Tucker sat on Reid's couch and looked down at her bags at her feet. She knew that Reid would hate her but after spending three weeks with him she knew she needed more help than his love could ever give her. She hated how he had become more like her therapist than her lover. Most of all she hated how now every time she thought of her mother she thought about the fact that her mother was also her aunt. It made her sick and as much as she knew Reid wanted to help her, she couldn't let him do that. She needed to help herself this time. She needed to make herself stronger on her own. She turned when the door opened and Reid walked back into the apartment tossing his bag aside. He stopped when he saw her and her things sitting there. He stood there and just looked at her.

"Tucker," he started, "what are you doing?" he asked.

"I am leaving, Spence," she whispered softly.

"What? Why?"

Reid was confused. He watched as Tucker stood up and winced a little. He hated that she was still in pain but he had to admit that he had seen the signs before that she was not comfortable around him anymore. Something had changed up in her father's killing cottage. Something had changed for them and Reid knew that he had lost her. He watched as she walked over to him and hugged him close. He placed a hand on her back and rubbed it still not understanding partly why she had to leave him.

"You know why, Spencer. I love you but I need to talk about what I did and what happened to me. And as much as I love you, I can't do it with you. My father has hurt you enough and I won't let him hurt you more. I need to do this alone. I need to heal myself if we will ever have a chance at a happily ever after," she told him pulling away.

"Happily ever after is a myth; it isn't real."

Tucker sighed, "I think it is, Spence. I think it's real and I want you to find it. With or without me."

"Tucker-."

Tucker covered his mouth with her hand. She looked at him tears falling, "I want to tell you something that you probably don't know, Spencer. When someone's heart breaks, it never breaks even. And I know you'll come to hate me, but I want you to know that right now I may be breaking your heart, but I'm breaking mine too."

"The heart cannot break. It is-."

Reid kissed Tucker back when she kissed him hard on the mouth. He knew that he hadn't fooled her with his nervous speaking. She knew him and she knew that he was just trying to prolong her from leaving. He let her go when she pulled away. He watched as she grabbed her bag and took one last look at him. He took a long look at her as well and wondered if he was ever going to see her again. He moved and let her walk out the door. He heard it close softly and then he stood there and waited.

He didn't know how long he stood there and waited to see if she would come back. He jumped a little when he heard a knock on the door. He turned and looked at it and wondered if it was her coming back. That was when he realized that hours had passed and she was gone. He had lost Tucker. He walked over to the door and opened it. He smiled slightly when he saw Morgan, Garcia and JJ standing there. Morgan held a bottle of tequila in his hands and Garcia held a bottle of something else.

"Tucker called you," he said softly.

"Maybe. Are you going to let us in?" Morgan asked looking at him.

Reid moved and let them in. He shut the door and sighed. She was gone and he was going to have to learn how to adjust without her. He walked over to the couch and smiled when Garcia sat beside him and wrapped an arm around his shoulders. She gave him a soft smile and he was grateful that he had friends like them. He was also grateful that Tucker had called them. She had known he would never call them or tell them himself what had happened.

"I can find her and get her back," Garcia told him.

"No."

"Reid-."

"No, Garcia. She needs to be gone and heal on her own. Making her stay isn't going to do anyone any good."

"She told me she was going back to New York. Something about having to erase her bad memories," JJ said softly seeing had sad Reid looked. She wanted to hate Tucker for doing that to him but she just couldn't. Tucker loving Reid had changed him and JJ knew that it was for the better.

"I thought she would go back there but... I need to give her time to herself."

"I can still find her," Garcia said.

"Baby girl, let it go," Morgan said walking over with a tray of drinks. Reid looked at the tray and wondered where that had come from. He then let it go because he knew that Tucker had probably gotten it for him.

"I can't let it go. Reid needs his wonder girl to match his wonder boyness."

Reid looked at Garcia confused, "Are you saying I'm not as wonderful as I was before? That I need Tucker to make me wonderful?"

"Oh, I think someone is looking for a compliment," Morgan laughed.

"No, just an answer to my question."

Garcia shook her head. She smacked Reid gently on the back of the head and took a sip of her drink. She would let Reid tell her no but she had other ideas. The minute she went into work the next day she was going hack her way into finding where Tucker was and everything about what she was doing. She would find Tucker McLean and keep an eye on her. Reid loved Tucker and that was enough to make Tucker part of Garcia's little family. And Garcia protected her family with everything she could.

Tucker wiped the tears from her eyes but more fell anyway. She turned and looked out the window at the scenery passing by as the train moved. She didn't see any of it though as her tears blurred her version. She rested her head on the back of the seat and closed her eyes.

She kept telling herself that she had done the right thing. Leaving Reid hurt but in the long run if she had stayed she would have ended up hurting him more that she ever wanted too. She hugged herself and wished that there was another way but there wasn't. She had already brought pain into Reid's life the last thing she wanted was to bring more in by telling him all the things she was feeling and thinking. He deserved to be loved and find someone who was going to love him as well. She let more tears fall knowing that she was taking a huge chance. There was the chance that when she was ready to go back and love him that he wouldn't want her. There was the chance that he might move on with someone else.

She opened her eyes and wiped away her tears pulling her legs up and trying to make herself as small as possible in the seat. She noticed an old lady watching her and she buried her face against the fabric of the seat and tried to will her tears to stop. She told herself again that she had done what she needed to and she wasn't going to go back to Reid. If he found someone else to love and who loved him she wouldn't stand in the way of that. At the moment she needed to try and focus on getting herself help and getting better. Although, she knew that no matter what happened Reid would never be far from her thoughts. She would always love him and it was killing her to have to walk away from him. She let out a small sob no longer caring if anyone heard her. She needed to let out her pain of walking away from Reid. She told herself when morning came she would push aside the hurt and focus on herself. In the dead of night though on the train, she would cry for her lost love.