Falling Down
Author's Note – Based off the song by Oasis and set during Die Another Day.
Catch the wheel that breaks the butterfly/ I cried the rain that fills the ocean wide/ I tried to talk with God to no avail/ Calling my name and out of nowhere said if you won't save me, please don't waste my time. – Oasis, Falling Down
Disclaimer: I'm really running out of material for these; there should be some kind of database on the internet for funny disclaimers. Either way, I don't own this, as I'm sure anyone with a brain has gathered by now.
He had never understood how Alec could have betrayed England. Even in the darkest moments of his captivity in Korea, as he began to understand how Alec could have learned to hate him, he did not understand why Alec had felt the need to defect, although he wondered with retrospective grief at what point his friend had finally broken. It was not until he was released that he realized why one of England's finest agents had turned on her, and it was that night, after he had escaped English custody and thrown the Chinese Secret Service men out of his room, that he allowed himself to fall apart because of the guilt and the lingering horror and the sheer waste of it all.