a/n I wasn't for sure who's pov to do this next chapter in so I went to my girl Bonnie & she reminded me "ladies first" so there you go!!! Lol

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previously

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I sank down to my knees and covered my face with my hands. I didn't want to see who was headed my way. I felt a jacket cover my body and wanting to thank whoever it was, I looked up and was met with a pair of golden eyes and blonde wavy hair.

"Angel?" I whispered before I lost myself in the darkness.

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When I opened my eyes, I was totally confused. Nothing looked familiar to me. I looked around the room and didn't recognize a single thing. I quickly sat up and was surprised to see the jacket that covered my torn dress. I finally noticed someone sitting in a darkened corner and gasped. To say I was in shock would've been an understatement! Where was I and what the hell was Jasper doing here? Did this mean that the rest of the family was here? Oh God! He saw everything that happened up on that stage! I was so humiliated that he had to witness that. I covered my eyes with my hands and began crying.

"Bella?"

I heard him walk toward me and softly speak my name, but I couldn't respond. I couldn't bring myself to look into his face. What must he think of me? Did he know what I had to do now to keep Charlie alive? Of course he did. He had just paid $100,000 to be with me. I cried even harder at that thought.

"Bella, please look at me…"

I could hear the strain in his voice, but I still couldn't bring myself to look at him. I felt him gently lift my chin and remove my hands from in front of my face. He was kneeling in front of me. I felt waves of calm run through my body and knew he was trying to help me. I lifted my eyes to meet his and was surprised to see the pain there. I decided to ask him questions before he could ask me any. "Jasper, what are you doing here?" I took a deep breath and asked the most important one. "Are the others with you?"

He shook his head and the way his hair fell into his eyes mesmerized me. His voice brought me out of my trance. "I'll make a deal with you. I'll tell you my story if you tell me yours." When I didn't give him a response, he let out a deep sigh. He continued, "To answer your first question, I need to answer the second one first. No the others aren't with me; I'm not with the family anymore."

I couldn't believe it and I know my face showed it. He and Alice had been together for decades. How could they not be together now? I didn't know Jasper all that well, but Alice had been my best friend. I knew how much she loved him. There was only one reason I could think of that she wouldn't be by his side. "Alice is ok, isn't she?" I asked, dreading his answer. Death would be the only reason.

He merely shrugged his shoulders. Jasper ran his fingers through his hair and let out a deep breath. "Bella, before I get started on that story, I just want to apologize for what happened on your birthday."

I had to interrupt. I never blamed him and told Alice to make sure he knew. "Jasper, there's nothing to apologize for. I knew you weren't going to attack me."

I could see the look of shock pass across his face. "W-what?" he stuttered.

I took his hands into mine and stared him right in the eyes. "I knew then, just like I know now, that you weren't the one that wanted to drain me. I saw Edward'seyes turn black right before you jumped at him." I knew that the family never trusted Jasper around me or any other humans, so it was very important to me that he knew that I knew what really happened. "I never blamed Edward for his bloodlust either. It was a chance I took every time I was around you guys. It's just what you are."

Jasper sat in silence, staring back at me. He seemed to be searching my face for something. He quickly stood up and began pacing, muttering to himself. "Jasper?" I gently called out. He immediately stopped pacing and came to sit by me. He turned to face me and I could feel the relief flowing out of him.

As I listened to him tell me what had happened after the birthday fiasco, I got angrier and angrier. Not only had the Cullen's abandoned me, but they had let Edward blame Jasper for attacking me. They were so quick to judge Jasper, they totally ignored the truth. I felt my fists clenching as my rage built. I was beyond pissed. They allowed their golden boy to convince them that it was in my best interest to leave me. No good-bye, see you later or kiss my ass. The only thing that made me feel better was the knowledge that Emmett and Jasper voted against leaving me. I felt the angry tears forming in my eyes and blinked to keep them back. I had cried enough tears for the family that obviously didn't want me; I refused to shed anymore for them.

"So, not only did they fuck me over, you got screwed too," I laughed harshly. I saw his eyes widen and smiled. Once again I had shocked him with my words. "I'm not the same innocent little girl that would blindly follow Edward and Alice, Jasper."

"I can see that, Bella." He gave me a small smile. "Now, do you want to tell me how James found you?" he softly asked.

I felt waves of calm wash over me and knew Jasper was trying to settle me down. I dreaded telling him how James had gotten his hands on me and what I had to do to keep Charlie alive. He grabbed my hand and gently squeezed it, trying to boost my confidence. "It's not a very nice story, Jasper," I warned him. He didn't say anything, but ran his thumbs in circles on my hand. I looked at him in his eyes. "Did Edward ever tell you guys how he broke up with me?" I sneered when he shook his head. "I didn't figure he'd have the balls to. Well, after the party I noticed that he was pulling away from me. He would just drop me off after school and not even stay the night. I thought he felt bad over what had happened and hoped he would get over it. I knew he could be overly dramatic, but nothing prepared me for what would occur." I sat back on the couch with my knees drawn up to my chest. I pulled my hand from Jasper's and wrapped my arms around my legs.

Flashback

Edward picked me up from school and like the past few days, we rode in silence. I kept glancing over at him and noticed his hands had a death-grip on the steering wheel. "Edward?" I hated that my voice sounded so timid.

"Yes?" he answered coldly, without taking his eyes off of the road.

I sighed. "Nothing."

The rest of the ride was uncomfortable and I couldn't wait until we got to my house. As soon as we pulled up in the driveway, I started to open my door. I was surprised when Edward reached over and stopped my hand. "Let's take a walk, we need to talk."

I felt my heartbeat rise and knew he could hear it. "Ok." He got out and walked around the car to open my door. I waited for him to offer his hand and was surprised when he didn't. I got out and followed him out to the edge of the woods.

He stopped and spun around. "My family's leaving Forks."

There was no emotion in his voice and as I searched his face, there wasn't any there either. I knew this was it, but I decided to string it along. "Well, it's not much notice, but I'm sure I can figure out something to tell Charlie."

"No, my family and I are leaving."

"Why?" my voice faltered. I felt the tears falling down my face and quickly wiped them away with the back of my hand.

"You're no good for me, Bella. We come from two different worlds and I was a fool to think that it wouldn't be a problem."

He couldn't even look me in the eye. I knew this was the end, but I had to try. "Please Edward! If you're doing this because of what happened at my birthday party, don't! It was just an accident. Nothing happened!"

"It doesn't matter! Don't you understand? I'm tired of trying to be human for you! I can't do it anymore. It's not worth it." His voice was rising and I felt fear settling in my bones.

"Then change me!" I screamed at him. I reached out to grab his shirt, but he backed up away from me.

"I don't want you anymore, Bella. Do I have to spell it out for you?" I heard the sneer in his voice and recoiled away from it.

In a blink of an eye, he was gone. I ran into the woods to try to catch up, but knew it was impossible. My legs gave way and I dropped to the ground. My heart felt like it was getting ready to burst and I thought I going to hyperventilate. Sobs tore at my body and for a moment, I wondered how much a human body could take.

I felt a cold hand on my shoulder and my heart leaped. Edward had come back for me! I would forgive him for what he had said and he would change me so we could be together forever. "Edward, you came back," I whispered. When I looked up, my stomach dropped. It wasn't my Edward standing in front of me, it was a red-eyed vampire. I knew at once that he was a human drinker. I started crawling backwards, trying to get away from him. My actions seemed to amuse him as he threw back his head and laughed darkly, sending shivers down my spine.

"Well, well, well…what have we here?" he sneered at me.

Right then and there I knew I was going to die. I only hoped that it would be a quick death. He reached down and grabbed my arm, painfully jerking me up to my feet. He ran his nose down my jaw and licked my jugular. I tilted my head to give him perfect access to my blood.

He laughed. "Oh no little girl! It's not going to be as easy as that! I like to play with my food before I eat it."

All of a sudden it hit me, he wasn't going to just drain me…he was going to rape me. I took off running and tripped over some tree roots that were above the ground.

He pounced on me and began ripping off my clothes. I tried to fight against him, but it was useless. I screamed as I felt him force his way into me, taking the one thing that was mine to give. I was slipping in and out of consciousness as he continued to thrust into my body. He began to groan and move erratically so I hoped he was getting close. I just wanted to die. I thought about Charlie and wished I could tell him I loved him one more time. I wanted to tell him that he was the best dad a girl could ever have.

A searing pain brought me out of my thoughts. The vampire had taken his claw-like fingernail and ripped two slices in my skin, a cross between my breasts. I screamed out in pain as he gave me a maniacal grin. I watched his tongue lap up the blood that was gushing out the cuts and his body gave a great shudder. He threw back his head and roared his release. I felt his cold seed pulsate inside of me before the blackness overtook me.

When I finally woke up, I was alone. I slowly sat up, pain making it difficult. I looked down on my chest and noticed the scars that were slowly healing. It was then that I heard the snarls and growls. I looked around quickly and saw vampires fighting against werewolves, they were evenly matched. A black wolf ripped apart one of the vampires and then headed toward where I was hidden. I heard a yelp and saw that one of the wolves was hurt. The wolf that was headed my way stopped and turned around. He looked between me and the hurt wolf but decided to come to me. It was then that I saw the vampire that had raped me break the wolf's neck.

The remaining wolf howled and ran towards us. He jumped on the black wolf and all hell broke loose. They rolled around on the ground, snapping at each other. I was petrified and could only watch as the wolf ripped a hole in the black wolf's throat. I was shocked as he phased back into human form. I screamed as I recognized Jake's body quivering on the ground as his blood drained from the hole in his throat. Forgetting myself, I ran over to him and threw my body across his. I cried for my friend, I cried for his dad and I cried for me. I knew I was next as the remaining wolf stalked over to me. I slowly started backing up.

"Wait!" the vampire yelled. He was crouched in front of me, using his vampire speed. "I've got plans for her!" He threw what was left of my clothes at me and I quickly got dressed.

The wolf let out a ferocious growl and took off into the woods. Imagine my surprise when Paul walked out. His eyes were full of hatred as he glanced over to see Leah laying on the ground. He strode to Jake's body and gave it a hard kick. "That's for saving the human instead of your pack mate!" I watched in shock as he kicked him over and over. "You're supposed to protect your pack!"

The vampire laughed. "Well boy, I'm thinking that you can't go back home now and I've got a proposition for you. How about you come to work for me?"

Paul gulped as the realization of what he had done hit him. He had just killed the Alpha of the pack. He glared at me as if he blamed me for the position he was in now. I jumped up and began beating my fists against his chest. "You killed him!" I screamed at him. "How could you do that?"

He grabbed my wrists and began squeezing them. I tried to hold in my moans of pain, but wasn't successful. It was only when I heard my bone beginning to crack that the vampire decided to step in. "Let go of her. You are to never touch her. If I ever smell you on her, you'll be dead. Do you understand?" When Paul nodded his head, the vampire turned to me. "I've got big plans for you," he sneered. "Your blood seems to be like an aphrodisiac and I know I can make big bucks off of you."

His words slowly made their way through my brain. "No!" I whispered, shaking my head in denial although I knew exactly what he meant. I turned to run, but knew it was hopeless. He grabbed my arm and looked at Paul. "Does she have any family in the area?"

"Her dad, Charlie Swan. He's the Chief of Police here." I glared at Paul as he answered. If I could, I would've killed him right there on the spot.

"You rat bastard!" I screamed at him.

The vampire shook me by my arm. "Listen, you're going to do what I say, when I say or your dad's a dead man, understand?" he snarled at me.

I dropped my head. There wasn't anything I wouldn't do to keep Charlie safe, even being a whore for this maniac. "Yes," I whispered.

He laughed and threw me on his back. "Riley, follow behind wolf-boy," he yelled at the other vampire. When he got a nod in return, he took off running. I closed my eyes so I didn't throw up all over myself.

When we arrived at an abandoned shack, the vampire dragged me through the door. He threw me in a chair and squatted in front of me. "What is your name?" he asked. When I didn't respond, he grabbed me by my hair and pulled my head back. "I asked you a fucking question! What is your name?" he spit the words out.

I was scared to death. I didn't know what was going to happen to me, but I knew I had to survive to keep Charlie safe. With tears flowing down my face, I whispered, "Bella."

He grabbed my hand and bowed from his waist, kissing the back of my hand. "Well Bella, my name is James and I'm sure we're going to mean a lot to each other." He laughed when I jerked my hand back and wiped it on my pants. "Aw come on, don't be like that," he paused, "besides, I've got a surprise for you!" I saw his lips moving and then all of a sudden we were surrounded by other vampires.

I spent the rest of the night being repeatedly raped by different vampires, each one tasting my blood. After the first one, I managed to zone out. I thought about all the happy times I had had in my life. I didn't know how long it lasted, but it seemed like days. Once it was all over, James came to me carrying a syringe and a rubber tube. That was the first time I had met my sweet salvation and we have been best friends ever since.

End of flashback

Everything was quiet as I finished my story. I took in a deep breath and opened my eyes. I looked at Jasper and was shocked to see that his eyes had turned black.

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