Beyond Repair

By: Lesera128

Rated: M

Disclaimer: I own nothing. I am just playing in someone else's sandbox….

Summary: Secrets abound as Skye reluctantly returns to Australia at AJ's behest despite the fact its where her marriage to Jax ended in disaster the previous year. AU. Skye/Jax. SAX.

Author's Note: I am reposting some of the older works that I have saved on my harddrive. Old-time SAX fans may remember this story. It was originally posted under my other penname [MuseofJaynor] at the Skye messageboard fan fiction archive. Many people already know this, but in case you were wondering, yeah, that was me.

The water gently ran over Skye's entire body as she sat on the sand at the point where the waves were just edging up onto the shore. The warm sun felt wonderful on her body, and with the sea breeze flowing through her hair, Skye felt something she had not felt in a very long time. She felt free – unencumbered – peaceful – and, for a brief moment that made all those other feelings possible, forgetful.

However, it was shattered as a voice pierced the air, jerking Skye's attention to the rapidly approaching form of her sister-in-law.

"Skye!"

Skye was on her feet in a minute, adrenaline coursing through her body as Carly called out to her.

"Skye!" Carly called again.

Running to meet Carly halfway, Skye felt her heart skip a beat as she saw her frantic sister-in-law choking in air as she tried to gain enough composure to speak. "Carly? What is it? What's wrong? Is it the baby? Is Sydney okay?"

Carly's hand went to her throat as she rapidly sucked in air. At last she was able to spit out, "Syd-Sydney is fine."

"Then is it, A.J.?"

Carly shook her head.

"Then what? What's wrong, Carly? You are acting like you have seen a ghost," Skye said.

Carly swallowed once, deciding that beating around the bush would do Skye no good. She said quickly, "In a manner of speaking, I guess I have."

"What are you talking about, Carly?"

"It's Jax, Skye. He's here. And he knows about the baby."

Meanwhile, in another part of the Australian capital, Jax was steering his car towards the coast. His cell phone clasped in one hand, he dialed the only number he could think of in an attempt to get an answer.

"Yeah. It's me. Uh-huh. You'll never guess who I just saw. You don't sound very surprised. Why do I get the feeling that you asking me here was for more than a business deal? No, no. But I have a lot of questions I need answered. I didn't know who else to turn to. Where are you? I need to see you right now."

The voice on the other end of the line replied, "You know where I am. I bought the damn house from you."

"You're THERE?" Jax said in disbelief.

"Yeah. I'll be here waiting. Come to the kitchen when you get here."

"All right. I should be there in about twenty minutes." Jax said as he glanced at the car's clock.

"Fine, I'll be waiting."

With that, A.J. clicked the disconnect button on the cordless phone. Placing it back in the cradle, he then turned his gaze out the kitchen window to stare at the beach where the two most important women in his life were busy frantically trying to figure out what to do.

As Carly told Skye the story of the happenings in the post office, Skye felt her gorge rise in her. She hadn't felt this way since—

The scene flashed inside her mind. Laying on a medical table in one of the typical unpleasant medical gowns, Skye stared at the ceiling. Her hands were absentmindedly running up and down her still flat stomach as she waited for the test results.

A few more moments passed before an older male doctor came in. Skye sat up slowly as the doctor looked at her chart and then nodded. "Ms. Chandler?"

Skye nodded. "Yes, Dr. Radson?"

"We have your test results in."

"And?" Skye asked breathlessly.

"I suppose congratulations normally would be in order as you are correct. You're pregnant. About six weeks," he said with a frown.

Skye could sense his unease as she prodded, "But?"

He shook his head as she said, "But, you were also correct in your initial assessment. There are-"

Skye could barely move as he went over the findings with her, confirming her worst fears. She almost didn't tune back in until he had finished saying, "-]]and, so you have a choice to make. Of course, this is why your normal OB/GYN sent you to a specialist like me. It would be my recommendation to terminate the pregnancy. Of course, you are free to seek a second opinion, but whatever decision you make, you need to make it soon as time is of the essence."

Nodding, Skye clutched the gown close to her body. Feeling as if the breath had been kicked out of her, she didn't even notice as the doctor told her she could get dressed and leave when she was ready. He left quietly, and Skye couldn't help herself as she laid back on the table. Staring back up at the ceiling, her hands went back to her stomach. It was only when the door to the room was thrown open that Skye bolted upright and turned in shock to see a pair of all too familiar blue eyes staring at her.

"Jax!" Skye cried.

He barreled into the room. He eyed her up and down, "Skye. Please. Please tell me I am not too late."

"Late?" Skye asked in confusion.

Jax shook his head, "Please tell me you didn't do this."

"Do what?" Skye asked in general uncertainty. However, Jax took the uncertainty in her voice as nothing but an act.

"Give it up, Skye. There's no point in lying. I know, all right. I know," he told her.

"Know what exactly?" she asked evenly.

Jax pointed at her, "I know about the baby. I found the pregnancy test at home. I know you're pregnant, okay? Or, at least, you were before… before you came here."

Swallowing, Skye asked quietly, "What are you talking about, Jax?"

He looked around as he wildly gestured at the room. "Skye, please tell me you didn't do something both of us are going to regret. Please tell me you didn't come here and-"

She stared at him, the anger rising in her voice, "And do what exactly, Jax?"

He was silent for a moment, biting his lips before he spoke so low that Skye could barely hear him. "There is only one reason why pregnant women come to a Family Planning Clinic like this."

Immediately something clicked in Skye's brain. She blurted out the words as she stared at him, "You think I came here to have an abortion?"

"Why else would you be here?" Jax asked her. "I know your normal OB/GYN works as Sydney Memorial Hospital, Skye. I've taken you there enough times to get your checkups after the bone marrow transplant."

Skye looked away from Jax. She wasn't sure what to tell him. The truth? That she had come to the family planning clinic because the medical specialist who was the best in his field was working there on rotation, and this was the only time she could get him to look at her for the next three months? Or did she lie? Did she lie and let him believe the worst of her since that what was already in his mind as he thought their child was as good as dead anyway? And, moreover, he thought her capable of such an act.

Apparently, her silence was enough for Jax as she turned away from him. Anger spiked in Skye's chest as she realized that Jax probably wouldn't believe what she told him regardless of any explanation she gave. So, Skye decided to do what she did best. She acted our of anger, out of spite, and with a desire to punish Jax in retaliation for his unfair assessment of exactly what he believed her to be capable.

Jax felt his heart clench in his chest as she spoke at last.

"There is no baby, Jax. She's gone."

The wail of anguish that emanated from Jax's throat was much like the yell of a wounded animal caught in its death throes. "No. Please, god, no. Tell me you didn't, Skye. Please tell me you didn't kill our child," he said at last.

And then he realized Skye had said she. A baby girl. His daughter.

Skye shook her head, tears pooling in her eyes, but Skye refused to let them fall. "I did what I had to do, Jax. I did what I had to do. Now, please, just go."

Stumbling away, Jax stared at her like he was looking at a stranger. He backed away, out the door, and was gone before Skye realized what had happened. A new bout of sobs wrecked her body as she thought on what she had just done. It was over. There was no turning back now.

After a time, she dressed carefully, and then made her way to the one woman who could help her as a plan formulated in her mind.

That one woman had been Carly Corinthos. Just as she had helped Skye then, her sister-in-law was doing her best to help her now. Skye bit her lip for a few precious seconds before she nodded, "All right, then. First things first. We have to get Sydney out of here. And I can't stay either. We have to go before he finds out and all of our sacrifices become damned for nothing."

-TBC-