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Two weeks drifted by since the scene outside of the club and Elena ignored every single one of Damon's calls. He stood up and walked over to the drink cart pouring a sniffer full of brandy. He didn't mean to hurt the witch. He just wanted her to see that Klaus was obviously lying to her about something and that was the only reason why he said those things. It was no secret that the witch was pretty, she was…but Klaus was using her and it was frustrating that she just didn't want to see it.
Then there was Stefan. He hardly recognized him last night or maybe he did, he reminded him of himself. The way he casually ignored Elena's pleas and basically egged Damon on to make his move. It depressed him. It wasn't supposed to be like that when they found him.
"Damon!" Caroline's voice shredded through his thoughts like a knife.
He sighed turning to her, "Hello…is there a reason why you're here?"
"What are you doing to find Bonnie and Stefan?"
Damon shook his head in disbelief, "Were you there that night, they made a choice and that choice did not include coming back to Mystic Falls".
"That's because you hurt Bonnie's feelings…why would she want to come back?"
"Look…I was only trying to help, that's all…nothing more…it's not my fault that she's soo sensitive".
"You're an ass, do you know that", Caroline shook her head.
"Ok…ok…I messed up. I know that my words were not the best to use at that time, but guess what…we can't do a damn thing if Bonnie doesn't want to be found and she is blocking me from finding her…"
"What are you talking about?"
Damon rolled his eyes, "When a vampire bites a witch, they can sense them…they have a bond".
"What kind of bond?"
"If I ever need to…which is not often, I can find her or sense her when she's near…", Damon shrugged.
"And you can't anymore?"
"No…I can't…she's blocking me".
"Why wouldn't she after what you said to her?"
"And that's why I can't help find her, I can guarantee you that if she doesn't want to be found…she won't be".
"And what about Stefan, you just want to let him go?"
"Stefan made himself clear".
"Are you serious…he gave himself over to Klaus to save you and you are giving up on him, you really are the jackass that I always believed you were…good luck using this to your advantage to get Elena because she pretty much hates you now", Caroline turned and headed out of the house.
Damon lifted his glass to take a sip of his drink, but instead threw the glass up against the fireplace sending shards of glass all over the floor.
SSSSSS
Bonnie sat on the balcony outside of her bedroom going over and over in her head the past two weeks. While overall she felt good…free even, there was still something that nagged at her. It was like when she was with Klaus, she changed into a different person…a person she had never quite met before. Then there was the physical part. After that one night, she and Klaus hadn't made those moves again. Even though she liked it (more than she ever thought she could), she realized that she needed to take a step back and figure out what she really wanted from all of this.
She had always considered herself a 'good girl', she always believed that she should get to know someone a lot before sleeping with him and here she was enjoying certain activities with Klaus…KLAUS…the one who tried to kill her, it was almost as bad as if one day she woke up and decided that she wanted to sleep with Damon! If that was ever true, she would definitely check herself into a mental institution.
The funny part of all of this is that she felt as if she was in some type of bubble. A bubble where she didn't have the loud voice telling her to 'Stop, that is something that Bonnie Bennett would never do'. The voice had disappeared and she wasn't sure if she was happy or sad that it disappeared. Sure, she felt carefree but being here with Klaus and Stefan…was it an illusion? Was she living some kind of sick fantasy, she really wasn't sure.
"Miss Bennett?" Ronald asked from behind her.
"Hello Ronald…do you have what I asked for?"
He handed her a cell phone, "Thank you for getting it for me, I realize that this is the second one that you got for me…but I promise that I won't lose or break this one".
"Thank you", Ronald nodded as he turned and left the room.
Bonnie looked down at the cell phone biting her lip and then began dialing the familiar cell phone number.
SSSSSS
Hours later, Bonnie sat outside of the bistro sipping on an iced coffee, when a gust of wind went past her and she felt herself being pulled out of the chair. "Bonnie, I am soo angry at you", Caroline hugged her tightly.
"I see…are you trying to cut off my oxygen?" Bonnie gasped.
Caroline let her go and frowned, "I just wanted to make sure it was you and not some clone that Klaus has cooked up".
"No it's me", Bonnie frowned as she sat across from Caroline.
"And was that also you outside of the club".
Bonnie closed her eyes, "It was some version of me…"
Caroline leaned forward, "Are you possessed again?" she whispered.
"No!" I gasped, "no…I feel like myself…I do, but…"
"But what…Bonnie, we were looking for you and we never expected to find Stefan…what happened, what are you doing…have you aligned yourself with Klaus…"
Bonnie shook her head, "Caroline, I don't know what to say…I…ever since I left Mystic Falls that day, I've felt different".
"What kind of different…you are associating yourself with Klaus, that doesn't make any sense Bonnie after all he did".
"I know that…I know that it's wrong and its totally ridiculous…I know that…"
"It definitely is, Klaus cannot be trusted and Stefan is filled with bloodlust…I didn't even recognize him last night…"
"I recognize him".
Caroline narrowed her eyes, "What is going on Bonnie?"
Bonnie ran her hands through her hair, "If I tell you something, you cannot judge me…and you also have to know this, I'm not coming back to Mystic Falls…not right now anyway".
"Bonnie…no…all your friends and family are in Mystic Falls".
"I like being here better".
Caroline shook her head.
"Caroline, I know that you may think I'm crazy…", Bonnie breathed out.
"Yes, I do think you're crazy…you left the club with Klaus…KLAUS!"
"And you came there with Damon…DAMON…the one who treated you like a doll for sex and blood…things change".
"Over a couple of months…come on Bonnie, what is going on…does Klaus have some kind of thing over you, is he making you be his witch or something?"
"No, he's not making me do anything!" Bonnie said a little louder than expected and defensively.
Caroline looked at Bonnie for a few moments and then her eyes grew wide, "What are you doing with Klaus exactly?"
Bonnie looked away.
Caroline grabbed Bonnie's hand and Bonnie turned to look at her, "Bonnie, what are you doing with Klaus?"
"It was one time", Bonnie answered.
"One time!" Caroline shrieked, "obviously he has you under some spell…one time…after what, a couple of days…a week! What is going on with you?"
"Nothing is going on with me", Bonnie snatched her hand out of Caroline's.
Caroline shook her head, "Bonnie…we've been friends since we were five, you were our resident prude…you would never be with a guy that you really just met, let alone someone who basically tried to kill all of your friends".
"I've changed".
"Changed…"
"For years I was the dependable Bonnie…the good Bonnie…I did whatever you guys wanted me to and when I realized that I had powers, I became the Bonnie that everyone called on when they needed a quick fix…Bonnie, we need the invention deactivated…Bonnie, we need to open the tomb…Bonnie, we need daywalking rings…Bonnie, we need you to make sure Klaus dies…Bonnie, we need you to find Stefan, it doesn't matter if your bleeding all over the place…I've changed because I got sick of her…she was weak and she wasn't selfish at all and no one cared…not even on her birthday".
"Bonnie, I remembered your birthday…I was coming to celebrate…"
"Caroline, I'm just sick of being the Bonnie that every takes advantage of".
"And what about Klaus, you don't think that he's using you…"
"Do you agree with Damon…that no one else could want me?"
"No…nooooooo", Caroline shook her head, "but I know that you have to know that Klaus is untrustworthy".
"I know that I feel like…I can be whomever I want to be when I'm around him and I expect nothing from him. I expect a lot from all of you in Mystic Falls and all I get is asked to do more spells because at some point, we all stopped being friends and we became the vampire…or the witch…or the werewolf or the doppelganger and I constantly got pushed further and further back and I was…I am sick of it", Bonnie said as the tears she didn't expect welled up in her eyes.
"Bonnie, I'm sorry…I'm sorry that you felt that way or you feel that way…"
"It's not your fault", Bonnie said wiping her eyes, "but I like where I am and I don't want to leave".
"Bonnie…"
"No Caroline and as long as Damon is anywhere near our circle…I can't be part of it".
"But you can be a part of a circle with Klaus, something is seriously wrong with that", Caroline shook her head, "I really do not understand after all he did to us, he killed Jenna, Bonnie".
Bonnie felt as if she had just been slapped as she sat back.
"Bonnie come home with me…", Caroline held out her hand.
"Bonnie…", Stefan said from above them.
Caroline stood up and Bonnie joined her.
"Stefan, Bonnie was just coming back to Mystic Falls with me…you can come too", Caroline plastered her best smile on.
"Caroline, I am not returning to Mystic Falls and I don't think Bonnie is either", Stefan looked over at Bonnie.
"You two can't be serious", Caroline looked from Stefan to Bonnie, "Bonnie, come on…you can't be serious".
"Caroline…I can't go back…not right now", Bonnie said quietly as she looked down at her hands twirling her ring around.
"You can't…Bonnie…come on?" Caroline took her hands.
"Bonnie has made her decision, drop it Caroline", Stefan replied.
"What…Stefan, you know that this is ridiculous…you know that Bonnie doesn't belong with Klaus and you don't either".
"Caroline, I think everyone here is old enough to make their own decisions and Bonnie has made hers".
Caroline looked at Bonnie with tears in her eyes, "Bonnie, you can't be serious about this…"
Bonnie looked at Caroline, "Care, I'm ok…trust me…if you ever need me, just call me".
"What did we do to you that was so bad?" Caroline asked.
Bonnie hugged Caroline, "You didn't do anything…you have been a great friend to me".
"Then don't go".
"I have to…", Bonnie said as the tears slipped out of her eyes, "I need to explore this side of myself a little longer".
Caroline shook her head, "I don't understand…but when you're ready to come back home, we will be waiting".
Bonnie nodded as Caroline stood there and she felt Stefan touch her back. She started to move towards Stefan's car as she felt Caroline's eyes on her. As much as she knew that she should return to Mystic Falls, she wasn't quite ready to go back. She knew what would happen as soon as she got back. People would not ignore the fact that she had powers, that she could give them the easy way out…use her powers to do whatever and then after that, she would once again be just the witch and not the friend or sister that she was before all of the craziness started. She knew that staying with Stefan and Klaus wasn't the best option, but it was an option that didn't make her heart twist into knots just thinking about it.
As she slid in Stefan's car, she looked out of the window at Caroline who was shaking her head as the car moved away from the curb.
"Do you think I should go back?" Bonnie asked, "I know that they need me…I know that, but…"
"But you are enjoying not being required to do anything…not being the one that everyone looks to when they need help?"
Bonnie nodded, "I know that in a way I am betraying them…"
"Bonnie", Stefan said looking at her as they stopped at a light, "sometimes you have to do what makes you happy for awhile. I know that you feel like you have to take care of everyone else, but its time that you take care of yourself for awhile".
Bonnie wiped her eyes, "You're right…keep driving", she replied as she never looked back to see if Caroline was still standing there.
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"We have to get her back Elena", Caroline marched into the Gilbert house as Elena walked in from the kitchen.
"What happened…did you see Bonnie?" Elena rushed over.
"She called me and I'm sorry I didn't call you, but I thought…"
"You thought without me that you had a chance of convincing her to come home", Elena frowned.
"I'm sorry…"
"No…no…I understand…I made some mistakes with Bonnie and our friendship and I know she's not happy with me".
"She's definitely not happy with us and I really don't know…I really don't understand how she's drifted soo far from us", Caroline sat down.
"Stefan…Bonnie…they both are with Klaus, how did it happen…"
"Stefan showed up while I was talking to Bonnie, he almost seemed different…predatory…like he was trying to make sure that Bonnie stayed on his side".
Elena ran her hands through her hair shaking her head, "I don't know what to say anymore…"
"Maybe we should call her father?" Caroline replied.
"Oh yes, we tell on her…that would make Bonnie more than happy to come back", Elena sighed, "and he's not here anyway".
"Then what can we do Elena?" Caroline plopped down on the couch, "if we don't get her away from Klaus, she could turn really, really bad and I know that you love Stefan…but he's not helping here".
"I don't know, but we will think of something", Elena said sitting next to Caroline and wrapping her arm around Caroline, "we will get both of them away from Klaus".
SSSSSS
After Stefan parked the car, he and Bonnie got out and started walking towards the steps. Bonnie grabbed his arm, "Are you following me for a reason?" Bonnie asked.
"Bonnie, I wasn't following you…I was in town meeting someone and I ran into you and Caroline, I wouldn't follow you".
"Are you sure, I know that Klaus wants me to stay here and I know that you two are friends or whatever you are…"
"Bonnie, if you left with Caroline…no one would have faulted you".
"I wasn't ready to go with her…", Bonnie sighed.
"And that's ok Bonnie", Stefan wrapped his arm around her as they walked up the stairs to the house.
When they stepped inside, Bonnie was met by Klaus' eyes.
"Stefan, there's a delivery for you in your room", Klaus replied as he continued to stare at Bonnie.
Stefan nodded as he walked up the stairs.
Klaus took a few steps towards Bonnie and then stopped, "You haven't been around much lately…spending most of your time in your room?"
"I've been practicing some spells…locator spells to find packs by the next full moon…"
"Oh, so you haven't been avoiding me?" Klaus asked moving closer to her touching her chin.
"No, I haven't".
"I thought after our night together, we would be closer…"
"That night…I don't know what came over me…"
"You were allowing your desires to take over", Klaus said moving closer to her, "there is nothing wrong with that Bonnie".
Bonnie stepped away from Klaus, "I don't know why I slept with you. I don't know why that I feel like I am drawn to you for some reason, but we definitely need to slow down…slow way down…I am not the kind of girl who just meets someone and…"
"Maybe you want to be that person", Klaus replied.
"Klaus, I will help you find your sister that's it", Bonnie replied as she started for the stairs
Klaus nodded as Bonnie disappeared up the stairs.
SSSSS
Stefan wiped the blood off of his mouth as he looked down at the unseeing eyes lying on the floor by his bed. This one barely fought him, which took away some of the fun away from the feeding—but he wasn't sure if any of this was fun anymore and he wasn't sure it ever was.
Going with Klaus was first about saving Damon and making good on his promise. After awhile, it became living the life that he missed in a way and not caring about the consequences. Then Bonnie showed up and things became skewed. She was a reminder of the life that he was leaving behind. She was a reminder of the other side…the part of his life that was something he had searched years for…Elena. He watched Bonnie and he knew that she was slowly becoming comfortable with the way things are. The necklace around her neck was working its magic to make her defenses slowly crumble and he wasn't sure that he wanted to see that. He considered Bonnie a friend and at the end of the day, she didn't have a switch to turn her humanity off and staying here with Klaus would draw her further and further from her reality in Mystic Falls.
"So you enjoyed your delivery?" Klaus asked stepping into the room.
"Bonnie is torn", Stefan replied as he covered the redhead up with a sheet.
"I know that, I could see the uncertainty in her eyes…what did Caroline say to her?"
"They want her back of course".
"She's not going back", Klaus turned to him, "she has no reason to go back".
"And she has a reason to stay here?" Stefan asked.
"Yes, Bonnie and I are building quite a friendship…and she is happy here, why would she leave?" Klaus asked.
"Because she belongs in Mystic Falls".
"Maybe", Klaus shrugged as he began walking out of the room, "make sure that you get her out of here, we wouldn't want Bonnie to see that".
Stefan looked down at sheet and sighed.
How long with Stefan play this game with Klaus? Bonnie's already having second thoughts…what will win out?