I Am Either Nexus… or Against Him?

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Chapter Five: Manchester Madness

I sigh as I situate my belongings into my bag for the flight. It was late, but by now it was into the early morning hours, I haven't checked the time just yet but Stu has been asleep for the past three hours.

Clarissa has been helping me all week to prepare myself for this trip, deep down, I know this is what I need to do for our relationship and for ourselves. We're in a make-or-break situation but my best friend is right; either I stick around and feel tormented or find some space and give us both the opportunity to get our perspectives in line.

Am I worried? Of course I am, but I'm willing to be strong for the both of us and make the change we need in order to get passed this obstacle.

As I zip up my bag, all the thoughts constantly running through my head, the fights, the yelling; everything just completely stops and suddenly that is when I realize my mind is completely blank.

I turn slowly, taking one last look at my fiancé before I pick up my bag and quietly approach his sleeping, angelic image. His brown curls weren't slacked down in their normal Englishman fashion, as Wade wore them. No, instead they were messy and unkempt, from his constant tossing and turning but still a small smile crept up on my face. I lean over, lightly brushing my pink lips to his cheek.

Afterward, as I am working my way quietly toward the door, I stop at the dresser, to search my jacket pocket for the letter of apology I wrote him. My fingers graze over the script of his name, which I had written early, and no later than that did I place it on the dresser and exit silently from the room.

I met Clarissa down in the lobby, with Teddy standing beside her; she embraces me in a gentle but understanding hug. "I left Stu a text message, letting him know you'll be with Teddy and me," she says as we break apart. "I told him that if he needed you, he can talk to T-Bear,"

"Thanks," I whisper. Ted pats me on the back, as the three of us walked out of the lobby toward his rental car; we have a very early flight to Manchester, England.

The flight was long and tiresome, sleeping on the plane was undesirably uncomfortable and that moment of peace that I felt in the hotel was replaced with all of the confrontation that I imagined in my head.

Stu is a very level headed person and accepting of people's privacy and all that but with his alter ego taking over who knows if Ted will be enough for Wade to take on. This worries me completely; I do not want to do anything that would sacrifice my relationships with my friends and I also do not want Stu to do anything too drastic; one, because he will be coming back home and when superstars return to their territory, it's a huge deal and two, I do not want him to react in a way that it is going to affect his job.

I close my eyes, trying not to imagine his anger, but it still played over and over in my head like a bad dream. Tonight's show used to be something I highly anticipated, being engaged for two years and being able to finally see my loves home ground was something I yearned to do as soon as we were given the chance but now it does nothing but make me so nervous and unsettled.

I stayed in the women's dressing room like Clarissa had asked me to. She had already done my hair and makeup anyway, which she stayed quite simple with a long straight ponytail and neutral makeup. Riss also insisted that I wear this particular black dress; it was a one-shoulder type of deal with a silver broach which laid close to near my chest. Clarissa picked out matching black knee-length boots and giant hoop earrings to go with it.

My eyes travelled over the image in the mirror that was supposed to reflect me but I hardly even noticed myself. "You look fantastic!" Clarissa says, her voice making me jump. "Sorry, didn't mean to startle you, but we're about to go on air in about two minutes and you need to get out there."

"It's okay," I reply. "Thanks for letting me know," I smile lightly as I take one last glimpse in the mirror to the women that didn't even look like me.

"How do you feel?" she asks, I notice that she herself, is done up in her own little fashion, for her ringside accompaniment for Ted.

"I feel okay," I shrug. Not too long after, did a stagehand come in to tell me I was needed out there for the live show, which was to begin in less than one minute. I left at that moment, to an arena filled to its maximum of pumped up and extremely excited British fans ready to get this show started. John Cena came out after the opening theme rolled, I sat in my corner and tried to relax, my eyes focused on him.

I feel comfortable seeing John out in the ring, standing in front of a 'Nexus Podium', scripture in his hand, speaking ever-so smoothly. He had this edge to him, always making people feel... good about themselves. My breathing held up quite steady and a small wave of confidence washes over me; this is not as bad as I made it out to seem.

The Nexus' music – "We Are One" from the 12 Stones – began to play throughout the arena; even then I did not seem to shudder. It wasn't until Wade Barrett and his crew made it into the ring that totally changed my stance.

Wade's greenish-gray eyes stare momentarily at me, and my brown ones to his. His brows were narrow and his expression looks to be more than just business. Suddenly, I just do not know what to feel anymore.

As soon as his voice hits the mic, I can recognize the frustration in his native tone and I just have the urge to run out of the area but I can't; I am stuck here, just hoping and praying this show can move a little quicker and with no problems.

Oh Lord, it is going to be a long evening.

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