One morning before the sun was at it highest Alec and I decided to talk a walk threw the gardens. I never really like flowers but…recently I felt happier. Then Alec stopped and placed his hand on my shoulder.

"Sister what did master Aro talk to you about?" he asked.

"Oh…he just wanted a little chat…" I mumbled.

"Yes I know that, a chat about what exactly?"

"He wanted to apologize." I sighed I knew I couldn't hide anything form Alec.

"Apologize? For what?" he asked curiously.

"For what Lady Sulpicia said to me earlier…"

"I see." he nodded.

"Alec….I love him…and yet I cant have him…" I frowned.

"I know sister, I'm afraid he has his hooks in you too deep." Alec sighed as he pulled me into a small hug.

Then we heard someone clearing their throat, when we looked up we saw Lady Sulpicia staring at us with a kind and gentle expression.

"Good morning you two!" she said happily.

"Good morning my lady." we muttered.

"Jane dear, may I speak with you alone please?" she asked.

"Of course." I nodded as I kissed Alec on the cheek and followed Sulpicia to her chambers.

Once we got to her door she smiled and held it open for me.

"Just in here dear, so we can have some privacy." she smiled as she gently placed her hand on my shoulder.

Then she shoved me into the room and shut the door, and turned to me with the coldest glare I've ever seen.

"Jane, how dare you!" she hissed.

"How dare I what my lady?" I asked confused.

"You know what! Why was Aro alone with you in your chambers?" she growled.

"We were simply talking nothing more…." I said.

"Are you sure? Because if I find out you weren't….oh you better watch out!" she growled as she grabbed onto my dress collar.

"I swear to you my lady…we were talking nothing more, so please do not get in my face." I sighed.

"What was that you little brat?" she hissed.

"I said do not get in my face."

"Ha! You want to try to say that again?" she growled as she pulled me closer to her.

"Do. Not. Get. In. My. Face."

"Oh your going to get it now!" she shirked as she lifted her hand above her head.

Then before she could do anymore Aro walked into the room.

"Good morning Pici , how are-" Aro stopped and eyed us for a moment. "Hello Jane." he smiled.

"Hello Master."

"What are you two….doing?" he asked as he looked at us curiously.

"Oh…I was just fixing Jane's dress…there was a rip in it." Sulpicia smiled as she released me and threw her arm around me as if we were the best of friends.

"Yes." I nodded.

"I see." Aro nodded and he clasped his hand in front of his face and looked between us with curiosity burning in his milky red eyes.

"Yes, well I should be going." I said as I turned toward Sulpicia. "Thank you so much for repairing the rip in my dress." I said with a fake smile.

"Your quite welcome! Come back anytime dear, I love having our little girl to girl chats." she smiled.

"I will my lady." I nodded then I stopped before Aro before leaving. "Farewell master." I muttered as I walked out the door and shut it behind me.

As I was walking down the hall I ran into something hard, I looked up and saw Alec staring down at me.

"Jane, what did Lady Sulpicia want?" he asked.

"I hate her." I whispered.

"Pardon?" Alec asked.

"I said I hate her Alec!" I growled.

"Perhaps we should take this in my room." he sighed as he pulled me into his chambers.

"Now why do you hate her?" he asked as he sat on his bed.

"She porously dangles him in front of me! Doesn't she know how bad it hurts to see her with him!" I growled.

"Be calm my sister, she is just jealous." Alec said.

"Jealous? Jealous of what? Look at me I'm hideous!" I frowned.

"Jane we have the same face…. And you are not hideous." Alec sighed.

"You have to say that….you're my brother…." I frowned.

"If you don't believe me do you want me to ask Felix or Demetri?" he asked.

"No!" I sighed.

"Then trust me your beautiful Jane." Alec reassured me.

"Aro is never going to look at me in the same way he dose her, look at me I don't even have boobs really! I mean hers are huge!" I frowned.

"I do not think it matters…of what size the women's breasts are…." Alec said a bit uncomfortable.

"Please excuse me brother, I need a moment alone." I sighed as I walked out into the hallways and started wondering aimlessly.

This pain I was feeling inside was worst than the pain of being turned, I love him so much….but we can never be. I felt as if I wanted to cry but I knew it was impossible for someone like me. At times I wish I could cry just to get everything out. As I was walking toward the library where I do most of my thinking since it is rarely used anymore I was stopped by a familiar voice.

"Jane?"

I turned around and saw Aro standing behind me.

"Master?" I whispered.

"Why do you look so sad my dear?" he asked sadly.

"Its nothing, please excuse me." I muttered as I walked into the library but he followed.

"What is the matter my dear?" he asked, I froze when I felt his icy cold breath on my neck.

"I am truly sorry master but I can not tell you….forgive me." I whispered not wanting to look at his face.

"Jane, please don't hide anything from me….it hurts me knowing you are keeping something for me." Aro said sadly.

"I'm sorry master Aro I can not." I said as I started to walk the other direction but he grabbed me by the hand and made me face him.

"Jane, please.." he frowned. "I am so very sorry for letting this go on for so long my dear. It is I who needs your forgiveness."

Please master let me be…I thought but he still did not let go of my hands.

"Jane…" he whispered as he pulled me into his arms and pressed his lips to mine giving me a gentle kiss.

My mind went blank and I wrapped my arms around him pulling him closer to me, enjoying the sensation of his lips on mine then it hit me. This is wrong I have to put a stop to it…he is still married to Sulpicia even though how I much I want this. So I broke the kiss and gently pushed him away from me.

"Master Aro, please I'm begging you to stop." I frowned even though I wanted to continue.

He paid no attention to my plead and pressed his lips to mine again but with more force. Then his tongue and teeth started to glide and nip on my lip and I tried my very best not to give in, which was hard because his very kiss made me go weak in the knees.

Please forgive me master, but it seems this is my only option I have no choice.! I thought but he still paid no attention.

Pain….I thought as Aro imminently let go of me and felt to his knees.

"Jane, I-I thought this is what you wanted?" he asked as he got back to his feet.

"It is what I wanted, this is what I've always wanted! But you are married to Sulpicia!" I frowned.

"I love you." he said as his milky red eyes searched mine for any hint of what I was thinking.

"I'm sorry….I cant say it back…..I know you don't mean it." I frowned.

"Oh but I do Jane, for all these years….my feelings for you grew." Aro whispered.

"But what about lady Sulpicia?" I asked.

"What about her my sweetling?" he asked as he caressed my cheek.

"She is your wife."

"Yes, I will leave her for you when the time is right my love." he smiled.

Once he said that I had a strange feeling, I didn't know if he was lying or telling the truth. How could he just drop Sulpicia like that? So unsure of what to do I nodded and gave him a quick peck on the lips.

"I shall be returning to my chambers now master." I said.

"Very well my lovely, I shall see you later tonight perhaps?" Aro smiled.

As I was walking toward my chambers I saw Alec standing by my door giving me a disappointing look.

"What?"

"I saw you and master Aro." he muttered.

"Y-you saw that?" I asked nervously.

"Yes I did, and I do not like it." Alec sighed.

"Why?" I asked confused.

"Well he is married to lady Sulpicia, he has to choose either you or her…. He can not have both."

"He said he'd leave her." I mumbled.

"I doubt it." Alec sighed as he walked toward his chambers.

I shook my head with a sigh and walked into my chambers. Once I shut my door I immediately pulled out my diary and started to write.

Dear diary,

Today lady Sulpicia scolded me again for speaking with Aro privately once again. Then after that on my way to the library Aro stopped me….we talked for a while and he kissed me….he really kissed me…on the lips…and it was perfect, but he is still married to Sulpicia….even though I despise the woman…I cant be with Aro until he leaves her like he promised….I do not want to be home wrecker. Alec also saw my little meeting with Aro and he strongly disapproves, but I'm sure everything will turn out fine.

Jane Volturi.