On the plane ride to Costa Rica Holly had plenty of time to think. But she slept most of the way. When she was awake she wondered what Toby did on his plane ride there. Had he really thought he would never come back? What made him leave- was it Michael? She had lost respect for him for giving that much power to one person but here she was in the same boat. She was in love with Toby. She didn't know when or how it had happened but when she was with him she felt things she had never felt before. She felt like a woman with him. And now she knew she would never experience those feelings again as long as she lived. And that thought made her feel like dying.
When she got to the resort Holly slept for three whole days. She had had the blinds turned down and a do not disturb sign posted and the phone turned off. She was as far away from civilization as she could get. She got up only to get a drink of water and go to the bathroom. She didn't even brush her teeth. She looked like she felt-dead.
Finally she got up and joined the human race again. She got breakfast and then went down to the beach. Holly wondered if this was the same beach Toby lay on during his time there. It was funny- she supposedly went there to escape him yet he was there, everywhere. And she thought about Michael. She wondered if he was giving Toby hell, if he had figured out what had happened. When she went back, if she went back, there would be shattered lives, her own included. As much as she loved Michael-and she did love him-she couldn't think about him right now. Right now she was safe, cocooned in her world of memories and that was all her world would allow.