Hello, everyone! I understand that it's been a while since I last posted.

I've been well and truly saved.

I understand that that phrase is confusing, or perhaps frustrating, to many of you, but I will explain if you stick around. :)

When I began this fanfiction, I was in a weird place mentally. I was struggling with friends, I felt rejected by my family, I was reading porn (don't pretend that these fanfiction sites aren't stock-full of horny stories, y'all'd be lying), and I was suffering with depression. During the pandemic and the lockdown here in the U.S., I found out pretty quickly that a lukewarm Christian faith meant nothing in the grand scheme of things. I found myself faced with the consequences of my own actions: my friends and I were obsessed in multiple fandoms, losing sight of reality and choosing to focus on fantasy and fiction. I've always loved fantasy and fiction tbh, but when it becomes your identity, it's a problem because, once that is gone, who are you? My depression was largely caused by feeling like my parents didn't truly love me, and that I had to perform so my friends would actually like me. My friends and I were obsessed with the same things, and we always did fandom stuff together.

To tell y'all the truth, this fandom stuff isn't what it's cracked up to be.

It's just us attempting to fill a hole that only one thing can truly fill.

As I was saying, during the pandemic, I found out how much of a lie I was living. I was hyper fixated on things that didn't exist, chatting with friends over things that didn't matter, and I was depressed out of my mind with no foreseeable way to fix it all. I grew up in a nondenominational Christian home and I never questioned that God was real, but I certainly treated Him like He wasn't. From 2020 through 2021, my Christian friends (the same ones I talked about fandoms with) one-by-one left me. My friends and I had fallen into the LGBTQ+ crowd (and fanfictions) and I was tired of it. It is very clear in the Bible that it is wrong, that all sexual immorality is wrong outside of marriage, and I really didn't want to believe that for a while. Or, I guess, I believed it, but never really confronted it. I got tired of it and said that I'd need a step back from it all. After I stood up for my faith, they left.

So there I was.

No best friends, no fandoms, and no foundation to stand on.

My family, especially my parents, was there for me through it all, but it still hurt. I felt lost and alone. I, quite literally, had built my life on things that did not matter and that was where I ended up: despondent and heartbroken.

Because of my brokenness and instability, I turned to the Bible to see what I actually believed. I wanted to see Jesus, and all that He did, for myself. Now, I can tell you all how wonderful God truly is. It was really hard to make it through that season of my life, but I found Jesus (or really, Jesus found me) in a whole different way. I found comfort in the truth, in reality. I was comforted by God, that Jesus, despite all of my lying, cheating, porn-reading, and idolatry, wants to call me friend. And He promised that, if I repented (meaning: turn from my sin, mourning the sins I have committed) and called Him my Lord, He would never leave me or forsake me.

I don't hate my old friends, I adore them. I pray they come to Christ and receive the forgiveness and love that I got when I turned to Him. Jesus changed me, and He is still changing me. I still struggle with the temptation to read porn, but God blessed me with the Holy Spirit, who guides me and helps me resist sin.

I wanted to let you know that I am deleting this account. Well, actually, I can't do that due to the format of . I am going to change my name, email, and my password to something I will never remember. Jesus has changed me and I know that Jesus can change you. We all are sinners. We all deserve death and hell in comparison to a truly holy and just God, but God promises to call us His own children if we choose Him. God gave us all free will, and as long as we choose the world and worldly desires, He will respect our decision to burn. But friends, I don't want you to burn or suffer, and neither does God. Jesus died for you, so you wouldn't have to die and go to hell. The Bible and every word in it, Old Testament to New Testament, is a love letter written for you.

All praise to the God who saved me from myself and the lies of the enemy!

I love y'all. God bless you and keep you, in the name of Jesus.