Beyond Repair

By: Lesera128

Rated: M

Disclaimer: I own nothing. I am just playing in someone else's sandbox….

Summary: Secrets abound as Skye reluctantly returns to Australia at AJ's behest despite the fact its where her marriage to Jax ended in disaster the previous year. AU. Skye/Jax. SAX.

Author's Note: I am reposting some of the older works that I have saved on my harddrive. Old-time SAX fans may remember this story. It was originally posted under my other penname [MuseofJaynor] at the Skye messageboard fan fiction archive. Many people already know this, but in case you were wondering, yeah, that was me. One additional thought – this chapter was the original ending of the initial version of "Beyond Repair." An unfinished sequel, called "Biding Time" followed the events of the story. However, because there really is no purpose to it, I have decided to incorporate the events of that story as additional chapters in this story, and finally, finish the tale. Just FYI. The remaining three chapters, thus, were originally of that story.

"How can I tell you that which I still don't know for sure myself. Uncertainty –hesitation - loyalties divided? For so long I have remained hidden, never living up to expectations. And now the time comes for a choice to be made, and I'm frightened. I still love you too much to admit it, despite everything you did or have not done.-"

Skye Chandler-Quartermaine put the pen down on her journal, a journal no longer perhaps, as she continued to write to both Jax and Sydney within its pages..

She had been in such a hurry to pack, under the added pressure of doing so in silence so as not to wake Jax, she had not realized her journal was still in her purse from her initial flight from Port Charles to Australia. Three days had passed. Just three. And her life had changed so much in the blink of an eye. Yet, despite everything that had happened, here she was just as she had begun her journey, playing with lines of poetry in her journal that mirrored the inner turmoil of her emotion. From the depths of her heart, from the one place where raw emotion flowed from her soul, pure and untouched, the words came.

Shaking slightly, Skye looked at the watch on her arm.

"Almost there," Skye whispered to herself. "Almost-"

She almost said home. But she didn't have a home there anymore. She was leaving her home to return to that place that had never, ever felt like a home to her. Not that she considered Australia a home, but Jax and Sydney. They were her home, and since they were not where she was going, that place was not her home.

Words were echoing through her mind as she recalled the phone call that had sent her on her way….

*"You have to come, Skye. I know you never wanted to come back here again, but he's too weak to come to you. He needs you. He doesn't have much time left, and he's asking for you. Please. Please say you'll come before it's too late..."*

Reaching down, Skye clutched the pearl she was still wearing around her neck. Once again, it was the sole reminder of Jax that she had brought with her.

"Jax, I promise. I still love you. No matter what. I still love you. And I didn't run. I swear, I am not running. I swear. My hand was forced. What else could I honestly do?" Skye muttered to herself as she continued to shake.

The image of him sleeping brought her solace. Watching Jax sleep, Skye had realized that it was finally done. She had tried her damnedest to destroy everything that lay between them. That one pure thing in her life that had once been such a gift, had been shattered into a million pieces. And Jax was right even though he had never said as much. Skye had done it all. Skye had done it willingly. She admitted that. What they had had before was beyond repair.

But, last night, in his arms they had swept away all that lay broken between them and begun to build something new, something better only to have the foundation snatched away from Skye with the ring of a telephone.

One final thud told her the plane had landed.

"And so it begins," Skye said softly as she unclasped her seat belt, and exited the plane.

-TBC-