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So now, enjoy the 7th chapter of my story.

And then Fawkes began to sing. It was the first time I had heard a phoenix sing. The song was beautiful. It seemed to express everything I was feeling, the grief about Dumbledore, the worry about Bill, my feelings about you…
A little hope grew inside me. It couldn't be over. We could still fight; we could still go on and do our best, at least in war. Concerning the matter of love I didn't feel so hopeful.
I was sure, after seeing Bill you would've recognised the danger at last. I was sure you had finally seen sense and decided to stay away from me.
But of course I was wrong.

As we watched Molly and Fleur crying in each other's arms you turned furiously on me. Gesturing to Fleur you said that she didn't care that her love had been bitten. And that you didn't care either. I stiffened at that. I couldn't believe my ears. I told you our cases were different, Bill wouldn't be the same as me. I named the same reasons I had argued with back at St. Mungos.
Molly talked them down, of course she did. I told them you deserved someone better, someone young and whole. But Arthur interjected and said you wanted me. I knew that, but I couldn't let it happen…
I tried to avoid their gaze and that topic, saying it wasn't exactly the time to discuss something like that, what with Dumbledore having died.
But of course someone knew how to rebut that argument as well…

Harry and Minerva left then and all the remaining people were either looking at Bill or staring at me. I avoided their eyes, staring at the floor. I could feel your gaze on me, but didn't look up, my eyes fixed on the floor in front of me.
Then I heard a sob and the sound of the doors opening, glancing up I could just see the corner of your cloak whipping around the door and you were gone.
A new wave of self-hatred hit me, forcefully supported by Molly.
Everybody turned to stare when she started yelling:
She asked me if I had lost my mind, what had gotten into me to break your heart like that in front of everybody. She yelled on, asking if I had wanted to squish every last bit of will to live out of you. And then her voice was suddenly quiet and ice cold. She said that I probably had succeeded.

I started, she couldn't possibly mean that. Looking up uncertainly I saw that her face was lined with worry. Arthur was staring at the door, obviously thinking hard, concern edged on his face. My mind was racing. They seemed to think, that I had pushed you over the edge, that you were about to do something stupid.
Shocked, I started to move. I just wanted to keep you safe. That's all I ever wanted. But the looks on their faces made me fear that I had failed, that I had just put you in danger.
So I ran, out the Hospital Wing, through the familiar corridors and down the Marble Staircase. I knew I didn't stand a chance to catch up with you, before you'd leave the grounds, but it didn't matter. I knew where you'd go now. I reached the gates and without catching my breath I turned on the spot into nothingness.

Yes, a suicidal Tonks... a bit melodramatic, but what the heck ^^

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