Hello! After I updated 'Brand New Eyes' I read this story over again and I miss it. This one has been doing better than Brand New Eyes so I'm working on this chapter now. I hope you guys enjoy it. I really do. I have no idea when I'm going to pop a lemon in this story! For sure this chapter or the next though. I just need to find time to write these two chapters! It's been a while don't you think? Here I am listening to asian music and trying to dance (which is an epic fail by the way). I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year!

What's your goal for the year?

Two days passed and being the coward I am, I skipped school. I just couldn't handle anything right now. My parents thought that I had a terrible case of the flu so they let me skip school for two days. I laid in my bed all day listening to music. Have you ever had one of those days when you feel so shitty that you just listened to sad music and just drown in your own self pity? I've been having one of those weeks. No one called me, no one came to visit me.

I'm pretty sure I'm in this world alone. Saosin played another of my favorite bands. The lyrics filled my head as I whispered along silently, "You're not alone... there is more to this I know.." Then I stopped myself and thought that instead of drowning in my own sadness I could make some use of it and just make a song. A depressing song maybe but any way to get this feeling of my chest would do.

I pulled an empty sheet of notebook paper and I took my acoustic guitar as I played some strands. After about three hours of my sitting my lazy ass on my bed I thought of a title for the song. It came to two possibilities: My Heart or Nothing Left.

I frowned at the title 'Nothing Left' I didn't want to sound like a desperate emo loser. I circled, 'My Heart' and I began playing it. Even though I was pretty sure that I was not in Death by Dawn anymore, I still decided that I should just give this song to them as an apology. Thinking of Death by DawnI thought of Sasuke and whenever I thought about Sasuke I thought about all the horrible things I did. I nearly cried once again but my mother knocked on my door, "Sweetie?"

"What is it mom?" I said quickly turning so she wouldn't see my red eyes.

My mom didn't bother entering my room. Good thing too. She sighed and leaned against the door frame, "You have to go to school tomorrow. No exceptions."

I nodded at first but when I didn't hear my door softly shut I said, "All right."

"You never told me what happened at your concert."

"It's a long story." I muttered turning away from her once more. I haven't really turned to my mother for anything, to me it felt uncomfortable. Never have I opened up to her but something told me that I should tell her. Maybe she knew what I'm going through and maybe she could give me advice on what to do, "I don't know where to start.." I said and turned to look at her.

She sat on my bed and smiled softly. That one smile that all mothers had that was filled with so much care and love to there child, "I have time.. How bout you start at the beginning?" At that moment I spilled the beans. I told her everything. How I met Sasuke, the lies I told, and the hatred I had for Tsunade. I didn't realize that I was crying until my mom pulled me into a warm hug. There in my mother's arms was when I found out that maybe I could turn to my mom sometimes.

"Things change and friends leave. But life doesn't stop for anybody." she whispered softly into my hair.

When my mom finally left my room the phone rang. Without even looking at the caller ID - that was a stupid move- I answered the phone, "Hello?" I said gently.

"What were you thinking..?" a deep voice said on the other line. I knew exactly who it was my voice got stuck in my throat as I struggled to think of anything to say. Although Sasuke didn't give me a chance to reply, "Did you ever once think how your childish actions would effect everyone else?"

"...I'm sorry.." I gasped out sadly.

"A sorry doesn't fix anything, Sakura." I didn't realize that tears were streaking down my face, "How do you think I feel Sakura..?"

"Why'd you kiss me..?" I asked sadly, "Did that mean nothing to you?"

Sasuke sighed on the other line, "That isn't the point."

"It meant a lot to me, Sasuke.." I admitted shortly, "It really did. I have to go.. my mother's calling me."

"One more thing."

"What is it?"

"You're out of the band. Go back to your daily routine from now on." He hung up right after and I stared blankly at the receiver.

The next morning I wore black skin tight skinny jeans and a red tank top that had black stripes on the back but was plain on the front. I left my pink hair down and gave a few head bangs to it to achieve that 'sexy' look that Sasuke liked to much. Just because he kicked me out of the band and put me down doesn't mean that I can't show him that his words doesn't affect me! Because they don't! Oh gosh.. who am I kidding? Sasuke's words felt as if I was being stabbed multiple times. Funny thing is that I would rather be stabbed then be hated by Sasuke.

What am I supposed to do now?

I sighed before I jumped in the car with my mom so she could drive me to school. The familiar buildings passed in blurs. My mother didn't bother trying to make small talk because she now knew what I've been going through. It was pretty sad actually, some part of me wanted my mom to talk to me more and give me some sort of distraction but another part wanted my mother to mind her own business.

When she pulled over I opened the door to walk out, "Sakura?"

"Yeah?"

"Hakuna Matata." I simply stared at my mother for a few seconds. She knew that the lion king was my favorite movie when I was younger. It was pretty heart warming that she remembered that famous line. I smiled at her then shut the car door. As she drove off I thanked her silently to myself. Let's face it. No matter what my mother and I been through I still love her. After all, she is family.

I repeated her words in my head countless times as I walked to my classroom with my tote over my shoulder. As I sat in my assigned seat, I started humming the song. Suddenly I stopped when I spotted my friends walking in the door. As they all sat near me my back tensed. Hinata was the first one to speak, "Good morning, Sakura." she said softly. I was way to surprised to speak so I just stared at her and smiled.

Blankly, I bit my lip and stared at my desk waiting - hoping - that someone would speak to me. Luckily I didn't have to wait long before Ino nudged me, "Why'd you lie to us..?" Before I could even speak out teacher started the lesson and then Ino mouthed 'lunch' toward me and I nodded. I had until lunch to think of an explanation. An explanation that wasn't a lie and that didn't make me sound like a bitch.

At the end of the lesson I decided I would just tell them what I told my mom. The truth.

During class I turned around and saw Gaara. I smiled kindly at him hoping that he would try to understand why I did what I did, but instead he looked away to talk to his friend who was next to him. Soon after they both started laughing, no doubt they were talking shit about me. I frowned and turned to face the front of the class. Maybe not everyone would try and understand. Of course. Since Gaara found out that I never ha da boyfriend and faked the whole thing I'm unwated.

This was it. Just a few more minutes until the bell rung to signal everyone that it was lunch. At first I was lost, I held my nachos in one hand and my water in the other. Did Ino and them expect me to go straight to our table? Or should I just walk outside and wait for someone to come get me? Did Gaara hate me? Well of course he did but he didn't have to make fun of me, that was just rude.

I never really liked Gaara anyway, I only had eyes for Sasuke but I guess that isn't going to work out either. After all he and Karin are so deeply in love that it sickens me. I didn't have time to dwell on the past - thankfully - because Ino shouted my name across the whole lunch room. I smiled. Hakuna Matata. I chanted those two words in my head over and over again. It means no worries.

I sat down and stared at each of my friends in the eye, "Hey guys."

"Spill." said Ino. SoI told them about everything. I told them that I didn't want to be left out when everyone else had someone they had the hots for. I told then that I didn't want them to think lowly of me because I couldn't get a guy. Basically I told them everything I told my mom. I really did like Sasuke but he's just unavailable. I didn't plan for it to lead to what it has led to.

"You guys aren't mad?" I asked sadly, "After all I did?"

"Why would we be mad at a best friend? We were just curious, that's all. I mean we get why you did what you did." explained Tenten as she chewed on her turkey sand which.

"Yeah! Sasuke is one fine as mother fucker!" giggled Ino, "But that Karin girl his real girlfriend. She's one ugly as mother fucker."

Hinata sighed, "Ino! You have a sailor mouth!"

I laughed as I got more comfortable around them, "When does she not? Every other word that comes out of her mouth is a cuss word! I wonder how Shikamaru puts up with it."

"Hey! Don't bring my baby into this conversation! We were just talking about you! We are so weird." said Ino laughing loudly and if you knew Ino her laugh and a few snorts in it so whenever she laughed we all did. The funny part was that the pig actually thought we're laughing with her but we're actually laughing at her. Oh gosh. I love Ino. She could be the biggest bitch in the world but if you really get to know her she's probably one of the best people I know. She would actually keep a secret if you tell her to - not like the other douche bags out there who would tell.

My friends are the only ones I would trust. Everyone else that I told a secret to stabbed me in the back and told someone else. Which of course led to everyone in the whole entire school knowing. It was a good thing that it was something stupid though, but I didn't know that me losing my first french kiss would be that exciting. It was pretty funny at the time because at first I would get all scared but then Ino told me that they were just jealous because they haven't even kissed anyone yet.

Believe me. That made me feel a whole lot better. Because of that lecture that she gave me I didn't care of what people thought of me. They didn't know the real me so who are they to judge? Anyway when lunch ended everything was cleared up and we all just started messing around like this whole incident didn't happen. That was until Hinata said something about my audition, "Don't you have that one audition soon?"

I nodded, "Yeah but only a few people know about it."

"Well are you going to go to it?" asked Tenten, "I think you should. You were awesome at the concert the other night and your voice was amazing!"

"I don't think I was that good!" admitted Sakura sheepishly, "Plus. I don't even have a ride and I'm a total wussy when being judged. I might mess up!"

"Well do you want to go?" asked Ino, "I could hook it up!"

"What connections do you have with that music academy?"

"None." I laughed at her.

"When is it?" asked Hinata.

"Uhm.. three days from now?"

"All right! Let's get this plan on the road!" exclaimed Ino.

I looked at her oddly, "What plan?"

"INO!" shouted Tenten slapping Ino's arm, "Don't worry about a thing Sakura! We got your back!"

Uhm. What the fuck? I wanted to ask more about this 'plan' they had but I didn't have a choice but to drop the subject because we were all in our assigned seats and class had just started. I decided I would just let it go. At least they forgave me and that's what really matters to me right now, not some stupid plan that could ruin my life. Frowning, I thought about it more becoming more and more curious. It couldn't be that bad right?

Once again Happy New Year! Have a great one you guys! Bye!

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