A/N: Sorry guys for the slow update. It took some time to write and I had a lot on at school. It's the holiday's now so hopefully - fingers crossed - that I can get more written. Enjoy.

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Hello my love. It's me again.

So you've survived another year without me. Well, I will always be with you – in your heart – but you know what I mean.

Seventeen aye? My baby's growing up quickly. I remember when you took your first step: your were eleven months and you were so clumsy – I suppose you still are. You had your father and I in tears of laughter but you were always just a bundle of joy.

Another year has past and it's time to start thinking about your future. It may seem like ages away, but trust me when I say it will pounce on you when you are least expecting it to. I want you to make the most of your last year at school before having to think about settling down.

Your probably wondering what your challenge is going to be, but patience is a virtue. I presume that since you are reading this, you have made new friends? Well, you wouldn't lie, so I'll take that as a yes. Good for you babe! It's good to know my baby girl is growing more confident everyday.

I thought back over the past year and everything that has happened. Emmett and Rosalie got together not long after they met, as did Alice and Jasper. They made the cutest couples ever. I ached for a relationship like they have, but that wasn't going to happen in a million years.

I could still remember the night Alice and Rosalie decided to tell me.

6 months earlier.

It was a late summer night, and Alice, Rosalie and myself were sitting in my room watching the latest romance film. We had all the windows open, the heat getting to us. We were dressed in the smallest jammies ever: Rosalie in a pair of short, tight red shorts with a white and red polka dot tank top; Alice in a pair of black shorts with a light green and blue striped tank top whilst I wore white shorts that just covered my bum with a black vest top. We all had our hair tied up – well except Alice since she couldn't – but we were all still feeling sticky.

When the film finished, Alice and Rosalie glanced at each other before turning to me. I just looked at them curiously.

'What?'

'Well,' Rosalie began.

'RoseandmyselfaredatingEmmetandJasper.' Alice rushed out in one breath.

I cocked my head to the side, completely blank as to what Alice had just said.

'She said that myself and Alice are dating Emmet and Jasper.' Rosalie translated for me. I nodded, but dropped my head, annoyed. Why didn't they tell me?

'Before you say anything, we didn't tell you because it was only official yesterday.' Alice said sympathetically.

I nodded, then looked up and smiled at them. They looked at me sceptically before I pounced on them and gave them a huge hug. After a moment, they began to hug back, clearly ecstatic that I had taken the news well.

Present.

I laughed lightly to myself and continued to read.

So now it's time to reveal your new challenge. I want you to get out there and start it straight away. I have so much faith in your it's unbelievable. Enjoy.

Challenge: so, it's here. I want you to get out and find yourself a job. I know you well enough to know that you won't have one by now. (Laugh to myself) have a good time looking for one, but make sure it's something you will enjoy. Write up a CV and hand it in everywhere you wish to work; you may never know what will happen unless you take the chance.

Love mum

Xxxxx

I was surprised when the tears didn't fall. I knew I was missing my mum, but knowing she was with me made feel almost whole inside.

I got out from under the warmth of my duvet, having a sense of déjà vu. I went to the bathroom that was further down the hall from my room and locked the door behind me. Since it was a Saturday, I decided to have a bath, hoping it might relax my tense muscles. I ran the bath just high enough to surround my whole body with hot water and loads of strawberry smelling bubbles. I had my hair tied up so it was out of the way in attempt not to get it wet. I settled back, allowing my head to fall back slightly. I sighed in content. I was happy just sitting here. I soon began to think through things that had happen in my life: losing my mother; meeting the Cullen's; becoming close friends with them; eventually getting through to Edward; realising I liked him – a lot; Alice and Rosalie dating Jasper and Emmett; finding myself a third – or in some cases – fifth wheel.

I started to think about Edward. Everywhere I went I had images of those emerald green eyes or that auburn messy hair. I seemed to see him wherever I went. I knew I didn't want to take things fast considering what happened with Kate, but I really did like him. I was over the moon when we began to talk.

8 months ago. 4 months after meeting the Cullen's.

'Bella, can we talk please?' I looked round to see Edward behind me, standing at the doorway of our biology class that I had just left. He looked rather sexy leaning against the doorpost with a crooked smile on his face. I smiled at him, before nodding slowly not wanting to sound so keen: he might want to tell me that he hates me and never wants to see me again.

'Bella,' he paused, dragged me back in Mr Banner's room, which was not empty, before continuing. 'I am sorry for these past few months. I really am. Alice said she explained to you why. It was just hard for me to see you everyday. You just reminded me of her so much that it hurt. I just want to apologise and hope that you still wish for me to be your friend.' He looked at me hopefully.

I paused. Was that all he thought of me? As a friend! I began to consider my options. 1. I nod and that's all we will ever be; 2. I tell him my feelings hoping he feels the same or 3. Tell him my feelings and he laughs in my face. I decided to go for option one. It was the safe option.

'Yes Edward, I would still like to be your friend.' I hesitated. 'if you are sure you want to be mine.' I looked down at the ground, afraid of what the answer would be.

He lifted my chin so I could see him nodding. I smiled and he smiled back. We just stared at us until we realised that we were late for class. We both headed off in the direction of our classes, saying a polite goodbye to each other.

Present.

As I finished reminiscing of the past, I got up out the bath, dried myself quickly and headed back to my room. I wandered over to the wardrobe and began to flick through the various items of clothing Alice had managed to squeeze into the rather compact space. As I decided what to wear, I also decided I would start my challenge today. I would write my CV, then after lunch head round stores handing them in. I smiled as I pulled out a pair capri trousers in a brown colour with a pale yellow vest top.

A/N: okay guys. hope you liked. please review ;]

emma xxxx