Another month had passed and being with Dean was like being a drug addict who was constantly going through withdrawal. He'd stay for a couple of days and then leave for a week. Then he'd stay for an entire week but then leave for the next two weeks. It was driving me insane but I was completely crazy about him. I wasn't about to give up on us.

"Good morning, Laura," I greeted as I entered the patient's room. Laura had just had scoliosis surgery and I was doing her post-op. She was recovering now and I had kind of made friends with her.

"Hey. Oh you look cute with the little bumble bee headband!" she said.

"Thank you. Happy Halloween," I said back.

"You too. Hey, is that hot boyfriend of yours around? I mean, he's just really nice to look at," Laura said

I chuckled, "He should be coming back tonight."

"The sex must be amazing," she said. Then there was silence as if she was excepting me to say something in response to that.

"Oh! Uh, I probably shouldn't be telling you about that," I started.

"Please, I'm a poor college student who just had scoliosis surgery. Look at me!" she said, giving me her best puppy dog face. Damn those surgery patients. They just looked so sad and defenseless and all you wanted to do was give them what they wanted.

"Yes, it is," I said, awkwardly.

"I knew it! He just looks like he'd be good in bed," she said.

"Anyways, so how are you feeling today?" I asked, changing the subject.

"I actually feel great," she replied.

"Great. Nurse Thomas will be in to take you to PT and if you need anything just page!" I said, before leaving the room.

"Ah, Dr. Montgomery, just who I was looking for," I heard a voice said.

I turned around to see Dr. Stevens following behind me, "Hi Dr. Stevens. May I help you?"

"Montgomery, I'm not quite sure I can take you seriously when you're wearing that… headband," Dr. Stevens laughed, shaking his head.

I blushed, "Right. It's uh, it's a bumble bee headband. You know, because I'm a bumble bee okay I'm just going to stop trying this Halloween thing. You were saying?" Dr. Stevens chuckled at my response.

"I finally heard back from the program," Dr. Stevens said.

"And?" I asked eagerly.

"And they replied to me that… they were very interested in taking you to South America with them. You'd be practicing medicine in a small rural village in a jungle in Peru," Dr. Stevens informed. My eyes widened.

"Yeah, that'd be, wow, amazing," I said in awe. I knew it didn't sound like a dream job, but to me, it was. I'd be able to help so many people that wouldn't usually have that opportunity. Plus I'm sure we'd go into Lima, the capital, at some points.

"They could use you as soon as possible," Dr. Stevens replied.

"When's that?" I asked.

"Well the deadline is by this Sunday," he replied.

"This Sunday?" I asked, stunned.

"Well, yes," Dr. Stevens replied.

"But that's in four days! How am I supposed to pack and arrange flights and all of that?" I asked, surprised.

"It's the jungle, Montgomery. You don't need much there," he said back.

I nodded, "Right. Thank you so much for submitting me, sir. It means a lot to me."

"You were the best for the job. You'd be trying it out for a year and then see where it took you," Dr. Stevens informed.

And that's when I thought about Dean. What would happen between Dean and I if I took this? Obviously there'd be no means of communication. And being away from him killed me even just for a week. I sighed.

"I'll think about, sir," I replied, finally.

"Think hard about this, Montgomery. This is an opportunity that you can't pass up," he said. I nodded. He was right but why was there this nagging feeling that I just couldn't do it.

That night, my roommates and I had decided to stay in and watch scary movies. Katie would run to the door and give kids candy though. That is, until she got way too tired of getting up every five seconds so we put a sign in the bowl that said 'take one or two'. Katie was with Bradley, Alex was with Olivia, and there was just this sense of collectivity. I loved it. These were my friends. This was my life. How was I just supposed to up and go to the middle of a South American jungle? But how was I supposed to say when I knew I could help so much more there? I didn't even want to think about anymore but unfortunately it was one of those things that you still thought about, no matter how hard you tried to clear your head. The sudden knock at the door pulled me from my thoughts.

"Damn children!" Katie groaned.

"Now I thought you loved children," I teased.

"Not anymore," she said.

"I'll get it," I chuckled, going over to the door. I opened in and instead of seeing small child dressed up as something, there were two grown men at my doorstep.

"Trick or treat?" Dean asked.

I smiled, "I missed you." Dean smiled back at me and then pulled me into a long and romantic kiss. I pulled away to greet Sam.

"Hey, we're watching scary movies. I'm sure that's probably not something you guys are into but uh, come in," I greeted.

"No it's fine. You know, I don't think I've actually watched those in a while," Sam said.

"Well I always have a spare copy of the Great Gatsby if you want it," I said back.

Sam chuckled, "Thanks Jennie."

The two men stepped in and Sam went into the living room and sat down on the couch with my other friends. Dean and I remained in the hallway which lay between the front door and the stairs to the second story.

"So…" I started.

"So, I'm not much for scary movies," Dean started.

"And all my roommates are down here and we have lots of time to make up for," I continued.

"And I really need to take a shower," Dean hinted.

I smirked and then kissed Dean, "As long as we're quiet."

"You may have a hard time with that," Dean said.

"Oh don't get too full of yourself," I said back.

"Just you wait. You'll see," Dean said.

I giggled and then grabbed his hand. The two of us laughed before going up the stairs and practically ripping each others' clothes off. Dean carried me into the bathroom, my legs wrapped around his waist. He put me down, as the two of us stepped into the shower. We could barely keep our hands off of each other. Dean lifted me up, pressing my back against the wall and forcing my legs to once again find their place around his waist. He kissed my neck, forcing me to throw my head back. I was his. He had me so hooked that it was ridiculous how hooked I was. The hot water beat down against our backs as we made love.

"Dean," I moaned, letting out a sigh of pleasure.

"Fuck," he whispered as the two of us finished. I breathed heavily.

"That was… great," I whispered back, trying to catch my breath. For the time being, I had completely forgotten about South America but the minute we stopped, all of the thoughts came flooding back to me. How was I supposed to do this to Dean? And then out of the blue, this happened:

"I love you," Dean murmured. I just breathed. I had no idea what to say. I did love him but how was I supposed to say that to him and then leave for a foreign country where I'd have little to no means of communication.

"Did you hear me?" he asked.

I nodded, "Yeah. I love you too."

Shit. I was so fucked.