Hey guys! Sorry for the wait. I was away on a family trip and didn't touch my computer once. AND THEN my beta, TheLegitProduction, and I were having some emailing troubles -_-
Disclaimer: If I owned Degrassi, Clare wouldn't be making out with Jake in tonight's episode :(
I feel like I'm forgetting something...oh wells. Enjoy!
*UPDATE* My friend was reading the chapter and noticed some screw-ups. OOPS
CLARES POV
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I rushed into class right after the bell rang, I was late for several reasons. One, was the fact that Eli decided to spend nearly an HOUR in our bathroom, the only room with a door I could lock from him. Another, was that Eli hid my beanie so I had to continuously look for it, and eventually found it taped to the inside of a lamp shade. Did I mention Eli? Yeah he's a bunch of other reasons why I was late.
"Mr. Edwards, that'll be a late pass for you." I sighed and took my seat. I sat next to Adam and in front of Eli, I could hear him snicker as I got out my notes. Adam looked between Eli and I curiously as I glared daggers at him.
"So, Clare, why were you so late to class?" Eli whispered in my ear.
"I came in after the bell rang," I scoffed. "And besides, I wouldn't have been late if you hadn't spent so much time doing your hair and makeup in the bathroom this morning."
"Says the guy with a face that looks like he hasn't gone through puberty. But your balls haven't even dropped yet." He smirked at me with that look in his eyes. I froze and glared more daggers, wishing they were real so I could slice up that pretty little mouth of his.
"Hey what's up with the sudden harshness, dude?" Adam cut in.
"Nothing, just that Clare seems a bit girly for a guy." Eli's voice picked up do that people around us could hear, but not loud enough that Mrs. Dawes turned around.
"I mean, he always covers his face, and wears baggy clothes. I bet you're a chick under all that." Eli continued. I had enough. I stood up and grabbed Eli's hand, then slammed it against my chest. I knew he could obviously feel a small lump there due to the bindings, but to everyone else, his palm looked flat. He looked really shocked.
"Do I feel like a girl? No. Or are you so infatuated with my looks that you have to check downstairs, also?" I grinned, but hoped he wouldn't say anything like checking my junk or something. Luckily, he didn't and just sat down.
"Well I guess that's settl-" Adam got cutoff.
"Mr. Edwards, Mr. Torres! Detention for interrupting my class!" Adam and I looked at each other with gaping mouths. We then looked at Eli who seemed to have miraculously disappeared from his seat and probably was in the hallway. I bowed my head and stayed quiet for the rest of class. Eli was gonna get a mouthful after I found him.
ELI POV
I didn't really feel like detention, so I snuck out of the room when I saw Mrs. Dawes start to turn around. I lurked into the bathroom and went into an empty stall, sitting down on the toilet seat and thinking about what I had just done.
I told her I was going to keep her secret, but I don't know what took over me. For some reason, seeing her getting flustered or worried is really enjoyable. I really do think that I went too far, though. I was pretty close to actually revealing her secret, if her actions hadn't stopped me.
Oh my god, her actions.
It wasn't the first time I ever felt a girl up, but it was definitely the best even if there were a bra and bindings in the way. I could still feel them. At that moment, I honestly didn't know what to do. I was in a state of complete shock. I didn't think that, for a girl, Clare Edwards could be that… ballsy.
I wanted to apologize, I concluded after the lunch bell rang. I would say I'm sorry and never let it happen again. I really was sorry, and intend to keep her secret, which I still want to know more about. Eh, if she tells me, she tells me. And if she doesn't, well my super seductive skills will get her to tell me. I heard from Adam that she was going back to the dorm for lunch to do something. I unlocked the door and stepped in, fully knowing that she was there.
"Listen, Clare, before you say anything, I'm sorry. I, Elijah Goldsworthy, am deeply sorry for nearly blowing your cover, and I promise it will never happen again." She was sitting on the bed with her head looking down at a book. She didn't say a word, so I continued, not knowing what else to do.
"Well, I can't apologize for copping a feel though, that was all you. Trying to seduce me?" I decided to throw some humor in. She still didn't reply at my remark.
"Clare…?" I walked over and grabbed the book from her hands. Instead of yelling at me to give it back, she instead walked over to her shelf and pulled out another one.
The little minx continued to ignore me!
"C'mon, Clare… just say something." I pleaded. She looked as if she was deciding something, hopefully whether or not to continue giving me the cold shoulder. After about a minute, she pulled out her phone and put it to her ear.
"Hey, Adam, I think we have detention now. Meet me outside the classroom, so that I don't need to face Mrs. Dawes alone? Okay. Yeah, see you soon!" She didn't throw one glance in my direction even though she was packing her bag and I was right in front of her.
With that in mind, Clare left the room, me staring dumbfounded at the back of the door. I could not believe she just left on me! I threw her book down on her bed, and then flopped into mine. I decided, that I had to get Clare to talk to me, no matter what.
CLARE POV
Okay, I said Eli was going to get a mouthful. I was fully prepared to do that, but then he walked into the room apologizing before I even got a chance to state my rage. I quickly realized that he wanted my forgiveness, and decided not to say anything instead. Smiling, I made my way over to the class for detention. Adam smiled back when he noticed a while, I think he got annoyed, and when he took my book, it was all I could do not to grab it back. Head held high, I grabbed another book, nonchalant mood surrounding me. Inside, though, I was giggling like a toddler. Who knew little ol' me could get Eli Goldsworthy so worked up?
"You look giddy," he said.
"Well I feel giddy." I laughed and lightly punched his arm.
"In a perfectly heterosexual way, I hope." We laughed. Detention didn't seem so bad, if I got to hang with Adam.
We walked in to the room and barely five minutes through, Mrs. Dawes said she had something to do, but trusted we wouldn't leave the room. It was only Adam and I, anyway. We started talking about Eli.
"So, what was up with you and Goldsworthy today? I thought you guys were friends." He inquired.
"Roommates, friends, same difference(1)" I answered.
"Yeah, but he was really calling you out there, like he knew what it's like for a girl disguising herself as a guy." I froze at this, but tried to play it cool.
"And yeah, how would you know what he was describing exactly, Torres? Got something you wanna share with me?" I teased him. But Adam wasn't laughing. He was silent and looked as if he was thinking something through really hard. Finally, he reached into his bag and pulled out a box of tampons.
He knows, I thought. I started to say something , but he started talking. "Okay, Clare, don't freak out. No, I don't use them for nosebleeds. Not like a kid who probably belly flops randomly and pretends to be other people(2). But back to the point. You see, I'm a guy… with the body of a girl. I'm a female to male transgender, or FTM for short. I think like a normal guy, and really wanted to come here to show my mom up by how much I accept myself as a guy. I even legally changed my name to Adam, so Degrassi thinks I'm a guy. Luckily, I room with my brother, and he keeps my secret. Now, I trust you, so will you too?" Adam looked up at me with pleading eyes. I couldn't believe he just told me that!
"Adam, of course I'll keep your secret! But in exchange, you have to keep mine." He started to ask me what secret, but I cut him off by launching into full detail about how I was a girl and why I had to stay at Degrassi. I explained how Eli was tormenting me today because he recently found out my secret, and for some reason decided to play with it. Adam told me that Eli also knows, since they realized they were related distantly and Adam had come to a familial wedding as his girl self, Gracie.
Happy that I found out something new, and got closer to Adam, I completely forgot about Eli's outburst. But once I stepped foot in the room, Eli was typing on his laptop, and I remembered I was ignoring him instead of bursting into a conversation now that we both knew Adam's secret.
He didn't even say anything.
An hour passed, and our room was silent except for my flipping a page and Eli's typing. At exactly nine o clock, though, Eli shut his laptop and walked over to me. He took the book from me gently and I decided to at least acknowledge him, but remained silent.
"Clare, I gave you time and silence, and now I'm just hoping you'll say something along the lines of, oh, I don't know, I forgive you?" He said this slowly and calmly, like he had a plan to make things go his way.
Being my stubborn self, I still didn't say anything. We just stared at each other for the longest time. I just couldn't handle his eyes reading mine, my secret bare to him, but mine only trying to solve the mystery of his. I turned my head to the side and pouted.
I glanced at him from the corner of my eye and Eli looked really mad that I was being this stubborn. I couldn't process what was happening as his hand roughly grabbed my chin, his rings scraping my cheek as he jerked my head back to his.
"Are. You. Even. Listening?" He breathed. I was almost scared of this Eli, too scared to save myself, and the next thing I knew, his lips were mashed against mine. My lips opened in surprise and he used that to slip his tongue in, angrily dominating mine. My eyes were closed, but I opened them as we pulled away, breathless.
"You listening now, Edwards?" Eli smirked, his anger dissipated in the kiss.
Ohhhh, cliffhanger! Haha don't kill me! Truth be told, I wrote out the concept of this chapter right after I published my last one, I just needed to write it. And I still don't know when I'll be getting to Chapter 5, but yeah. Might start another story. Thanks for reading, please review!
1- I say that all the time. Do not be one of those people who say it makes no sense. Cuz it does.
2- ANYONE NOTICE THE IMOGEN REFERENCE LOL