She followed him down a short hallway once again skirting piles of books along the way. He then pushed open the only door on the right. She knew that on the left of the hall was the washroom. She followed Reid into his bedroom and smiled. The room was dominated by a king size bed and bookshelves lined the wall across from the bed. She pulled away from Reid and walked over to the bookshelves. She smiled when she saw a picture of Reid with his mom. She turned when Reid wrapped his arms around her waist. She looked into his brownish green eyes and saw the future she could have with him in them. She placed the picture back on the shelve and turned around to face him.
"Are you sure about this?" she asked him softly undoing his tie and pulling it off.
"Yes. I have waited a while for this," Reid admitted letting Tucker push off his shirt.
"So, you have been thinking about me that much, huh?"
Reid blushed and kissed Tucker again. The truth was he had never done any of this before. He had always been awkward around women and having graduated high school at 12 and moved on to university straight after, he had never gotten the chance to experience any sexual contact with women. Women just didn't flock to him like they did other men and when he did get a date it never went far. He pulled away and kissed down Tucker's neck and ran his hands up her wife beater. He really hoped he was doing this right because he wanted it to be special for Tucker.
Tucker pulled away and pulled the wife beater off and over her head. She tossed it aside and looked at Reid. He was looking at her body and she suddenly felt shy. She looked away but felt his hand on her cheek. She looked back at him and gave him a soft smile. She watched him and he took her hand and placed it on his chest above his heart.
"I wasn't going to tell you but I think you deserve to know," he started.
"Know what?" Tucker asked gently moving her thumb in a circle on his bare skin.
"I... I have never had sex before. I was a child genius and graduating high school at 12 didn't help and- Tucker?" Reid asked looking at her confused when she pulled away and turned to grab her wife beater.
"No, I won't take that from you," Tucker said her hands shaking as she tried to pull on her shirt. She couldn't get it on. She turned when she felt Reid's hands on her skin. She closed her eyes and let tears roll down her cheeks. She couldn't be Reid's first. She was used goods and he deserved better than her.
"You aren't taking anything from me. I am giving it freely. Tuck, you are the first girl who has looked past my genius and hasn't been scared. You are special to me and I know that there isn't going to be another girl like you that is going to come along anytime soon," he whispered to her running one hand along her side and on her stomach. He then ran it up and gently ran his fingers along the curve of her breast feeling the soft fabric of her bra.
"Spence, I was a whore. I-."
"Don't say that."
Tucker was shocked when Reid spun her around. She faced him and looked into his eyes and saw that he was angry. She let him pull her closer to him and she knew that she could be happy with him. She could live with him forever but she knew that she would never get the chance. Her father would take it away from her just like he took everything else.
"It's what I am, Spencer."
"No, it's not. I will not allow you to call yourself that. You did what you had to in order to survive. Technically this is your first time as well. Those men you slept with don't count because you didn't want to make love to them. You had no choice," Reid stated firmly running his hands up her back and under her bra strap.
Tucker shook her head and hugged Reid close to her, "You will say anything just to get me in bed," she whispered.
"No, I am saying it because I love you."
The moments the words were out there Reid knew he couldn't take them back. He didn't want to. He had spent almost a whole year getting to know her and he had known a couple of months before when he had been standing in that scientist's house dying of anthrax poisoning that he loved her. He had stood in the house thinking he was dying and the two people he wanted to say goodbye to were his mother and Tucker. He pulled away and looked at her now and saw the shock on her face. She shook her head.
"No, you don't. You can't love me," she stated softly.
"I do love you. And you can't make me take it back. You need someone to love you, Tuck, why can't it be me?"
"Because you are too good, Spence. I am broken and hurt. You deserve someone who is whole."
"You are whole to me."
Tucker felt tears falling. She kissed Reid and wrapped his arms around him. She knew she couldn't leave him now. He loved her and god help her but she loved him. She felt him undo her bra and she let him pull it off and toss it aside. She ran her own hands down his chest and stomach to his pants. She slowly undid his belt then stopped. She pulled away and looked into his eyes again. She reached up and brushed the hair from his face.
"I love you too," she whispered softly.
"See? I found someone who loved me for who I am. That means that you must be good too."
"Now you're just being cute."
"Only with you."
Reid kissed her again and wrapped his arms around her and lifted her off her feet. He loved the feel of her skin against his. He carried her over to the bed and laid her on it his body draping hers. He pulled away from the kiss and looked at her. Her green eyes looked up into his and he felt himself falling again. He kissed her again and then cursed when he felt a pull in his leg. He rolled off of Tucker and sat up holding his leg. Tucker climbed off of the bed and gently took his hand. He looked at her but knew that he would trust her. She gently pulled him to the foot of the bed. She then pulled away and stood in front of him. He looked at her body and smiled. She was beyond beautiful to him and he couldn't believe that he had ended up with her. He watched as she slowly undid the button his pants that she wore. She then unzipped the zipper and they fell to the floor. She stepped out of them and Reid saw the shape of a tattoo on her ankle. He looked up when she stepped closer to him. She took his hand and placed it on her hip.
"I want you to take off the last piece of clothing I am wearing," she whispered softly.
Tucker watched Reid as he swallowed the lump in his throat. She placed her hands on his shoulders and waited. She smiled when Reid tugged her forward pulling on the cotton fabric of her pink panties. She sighed when she felt Reid's warm breath on her stomach. She jumped a little when she felt his lips on her skin. She looked down and saw him looking at her worried.
"Did I hurt you?" he asked concerned.
"No, it's alright Spence. I was just surprised," she answered stoking his hair. She still couldn't believe that she was going to be his first. She had wanted to be with him but she had always thought that he had been with women before. He was such a great guy she couldn't believe that some women were so shallow as to not be able to look past his quarks.
"Did you like it?" Reid asked. He wanted to please her so much. He knew that he was new at this but he wanted to make sure that she was satisfied.
"I love the feel of your lips on my skin, Spence."
"That's good to know. Did you know that most women find the touch of someone they love comforting and also arousing? Even if they are angry, one touch can-."
"Spence, love, you really think now is the time to recite those facts?"
Reid blushed. He leaned close to Tucker and kissed above her panties. He smiled when she leaned closer to him. He gently placed his fingers in between her skin and her panties. He slowly pulled them down an inch and placed another kiss on the bare skin he uncovered. He winced when he saw a couple cigarette burns and he wondered what other scars he would find if he explored her body more. He made a mental note to do that later on. He pulled her panties down more and placed another kiss on her skin. He pulled them down all the way and pushed them down her legs running his fingers along her skin. He watched as she stepped out of them and kicked them behind her. He looked up and accepted the kiss that Tucker pressed to his lips.
Tucker kissed Reid deeply feeling his hands run along her skin. His touch was so gentle and loving. It was so different then the touches she had received from her johns. They had been rough uncaring about how they treated her. They had thought she was their property for however long they had paid for and that they could treat her however they wanted. Reid was so different. His every touch was filled with love and Tucker had to hold back her tears. She pulled away from the kiss and then kneeled in front of him. She reached out and reached for his pants.
"Let's get these off of you," she whispered undoing the button then zipper on his pants.
"Okkay," Reid said stuttering a little.
Tucker stopped and looked up at him, "We can stop, Spence. I can climb into that bed with you and we can wait do this another time."
"It's not that, it's," Reid sighed, "I don't want you to think I'm inadequate."
"Spencer," Tucker whispered pulled his face towards her. She kissed him gently and smiled against his lips, "You are perfect to me and you always will be. I will never find you inadequate. Never."
Reid kissed Tucker again, "I knew there was a reason I loved you."
The words filled Tucker with a warmth feeling she hadn't felt since the night her mother had died. She remembered only little things about her mother but one of the major things she remembered was the feeling of warmth and safeness that she had always felt with her mother. Now here she was all those years later feeling the same thing with Reid. She pulled away from the kiss and finally finished undoing Reid's pants. She pulled them off with Reid helping by lifting his hips so she could yank them down. They joined the pile of her clothes on the floor by the bookshelves. She leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on his chest and gently tugged on his plaid boxers. She looked up and met his eyes. She watched as he nodded slowly. She placed another gentle kiss on his chest and began to pull his boxers off.
Reid lifted his hips and let Tucker pull off his boxers. He looked away not wanting to see her face once he was naked. He knew that she would find him lacking in something. He felt her hand on his cheek and then her straddling his lap. He tensed a little when he felt her fingers brush his erection. He then felt her lips on his collar bone.
"Spence, look at me," she whispered softly in his ear.
"I, ah, I need a minute," Reid said clearing his throat.
"Spence, I don't find you lacking, baby. You can look at me."
Tucker waited. Reid turned and looked at her. She kissed him on the lips softly and gently stroked him. She knew she needed to go slow with him. She felt him gently stroke her breast and she smiled against his lips. She pulled away and gave him a smile of encouragement. She sucked in a breath when he leaned in and gently kissed her breast. She moaned when Reid flicked his tongue on her nipple. She raked her hands though his hair and muttered words of encouragement to him. He was surprising her a lot. He knew exactly how to touch her and she adored every moment of it.
Reid ran his hand down Tucker's stomach encouraged by her moans. He stopped when his fingers brushed her dark curls between her legs. He swallowed another lump in his throat. He closed his eyes when he felt Tucker stroke him again. He had never thought that anything could feel as good as her hands on him did at the moment. He then felt her hand take his and gently place it against her soft folds. He didn't know what to do next.
"Just touch me, Spence. Anyway you want," she whispered to him.
Tucker waited. She rested her forehead against Reid's shoulder when she felt his hand stroke her. She then felt his fingers softly part her folds and they brushed her clit. She dug her nails into his skin and moaned. Reid's finger then found its way inside of her. She leaned against him even more pressing her chest against his. Reid moved his finger in and out of her. He then stopped. She kissed him on the side of his neck.
"Did I... Was I doing that right?" he asked gently adding another finger inside of her.
"Hmmm, yes, Spence you were. Have you been reading some how to manuals?" she asked.
"No. Do you want me to continue?"
"Yes."
Reid began to move his fingers again in and out of Tucker. She was so warm and tight inside he couldn't imagine how it was going to feel to be completely inside of her. He felt her dig her nails into his shoulders and her soft voice urging to go faster. He listened to her and felt her press her skin against him more. He then felt her reach down and take his thumb and gently place it against her clit.
"Rub it," she whispered.
Tucker closed her eyes as Reid did as she asked. She breathed heavier as he stroked her. She could feel herself so close to coming. She felt her body tensing up and she came moaning Reid's name. She let her body fall against Reid's and she felt him pull his fingers out of her. She ran her hand down his chest and to his shaft. She looked at Reid when he took her hand before she could wrap it around his shaft.
"I want to be inside of you," he said kissing her shoulder.
"Are you sure? I was going to do for you what you did for me," she said.
"Maybe later. Right now I just want to be inside of you."
Reid saw Tucker nod. He wrapped his arms around her waist when she rested her knees on the bed on either side of him and placed her hands on his shoulders. She then reached down and gently took hold of his shaft. He watched as she lowered herself and he then felt himself sliding inside of her. He felt her heat surrounding him. All of him slid inside of her and she was against him her skin touching his everywhere. He felt her pulsing around his shaft and he closed his eyes for a moment. He had always had the problem with dealing with too much stimulus. He felt Tucker stroking his hair and he felt her lips on his neck again.
"I love the feel of you inside of me," she whispered to him.
"I have never felt anything like this before," Reid admitted.
"It just gets better, Spence."
Reid felt Tucker move against him and suddenly he was feeling a whole lot more things. His shaft moved inside of her and he suddenly felt pleasure. It was the most intense pleasure that he had ever felt before. He felt Tucker wrap her arms around his shoulders and by her moans he knew that she was enjoying herself as much as he was. He held her tight against him and ran his hand along her back. He still couldn't get over how soft her skin was. He kissed her hard on the lips feeling her begin to move faster against him.
Tucker kissed Reid back knowing that she would never regret this night and being with him like this. She regretted a lot of things in her life but this would never be one of them. She felt her body beginning to tense again. Reid's shaft hit her spot every time perfectly whenever she moved against him. She felt his fingers digging into her skin and she knew he was closer to coming as well. She moved even faster pulling away from Reid's kiss and resting her head on his shoulder.
Reid kissed down Tucker's neck and felt his body tensing. He held Tucker closer to him and he let go. He felt Tucker's body shudder against his as he released inside of her. He took slow breaths and held Tucker against him as he laid back down on the bed. He looked at Tucker when she lifted up her head and looked at him.
"As good as you thought it would be?" she asked placing a gentle kiss on his chest as she moved off of him. She missed him inside of her but she cuddled against his side smiling when Reid wrapped his arm around her and held her close.
"Better because it was with you," Reid answered truthfully.
Tucker closed her eyes and wrapped an arm around Reid, "Please tell me that this isn't a dream."
"It's not. You are here with me and you will always have me."
Reid held Tucker close and watched as she fell asleep. He knew that she needed to be reassured. He held her closer and promised himself that she was never going to leave his side. He was going to protect her and keep her safe from her father and anyone else that tried to hurt her.