A/N: I'm sorry this took this long to upload I forgot until recently.
It's April and after successfully avoiding Sam for the last couple of months he's
now in the same room as me, again. Currently I am trying to ignore him and just watch two of my closest friends say their vows. However, weddings always seem to go on forever and while the vicar is still droning on about how Mike and Rachel will stay together through arid deserts and lush forests, I cannot stop the urge in the back of my head saying I could have one little look at him without anyone noticing.
Looking up, I see him sitting in his pew with a piece of paper, making a origami swan to pass the time. It is a habit he has had since he was 7 and his family drove to Andorra every summer. It also reminds me of what I did and I start to feel the familiar paralysing pain brought on by regret, reminding me why I don't have the right to be looking at him. I spin back around in my pew only to see the vicar has stopped droning and I pay attention to the rest of the ceremony and manage to not look at him for the rest of the day. As soon as the first guests start leaving, I hurry towards the doors to leave. But as I reached them a hand grabbed my arm.
" I need to say something quickly. Look, I don't blame you for writing the book and even if you don't want to be friends again, just please stop ignoring me. It hurts too much."
Then he was gone. The only indication that he had ever been there was the scent of his fruity sea buckthorn aftershave in the air and the slowing pitter-patter of my heart. His words were setting me free to carry on with my life and not to continue in the shadow of our past relationship. All of the regret I had been feeling for months was dissipating.
I had just been awarded with 2 book accolades and had put my life back on track. Everything was going to be all right and I had received a few new book ideas along the way.