Rain was pouring down hard on the roof and wind was gushing fast.
"Come on Chelsea, you've waited long enough, you must go to bed now." My nanny said to me, putting her old wrinkled hand on my shoulder..
"But, I wanna wait for mummy. Please?" I said still looking out of the window. It was so dark, nothing had colour, until a huge flash of lightening lit up the place as if it were day time.
"10 minutes and its bedtime for you. Your mummy will be back and I don't think she'll be happy with you staying up this late." She crossed her arms.
"I wanna night night kiss from her." I gave her a hug hoping she would let me stay up.
"If you go to bed now, I'll send her in for a kiss. Ok?" I pondered that for a second, my nanny would never lie to me, and in fact she always delivers her promises. This wouldn't be any different.
"Promise?" I put my pinkie finger up.
"Of course Chelsea, I always do." She locked her pinkie with mine.
"Ok... I can't wait till tomorrow; mummy is going to help me practice dancing again." I stood up and twilled around doing a pirouette.
"Is she now? Your mummy has always been an amazing dancer and I know you'll be as well Chelsea." She cupped my face while I grinned. "Now hurry along." She tapped my back.
I ran into my room and got changed into my teddy bear pyjamas. I huddled down into bed with my rabbit Ribbons. It was all tattered and ripped but I still loved him to bits.
My nanny said goodnight to me and she said again that she will send my mummy up as soon as she got in.
I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep.
When I opened them again, it was morning, everything was calm and sunny. I got out of bed upset because my nanny didn't send mummy in. How could she do that?
"Why didn't you send mummy in? You promised." I said as I walked into the front room where my nanny was sat. I turned my back to her.
But then I saw an unfamiliar face, a policewoman. When I looked to see my nanny, her face was all red and puffy. She whimpered.
"Where's mummy?" I couldn't see her anywhere as I frantically looked.
"Here, sit down." My nanny said getting up. "Would you like something to drink or eat?" she asked but her voice was wrong, all shaky and hoarse.
"Is mummy here?" Was all I could say, ask. Something wasn't adding up…
My nanny turned away, it looked like she was crying. Why?
The policewoman then started talking. Her voice was strong but even I wasn't stupid enough to know something wasn't right.
"I'm afraid your mummy was in an accident last night. She's in a very deep sleep." She closed her eyes.
At first I didn't understand. I ran upstairs, my pigtails tapping my shoulders to the beat of me running.
I grabbed my little piggy bank from the shelf on top of my bed and hurried back downstairs.
I shoved it in front of the policewoman.
"What's this for?" She raised an eyebrow.
"Um, money. To buy an alarm clock." I gave small smile.
"Why's that?" The policewoman said still confused.
"So we can wake her up again." I bigger smile appeared on my face.
The woman seemed to pity me for a minute then my nanny took over, she hugged me.
"Sweetie, mummy isn't going to wake up again, she's gone to…" Nanny didn't want the word to come out.
I understood clearly then.
"She's dead?" I was hoping for a no but I knew I wasn't going to get it.
The policewoman nodded slightly, a deathly frown on her face.
Tears welled in my eyes. I was shaking. I didn't want to cry aloud in front of a 'stranger'. It didn't seem right. Everything didn't seem right.
A hand came on my shoulder.
"Let it out. Let it all out." I couldn't tell if that was my nanny or the policewoman.
I cried, I cried so hard and so long, I thought it wouldn't stop.
The policewoman left, I don't think she could stand the crying for long.
I curled into a ball, I had no tears left yet I continued to cry.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." my nanny soothed while stroking my hair. "A woman will be coming up later on today. You can't stay here they said. I tried to reason with them. If I could I would-" my nanny started crying again. "I'm so sorry."
I ignored her; I didn't care what was going to happen to me, where I was going. I just wanted my mummy. I wanted to hug her, I wanted to feel her, to hear her soft voice once more.
What happened to her? Why did it happen?
I finally stopped crying but I sat in silence, breathing deep and quick. My face was stiff where the wet tears soaked into my skin.
Why? Why me? Why did I deserve to lose my mum?
My nanny came back in with my mummy's dance shoes and dress.
Silver and lilac that dazzled and my two favourite colours. The dress was silver satin with a net tutu and decorating it was lilac ribbons and lace. The shoes were similar but it had a floral lilac embroidered design. It looked beautiful on mum.
"Your mother would of wanted you to have this." my nanny said. "Look after it; I shouldn't say that because I know you look after everything." She sniffed.
"I can't, its mummy's not mine." I wanted to hug it though, smell my mum's perfume once more.
"Please, for me. For her." I looked down and nodded.
She put it in my suitcase as I packed to hopefully start a new life fresh at only five years old...
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