I OWN ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...

Whoever said that sisters were supposed to be best of friends was full of crap, but then again I had nothing to really base the dynamics of sisterly love and bonding other than my dysfunctional relationship with my sister. Maybe once upon a time we had that sisterly love mention in books and on TV however that ship has long sailed. At times I do wish I could have some portions of my sister back. I missed the Rosalie who use to clean my cuts and bruises due to my clumsiness and the one that called me her 'Tumblina.'

Things at home were still stressful as ever, I now had extra duties I had taken on the role of being Rosalie's "unofficial" personal assistant. I complained to mom plenty of times how it was unfair that I had to sacrifice much on my personal life for Rosalie. Mom though always made me feel absolutely guilty by saying "Bella, I'm truly disappointed in you. We're a family and family always helps each other out no matter what. If your father was still alive he'll be so disappointed in the selfish person you've become."

Slap…

Now it wasn't actually an actually slap but her words did feel like a slap to the face and her mention of my father always reminded me of my promise 'to take care of them.' At times as the years went on I wanted to hate my father for making me keep that promise. What about me dangit didn't I need someone to take care of me too? Did I not need a mother's love too? And it was during these times that I chastised myself and thought perhaps she is right. Just maybe I am being a bit selfish and maybe it truly is my fault my relationship with my sister is the way that it is. Could it be possible that I was the bitter one?

It was with those thoughts in mind that I would put aside my petty differences and help out my sister no matter what. During school breaks mom would travel with her which meant I had to follow as well. It was also during these trips that I would get a glimpse of my sister every now and then. On stressful days on location or during photo-shoots she would just curl up in bed and cry. It was during these nights that the our roles would be reverse, If anyone ever say me comforting her one would assume that I was the eldest sister taking care of her kid sister. I would crawl into the bed soothing her till she fell asleep. I never questioned why she was crying and for some reason her tears always broke my heart.

There were other times where she would be the one to seek out my comfort. I remember times I would wake up in the middle of the night to find Rosalie asleep in my bed curled up into me with her arms wrapped around me and it was in those moments I had hope that just maybe my relationship with my sister was about to change for he better.

However just as quickly as those moments came Rosalie would be back to her normally bitchy self and I found myself questioning did I make up the moments I thought we had. It was like our secret bond in a weird demented kind a way I guess because no matter how cold Rosalie treated me I allowed her to seek the comfort out in me at night whenever she had trouble seek. Up until the day she betrayed my trust that is.

It all started with a stupid magazine spread in none other than Maxim were my sister made the top ten of the Maxim's sexiest woman list; and at the age of 19 years old. Inserts fingers down throat now. Talk about ego's getting big. This honor just made her even more of a conceit bitch. It wasn't any of this that made me mad through. No it was the course of events that happened afterwards that started my pull to the darkness and lack of trust.

Jake and I have been dating for 2 years now. The joys of first love, so young and naive...

It was a routine of our once I took care of things at home I would meet him down at First Beach or either in his garage to help work on his Rabbit, actually observe more than help. Rosalie and Mom were in Settle so I just ended up going straight to Jake's place.

I greeted his mom and dad once I arrived and the told me he was out back. I grabbed a few cookies and decided to walk out back however the sight I was greeted too was one that had me seeing red. As I opened the garage door I saw Jacob sitting on a crate with his head raised towards the ceiling, his hand working his member and a magazine in his other hand "WHAT THE..." was all I managed to get out as his eyes snapped towards me and he attempted to hid the magazine. However it was already too late I already saw enough of the magazine to know he was getting off to images of my sister.

"Give me a break not you too!" I shouted as Jake scramble to pull his pants back up.

"Babe" he started "It's..." But I stopped him with a vicious glare "If you dare finish that sentence by saying it's not what it looks like I'll castrate you Jacob Black"

"For crying out loud that's MY SISTER," I shouted throwing my hands up in the air as I started pacing

Jacob grabbed me by my shoulders stopping me mid pace pleading with me to listen. "I so sorry Bells, I know how a sour subject your sister is to you and I didn't mean to intentionally hurt you. I assure you I'm not at the least attracted to Rosalie."

I raised my eyebrow at him stating, "You forgot what I just walked in on?"

He rose my chin looking me in the eyes was so much sincerity as he spoke "I'm a hormonal 17 year old boy that tends to masturbates a lot. I'm not pressuring and I get that you want to wait so I respect that, but please note I am going to masturbate from time to time "

"But Rosalie?" I whined

"She's not the only female in that issue," He stated

He had a point that issue had over a hundred different women in it but some part of me just knew it had to be Rosalie he was getting off to.

"Am I forgiven?" He ask with sad eyes

I just nodded my heard not able to speak because I knew if I opened my mouth the doubt would break through my words. He kissed me lightly on the lips before excusing himself to go and cleaning himself up. I stood still looking in the corner towards the discarded magazine and shuddered.

That night after hanging out with Jake some I came home and was glad to see mom and Rosalie hadn't returned home yet. As I was writing in my diary I could help but to wonder if Jake was truly telling truth but my mind always went to the fact of how many boys didn't dream of the opportunity to be with Rosalie Hale especially one that lived near her or knew her. Anyone boy that said they didn't find my sister attractive or got a stiff one from looking at her I swore they had to gay. For crying out loud she was 6"0, with pale porcelain skin that seem to glimmering in sunlight, she had a very breathtaking smile that was only enhance by her full lips and pearly with teeth. Her eyes had the strangest hazel and blue tint to them. She has bouncy blonde ringlets that sit past her shoulders and let's not even get into her figure, which was a 36"-26"-36". In other words my sister was like your real life freakin' Barbie.

See I do not have all hateful things to say about my sister. She's the most beautiful person I've ever met on the outside on the inside that's a different friggin' story.

I paled in comparison to my sister. Like her I too had pale porcelain skin but were hers glimmered in the sunlight mines well made me look just plain and dull. I was only 5"7 wore braces, has boring brown eyes and was still apparently growing into my body.

Anyways...

I had eventually decided to put the incident behind me and as time went on I always texted Jake informing him I was on my way. I never wanted to walk in on a sight like that again if I could prevent it.

Things with Rosalie started picking up again and my life became busier so eventually my trips down to The Res became fewer and fewer, however though Jake just started coming by my house more and more which made me happier. It was around this time I started noticing a change in Rosalie's behavior towards Jake.

She started being nicer around him and his attitude towards her pleasant as well too. I shrugged it off for awhile however this new bond of sorts between them was unsettling.

I came home from school one day to see Rosalie out back working on her cherry red BMW M3. That car is another example of our life. When she was 16 yrs old mom got her a cherry red BMW M3. When I turned 16 mom got me a beat-up dusty red Chevy pickup truck. Just like myself my car paled in comparison to Rosalie. Back to topic on hand though...

It was normal to see Rosalie out back working on her car whenever she had down-time so I paid it no special attention as I gathered my stuff to go inside the house. As I was about to close the front door I came to an abrupt halt when I heard a voice that didn't belong in my backyard. I drop my things in the doorway and went back out the door towards the back of the house.

"What's going on here?" I stated not really directing my question at anyone

Rosalie just smiled at me and went back to what she was doing as if I didn't even say anything. Jake slide out from under her car and walked over towards me giving me a light kiss on the lips carefully making sure not to touch me since his hands and clothes were greasy before proceeding to answer my question. "I was help Rose out with her car." He stated like it was the most obvious reason in the world. I looked over towards Rosalie's direction and then turn to look behind me knowing I didn't see his bike in the driveway. "How did you get here?" I questioned

"Oh Rose called me and came to pick me up we figured once you got home that you'll just drop me off later." I just nodded my head taking this all in and it most definitely didn't escape my notice that he called her Rose not once but twice.

"I'm gonna go and start dinner" I stated as I slowly backed away

In the kitchen as I started to prepare dinner I overheard the conversation happening outside.

"I hope I didn't get you into any trouble with my sister Jake" Rosalie asked

"Nah Bella and I are good" Jake paused before continuing "You know it wouldn't be an issue if you weren't such a bitch to her all the time though. She's always there for you guys so some acknowledgement every now and then should be nice. She had to grow up so fast..." But Rosalie cut him off...

"You don't think I know she had to grow up fast pup?" Rosalie sneered. "I'm hard on her because if I wasn't then who would prepare her for the harshness of the world. Bella needs to have tough skin. Yes she's made lots of sacrifices at a young age but it's because of those sacrifices that's going to make her a better person. Better than you, me and this whole damn town." She said softly almost at a whisper.

"If you feel that way about then show her you actually care about her"

"You think I don't show her I?" She questioned. I did not her Jake respond but one could only assume he shook his head no because she continued speaking.

"Jake, I make 500K from modeling, damn near a mil from royalties and syndication from the TV show I was on, and not to mention the movie roles that are now on my plate that range from 2-3 million."

"ummmm... that's nice and all that you make all that kind of money Rose but how exactly does that show you care about her?" My sentiments exactly I thought and why was Rosalie discuss her finances with Jake?

"I'm a 19 year old millionaire am I not Jake?" He must have nodded his head at her question as she continued "So explain to me if I didn't care why would I still be living in this God forsaken town? I'm of legal age. I could be somewhere in Hollywood, New York City anywhere living the life but I CHOOSE to stay here. Bella has 2 more years of High School and hopeful then due to my pushing she'll get away from this God forsaken town and no offense Jake don't hold her back when that time comes."

I got quiet for a bit outback before Jake spoke up "I can see in some weird way that you actually do love you sister."

Rosalie said nothing and I was completely shellshocked by what I just overheard. I mean I always did question silently why she stayed in this town but never would I had suspected it was because of me. I couldn't be because of me? No she had to be feeding Jake some straight up bullshit. I knew mom's contract was up once Rosalie turned 21 which also happens to be around the same time as Graduation but it there was no way it was because of me. Seriously I must walked into some kind of freakin' Twilight Zone today because nothing I overheard and the fact that these two are so buddy-buddy is making any kind of sense.

Dinner was a fairly quite affair and the driving Jake home was an interesting on "So you and my sister seem like the best of pals now" I stated bitterly. Jake reached over and place his hand softly on my cheek wiping away a traitor tear.

"Your sister and I just reached a mutual understanding."

"Right your passion for cars how can I forget." I stated sarcastically

"No silly girl...You"

"Me? Fat chance Rosalie gives two shits about me" I shouted incredulously

"Look Bells, Rose..."

"That too" I interrupted "When did blondie all of sudden become Rose and pup all of a sudden become Jake?" I demanded

Jake just sighed "People change Bells and I truly think your sister cares deeply about she just has a funny way in showing it."

I just nodded my head thinking maybe I was just being a bit irrational. Jake never mention the conversation he had outside with my sister and I decided not to bring it up. I didn't like arguing with him. Once I pulled into his driveway, we just sat there making out like the hormonal teenagers in the that we were.

I wish I could say that day was the only time I would come home to see Jake and Rosalie working on her car or on some days just hanging out in the living-room but as time went on it sort of became a routine. At first yes I was absolutely leery about it but now it just seem normal and Rosalie even was a bit nicer towards me with a edge of hardness still presence though.

Sadly though all good things must come to an end.

Jake and I were sitting at the table discussing our plans for college. Jake was starting next Fall at UDub and I decided I want to follow. I wanted to go to UDub not just because of Jake but it was the cheapest route for me. For I rather eat glass than to ask Rosalie to pay for college education. Rosalie happen to walk into the kitchen as we were discussing college. She grabbed an apple and stood against the counter eating the apple and watching us intently. Mom followed in behind her asking "What's going on in here?"

I rolled my eyes at my mother's question thinking like she actually cared but humored her nonetheless "Jake and I were just discussing college."

"Oh that's nice." Mom responded before continuing "I ran into Sarah the other day and she just couldn't stop gushing about her baby boy all grown up and that you got accepted into the Electrical Engineer program at the University of Washington. We all are very proud of you Jacob" Mom stated

"You know how mothers are" Jake laughed before saying "Thanks Renee"

"Bella did you decide yet where you wanted to go?" Mom asked

"UDub" I answered nonchalantly

"That's nice dear just make sure you apply to other schools as well broaden your horizons besides you still have time." She stated as she walked out the kitchen

Rosalie 'hmph' before walking out the kitchen.

"You should really take you moms advice Bells and apply to other schools as well" Jacob declared

"What you don't want me to join you next year?" I asked a bit offended

"Goodness no its not that at all. I would love nothing more than for you to join me but I also don't want you to regret your decision years down the line and resent me."

I got up from my sit and went over to sit on his lap placing my arm around his neck. "I could never resent you Jake. You're my future and I cannot wait till I join you at college. Just think after my mandatory year in dorms, you and I could look for an apartment together." I felt a twitch underneath me were and I smiled wickedly as I grind into his "problem"

"You'll be the death of me" He teased as he captured my bottom lip

I giggled and began kissing him more deeply before hearing someone clear their throat. I looked up to see Rosalie looking quite upset. "I do not think mom would want to walk in on a sight like this" She stated harshly

I shrugged hopping off Jake's lap. Yeah to anyone what Rosalie walked in on one would think more is going on but Jake and I physically relationship was next to nothing. That was as physically as we ever get. I was never willing to take it further. I wanted us to wait till we had our own place.

After that day in kitchen 'nice Rosalie' was gone and she was back to being a bitch again. Which to tell you the truth I was more comfortable with her when she was a bitch because 'nice Rosalie' put me on edge and at least with her bitchy self I knew what to expect; well almost what to expect.

Bitchy Rosalie step up her spitefulness to a level I never thought she was capability off.

Mom was away for the weekend and Rosalie decided to throw a party. I actually like the idea and asked her if we could incorporate a going away party for Jake as well. She agreed shockingly. She pretty much invited most of the town teenagers and kids from The Res and they all showed up. What person would be dumb to turn down a house party invite from none other than Rosalie Hale?

I socialized with majority of the people at the party and dance with Jake. After awhile majority of the people were getting drunk I however stop drinking after my first cup. I went upstairs to use the bathroom since there was a line at the downstairs bathroom. We had section off upstairs to prevent people from coming up but obviously that didn't deteriorate people from coming up here as I heard moaning coming from my bedroom. Just great I thought to myself as I used the bathroom. Definitely going to have to disinfect my room now. I was going to knock at give those fuckers a piece of my mind but decided against it and went back downstairs to enjoy the party.

My phone had vibrated in my pocket and I ignored it because I wouldn't be able to hear the person anyway over the music besides mom had already called and anyone I wanted to speak to was already in house at this party.

The party left a massive mess in its wake. I was a bit upset when Jake decided he didn't want to stay the night and left with a few of his friends. I walked into my bedroom and it smelt like pure sex and I was almost sick to my stomach when I saw what appeared to be dried up blood on my sheets. I groaned as I took my sheets off and put them in a black plastic bag taking outside with the trash. I wasn't even gonna attempt to wash sheets some skank lost their virginity on.

My phone vibrated in my pocket and I pulled it out looking at the caller id.

I smiled when I saw it was Jake calling even though he left not to long ago "Hey" I answered however all I heard was the car radio. "Jake" I stated again however no answer. I just hung up my phone. "Stupid pocket dialing" I muttered to myself. He phone was forever doing that. I saw that I had a few miss calls and voicemail from him that night and shook my head thinking 'he really needs to get a new phone.'

When I went to check my voicemail I was about to press 7 to delete since it was from his phone however what I heard halted me in my steps and stabbed me deep within my chest pulling me into the darkest...

"Ohhhh god right there Jake" I heard Rosalie moaned

"Fuck I need you inside me now" she called out

"FUCKKKKK" she screamed

followed by his voice stated shockingly "you're a virgin?"

"Shut up and fuck me Jake?" Rosalie growled...

I turned around to see Rosalie looking at me smugly as my world turned to black before passing out...

Name of next chapter is currently untitled and half way written

Again this story is about the ups and downs (Mainly downs) of their relationship. I know many is thinking how could a sister do this? But it happened and its part of what makes Bella in this story Bella