Thank you for the well wishes on my vacation, Huddies. It's my last day here so I am able to write this one. Okay, this is the events that followed House and Cuddy's conversation. Please prepare yourselves. I'm not gonna be responsible for the "heartaches" that I may cause here.

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CHAPTER 14 – MY LOVE

After their conversation, both doctors went to hide in the four walls of their own rooms. Both were busy with their own conflicting thoughts as to how they are gonna make the other understand their own points.

For Cuddy's part, she was trying to contemplate whether or not, she's gonna tell the father of her child that they now shared a tiny person that will forever bind them together whether or not they will be able to fix this whatever it is that they have now. Is it the right thing to do? To just tell House that they now have a son and see how he will react to this fact? Will she be able to take it if House will still reject her even after informing him about their baby? Will House change his mind if he'll hear about Aaron? Will he decide to be just a father to their child but not be back with her as a couple? Will she even accept that arrangement if it comes to that?

In the first place, how is she gonna approach this sensitive subject to the Master of Deflections if Cuddy herself is doubting if she'll gonna have that courage to open up the issue? How is she gonna finally tell him that she not only wants him to be back but also now, they have to face the issue of being parents of their son? Is it really gonna be for the best interests of Aaron that House should be aware of his existence and later on, wait for the Diagnostician to decide how are they gonna proceed now? How about Rachel? Cuddy knows Rachel will have no problem of having House back since her daughter was really attached to this man even after all these months of not being in his presence. And how about her mom, Arlene and sister, Julia? How are they gonna react after House will decide to go back with her at Princeton and just be a father to their son but not in a relationship with her?

How about this baby Chris now? Through Nana Sela, Cuddy was able to know the name of this baby. So, how about him? If House will agree to go back with her in Princeton, is she really willing to have this baby with them and be part of her "family"? Will it be better for all of them; for Rachel, their own son, Aaron, for House? Can she honestly say that she can treat this baby equally and love him too just as much as she loves Rachel and her son?

So many conflicting thoughts running in her mind that the Dean of Medicine wasn't even sure if she can actually come up with possible solutions on time before her flight tomorrow morning. She just knew that whatever she decides now, it will forever have an impact not only to her and House but to Rachel, their son Aaron and this baby Chris. She needs to weigh the pros and cons here because everyone will really be affected one way or the other by her decisions here and she knows that she'll be held responsible as to whatever they may be.

Taking a deep breath, Lisa Cuddy once again closed her eyes and uttered a silent prayer to whoever it is that is listening that she will find it in the depths of her heart to come up with the best decision that will take into consideration everyone that she cares for. The impact is surely gonna affect their lives forever and so, she should better come up with the better solution if not the best one. She can't afford to lose her man after all the distance she went to travel just to see him and make him understand that she's nothing without him by her side, that more than ever, she needs him, that they need him.

On the other hand, the great Dr. Gregory House finds himself once again staring at his ceiling after his so-called conversation with one Lisa Cuddy. He can't explain it but until now, even after an hour of their talk, his heart is still beating not on its regular rhythm. It's as if, it decided to be stubborn too like the man who is now frowning with all these conflicting thoughts going on in his ever active brain.

It's becoming more and more difficult to ignore knowing that the object of his confusion is just a few feet away from him. In fact, the only 2 things that separated them is the door leading to their rooms and their stubborn pride. Both doctors knew that they can't live without each other yet there are too many at stake here. They tried and God knows how much they both tried to defy fate when they decided to give them a try. But, in the end, since both parties are individuals with their own flaws and irrational fears, they gave up and decided to go on their own ways.

In the end, they also both realized that when they decided to be blinded by their actual feelings and listen to the nagging thoughts between them, both became more miserable as ever. No one knows as to how much they are affected by their clumsy decision to let go of each other but themselves. Both longed to be with each other's presence even if just to catch a short glance and glimpses of each other rather than to have a full-time access to each other if they continued to hold-on on being a couple.

It hurts to think all those missed chances and opportunities they could have shared or they could still be sharing until now if they just didn't succumbed to the pressure and challenges of society upon them and their stupid and irrational fears. So many what if scenarios could have been prevented them from being far from each other and yet, they only begin to realize this after they were "separated" by millions of miles, not only by physical distance but their emotional feelings as well.

On House's part, he couldn't blame the nagging thought at the back of his mind that all of these is really his own doing when he decided to surrender to the tempting call of the evil pills. During the time that Cuddy needed him the most, as expected he failed her. He failed to protect his woman from her fears of possibly having to be gone into this world. He failed big time to be by her side to hold her hand and comfort her with his presence if not by his reassurances that everything will be okay.

Right from the start, he knows that he can't never be the man that Cuddy needs and deserves but when she came to him that night at his apartment, during his lowest moments, he was blinded by her love towards him and so, he failed to recognize that there will come a time that this amazing woman will also need him in return.

And so, one painful mistake led them to where they are now, still emotionally attached to each other even if they are physically separated by distance and yet, that invincible thread bond between them couldn't be denied.

Can they actually make it this second or rather umpteenth time around? If Cuddy is here and did travel the million miles distance between them, does that mean that she is now willing to take another chance with him even after knowing all his flaws and how big of a screwed up man he is? Does this also mean that he is now ready to once again give her a chance to possibly hurt him again when the ever fearless Dean of Medicine might come to her senses after all this time that he isn't the man she needs? Will it ever be different this time around? How confident is he that this time around, Cuddy won't give up on him after he'll gonna commit the same mistake again?

God knows how much he's gonna try his very hardest to avoid making those again. He knows the repercussions it may cause them if that will be the case and so, he's going to do everything that is within him to prevent that from happening. House also has to consider Rachel. Will it really be better for the kid if he'll come back into their lives again? He knew that the kid was really attached to him already just as much as she is to him. He truly does miss her and all those bonding moments they had together. And how about this new baby? Can Cuddy actually find it in her heart to accept this baby knowing that this isn't sharing another blood relation to her? He knows right from the first moment he saw Cuddy holding the baby that they won't have any problem on that issue but is that really the case? What if Cuddy will request him to leave the baby in the end? Can he actually do that just to be with her and Rachel once again? How about his Nana Sela? House knows that he can't leave the older woman here in this country. She's all alone now and both him and the baby needs her in their lives. Will Cuddy be alright with her presence, too? Both women seem to have bonded already and seem to like each other but will it continue to be that way if they will be staying under the same roof?

There are so many things and matters that need to be considered first before he and Cuddy can actually be a couple once again. They need, first and foremost to learn to open up with each other so they can discuss all these vital issues at hand. It will be difficult but if they really want this, they have to.

Taking a deep breath, the Diagnostician decided that first thing in the morning, he's gonna approach Cuddy and try once again to have a serious conversation with her. They need to. No, they have to. He needs to make his woman understand that in being with him again, they need to talk things more and that she might be surrendering herself once more to the pain and misery that only Greg House is capable of having.

At 7 in the evening, Nana Sela decided to pay a visit to both doctors in their rooms to invite them to join her for dinner but as expected, both refused to do so. The older woman doesn't know what happened to their conversation that afternoon but knowing how stubborn both individuals can be, she decided to give them the time they need. Afterall, she really thinks that left with their own thoughts, both parties will soon come up with their decisions. She just hopes that it will the right one for both of them.

Around 9pm, Gregory House was on his way to the kitchen when he felt his stomach complaining for the lack of food. He didn't take his lunch before his talk with Cuddy and then, afterwards he also didn't take his dinner.

On his way back to his room after 20 minutes of being in the kitchen to take care of his physical hunger, he couldn't explain it to his ever irrational mind why his feet might have their own mind when he finds himself in front of Cuddy's room. He stared at the closed door for about 5 minutes before he was able to convince himself that he was only visiting the baby and not the lovely woman inside.

Slowly opening the door, his heart immediately betrayed him when instead of focusing on the little baby on its crib, his blue eyes directly went to the direction where he knows his amazing woman was peacefully sleeping.

Guided by the light coming from the moon entering the windows, the Diagnostician with his heart beating faster now, went to approach the angel lying on the bed. God, she looks like a true goddess with her eyes closed like that. He notices her long eyes lashes, her cute nose and her ever tempting lips that is slightly parted while asleep. He never admitted it to her during all those months that they were together that he finds her very adorable when he silently observes her in her sleep on that position. Most of the times during those nights when his leg was hurting, he will wake up in the middle of the night and will just observe her on her peace. He will most definitely not admit it to her that watching her in her peaceful slumber also gives him that sense of contentment within him and eventually before he finds himself succumbed to sleep again, he will lean down on her and rub his nose on hers, too and as always, he can't help that magnetic pull towards him and eventually he finds himself placing a soft kiss on her luscious pouting lips.

Seeing her once again on that exact same tempting position after all these months, Gregory House didn't realize it until he finds himself sitting on the bed with her face facing towards him. With the moonlight casting her face, the Diagnostician finds himself tracing her lovely features with his eyes. He wanted to once again be captivated with her charms without her realizing it.

And of course, he wasn't able to stop himself from leaning down on her and rubs his nose to that of Cuddy's which soon follows the very first thing he wanted to do to her when he saw her last night outside their front door. House places a soft gentle kiss on her lips and if before he only does let it linger for like 5 seconds, now he wasn't able to pull himself away and let it linger there longer than he anticipated. He didn't move away from her until he heard the lovely woman in front of him make a noise.

Lisa Cuddy as if being hummed on her dreams let out a contented little moan from her lips. In the brick of semi-consciousness, her heart was able to recognize the presence of her man near her.

The Diagnostician instantly pulled away when he heard that tiny noise from Cuddy and then, he saw her stirred from her sleep to move a little from her previous position. He was about to stand up and leave her once again when he heard his name from her ever luscious lips. "House….no, please…."

House was left with no choice but just to stare at her when she once again talk in her sleep, "Please, no. No, come back, House, please..…"Tears were beginning to form in her still closed eyes and she was becoming more and more restless as she continued to shake her head. Feeling his heart react on his own volition, House went to lift his right hand towards the woman's face and felt her smooth skin on his palms. He tried to get her attention by softly whispering soothing words but she seems not to be hearing him at all.

Before he can stop himself, he went to lie down besides her and enveloped her in his embrace. Now, facing her, he observed that as soon as he placed both his arms around Cuddy, she quietly calm down as if finally recognizing his presence. He was more than amazed to see that she stopped her restless movements and now, their faces are only 3 inches apart. He stared at her natural beauty and immediately his nostrils captured that unique scent of hers.

House felt his heart stopped beating when Cuddy went to bury her face on his neck as if seeking for his warmth more. He also felt her take a deep breath as if breathing him in, too. He finds it adorable and his heart overjoyed with happiness that after all these painful months of being away from each other, they are once again back into each other's arms.

And then, before he felt himself closed his eyes to also surrender to the call of sleep, he softly whispered to her, "I'm struggling between loving you and trying to hate you. But, I love you too much to even try to hate you." Placing another gentle kiss on his woman's forehead, he finally went to morphus state, too.

By 3am, when Cuddy went to move to the opposite side in her sleep, she finds out that she couldn't do so. Opening her eyes, even before her confused mind can make sense of the restricted position that she was in, her heart already began to beat faster when it recognizes that sense of security she always felt when locked in House's embrace. Then, her nostrils also recognizes her man's unique scent that she actually thought that she was just once again dreaming and if she is, she silently wished that it will last longer.

But, this time around, this felt so real and hearing his steady breathing reaching her ears, her heart flutter more when she finally knew that this was indeed real and not just a pigment of her imagination. House, her lover is indeed in bed with her. And though, she couldn't stop herself from thinking that she'll obviously prefer to have him in bed figuratively, too, she wouldn't trade this lovely situation that she is in now with anything else.

Lisa Cuddy finds herself smiling when out of nowhere, after all these months of missing him and his snores, she once again heard that cute sound from him, the great Gregory House snores in his sleep. And then, her overjoyed thoughts also registered his protective arms around her. She felt his firm grip on her when she tried to move a bit. His other hand is on her hips while even in his sleep, as always the Diagnostician couldn't hide his fascination on one of his favorite parts of her anatomy, the other one is on top of her behind.

When she tried to look up at him since her head was buried on his neck, she felt him stirred a bit on his sleep and then, his grip tightened around her as if afraid of losing her from his embrace. Her smile was now in full bloom when she once again buried her face on his neck, she felt him let go a sigh of relief in his sleep. And then, Cuddy whispered to him, "I missed you."

After 5 minutes, the Dean of Medicine still with a big smile on her face, once again succumbed to sleep knowing that finally she was back into the safety arms of her man.

When the digital clock on top of the small table near the bed strike that it's now 6am in the morning, both doctors were already wide awake but just pretending to be still asleep when no one dared to open their eyes yet knowing how awkward it will be for them after finding themselves in this compromising position. Each holding their breathes, they layed still on the bed still locked into an eternal embrace and just breathing in each other's scent. Even if they won't admit it even to themselves, they are both enjoying this and wouldn't want to end this soon. And so, they continued to pretend that they are still not yet aware that both are now fully awake by just staying still.

Out of nowhere, both doctors were brought out of their pretense when they heard their Nana Sela's voice coming nearer into the room. "Lisa, dear. Are you now up?"

Almost instantly, both doctors went to open their eyes and brought a distance between their interlocked bodies. But, that feeling of contentment from being back into each other's arms stayed when both refused to let go of their death grip embrace.

Avoiding each other's gazes when they heard that the older woman is now about to open the door, Cuddy being the active one went to sit up and slowly but regretfully started to pull out her arms around her man while House also went to give her his back.

Still not looking into each other's eyes, Cuddy went to stand up to be on her way to the bathroom when the door suddenly burst open and they heard the surprised Oh of Nana Sela.

Then, both doctors went to explain themselves to the shocked expression of the older woman at the same time with the same phrases. "Ahmm, we were just…." They started to say when both were also cut off by Nana Sela's teasing tone.

"I'll be right back." With that, both doctors just stared back at the older woman's retreating back and then, her form vanished when the door closes.

Cuddy still surprised by the older woman's discovery now stood up and was about to move to go to the bathroom, heard the Diagnostician say in a firm voice, "We need to talk."

There you go. Sorry, this is not yet the second part of their conversation. It will be on the next chapter and promise, you will rejoice after.

I will be back tomorrow but will immediately report to work so next chapter will be up in 2 days. Share me your thoughts on the reviews.

Thank you for reading,

Helen