Last time
Izuku froze as the world slowed down the sound came from a woman in trouble and he could tell she was scared by her tone izuku glanced with his right eye at the road ahead for him to go home and just ignore the woman in trouble*
Inside Izuku's mind
Izuku looked at the alleyway he could see two shadows one obviously in danger and the second in a threatening manner, izuku walked away ignoring the screams shutting his eyes tightly *
Izuku:don't get involve not my business not my problem, your a civilian not a pro hero...
Izuku muttered bitterly to himself as the blood curtailing screams got louder but suddenly stopped, izuku froze for a second closing his eyes tight before he kept going home knowing someone died because of his inaction*
The next day
izuku woke up from a dreamless sleep the events of last night still haunting his head as he looked around seeing his room and nobody but himself in the mirror he took a few deep breaths and sat on the bed puting his hands over his face*
Izuku:your not a pro hero your a civilian there was nothing that you could have done...
izuku muttered bitterly to himself as his hands started shaking a bit in pain izuku grabbed a bottle and took some pills*
Izuku:if you would have helped what could you have possibly done? You're in no shape to help anybody so stop it you have nothing to feel guilty about...and I'm talking to a mirror like a lunatic, my magneto i need some coffee
izuku said to himself before getting up even with sleeping for hours he felt restless, going to the bathroom he did his routine took a shower brushed his teeth brushed his still unkept hair and he got dressed he sat on the bed and puts on the radio as he ties his shoes*
Radio: in other news two bodies were found in a alleyway a mother and her child dead the investigators still don't...
izuku turned the radio off and covered his face with his hands*
Izuku: couldn't it just be hero news...
izuku takes a cigarette puts it in his mouth and starts to smoke as he doesn't even look himself in the mirror not wanting to see the reality of the situation rather pretend that he's fine*
Izuku:...stop thinking about it just go to work...time to start the day..
Izuku got down almost tripping himself at the stairs as his door was knocked, he walked to it opening the door seeing his father there holding izuku's car keys, Chizome eyes widen looking at his son he opened his mouth to try and be supportive*
Chizome:man son... you look like shit
Izuku:and good morning to you too asshole
Izuku said taking his keys and walking back inside, Chizome followed his son inside closing the door behind him*
Izuku:staying a bit?
Chizome:sure why not business is slow and Kaina is off on a undercover mission don't mind having breakfast with your old man do you?
Izuku;how are you and Kaina doing?
Chizome:we're not at your mother's and Ryuko's level but we're doing fine what about you?
Izuku: just missing tsuyu really could use her right now so she can calm me down
Chizome:then talk to me
Izuku:yeah...no, set the table would you
Chizome sets the table as izuku finishes making breakfast puting there plates on the table*
Chizome:fancy looking pancakes you made didn't know you're mother taught you to cook like...
Izuku:if you got a problem then don't eat it
Chizome:no problem just saying anyway let's eat
Izuku and Chizome:itadakimasu
Izuku started eating for a bit until he sighed putting his utensil down and looked at his father*
Izuku:is there any reason why your staring at me?
Chizome:just wondering how long until you finally talk about what's bothering you
Izuku:just feeling restless and missing tsuyu same as usual do drop it
Chizome:that's a lie you never act like this when tsuyu's gone so come on just tell me
Izuku:you are not gonna drop it are you?
Chizome:No i am not you got your stubbornness from your mother but your never give up attitude from me so spit it out
Izuku:... last night walking home i...was witness to the murder that everyone is talking this morning on the news and...i just walked away
Chizome: you walked away?
Izuku:please don't repeat what i said cause i so don't need that today, i mean what was i supposed to do? Just run in the action and hit them with the cane? Like you said i haven't done any intensive training in years all i would have done is get myself more hurt then i already am i did what was right by walking away
Chizome:and that's why your telling me this? Because you feel like you did the right thing so much that it's eating you up inside ?
Izuku:...i should have waited for tsuyu to come home i don't know why I'm talking to you
Chizome:because you feel guilty about walking away and you should be
Izuku:excuse me? You really gonna talk do me about walking away?
Chizome:yes i am because i have experience...when i walked away from you and your mother i thought I was doing what was right i was so sure so blinded by my beliefs, i was so sure at what was best for me that like and idiot i thought i made the right choice that i could look back at my life and say i did it right, but now? I feel nothing but shame and disgust at the younger me i still feel such guilt when i see your mother everything i made her and you suffer, I'm happy she was able to find happiness and love but me walking away... it's something that will haunt me for the rest of my life and i don't want the same for you
Chizome got up and looked at izuku, in his eyes he saw izuku was the 4 year old boy of so long ago making him out a bitter chuckle and have a smile smile on his face*
Chizome:learn from my mistake son if you can look back on your choices without regret then you've made the right choice
Chizome walked out leaving izuku alone there with his thoughts, izuku closed his eyes as the thoughts were getting louder and louder until he opened his eyes his house was gone the whole world was gone it was just a black void with two people izuku and his younger self looking at him*
Young izuku:i can't believe this is what I grow up as, someone who would just run away from saving someone in need
Older izuku:magneto was i always this annoyingly optimistic? Listen you little shit...
Young izuku:no you listen! Just look at yourself! You used to be the person who would never give up, the person that would save anyone with a smile what happened to dying with a smile because you saved just one person
Older izuku:you said it yourself younger me look at me this is what happened to me for trying to help for wanting to save people, for fucking trusting people! I lost everything, the world just took and took and left me with nothing!! And my magneto sacrificing my life to save someone was i that fucked up in the head? Did i need people to like me so much i was really willing to give up my life as if it meant less to me then the people i was saving? You want me to just give all i managed to get up? now that i manage to crawl my way in to a comfortable life, a happy life you want me what? Ruin it for somebody i don't even know?! Fuck that and fuck you do i don't care if there's a fucking war going on I'm not getting involved it's.not.my.problem.!!
Younger izuku just looked at his older self with nothing but disgust and disappointment*
Younger:I'm glad I'm dead so i don't have to see just how pathetic i became
Younger izuku left as the world started coming back in to view*
Real world
the world started to return to it's normal pace izuku eyes kept moving side to side, he needed to make a decision and make it now will he help the person in trouble, or will he walk away, izuku's feet started to walked in a direction his gut already making the decision for him and that decision will be...*
To be continued or on
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