Chapter 5

"Kendall saw himself in a black tunnel. He walked and walked, not sure where it would lead. He felt like he was in a dream, and he didn't know how to wake up. Kendall walked and walked in the darkness, until he suddenly saw a small bright white light. Kendall ran towards his chance of escape. He just had one more step to take...

Kendall woke up and found himself in a hospital bed. A white light was indeed shining on him, and Kendall saw a blurry face next to him. Kendall shook his head, and the face cleared. Carlos. Kendall tried to smile, and Carlos nodded back at him. Kendall wondered what the heck happened.

"Hey Kendall! I'm SO glad you're finally awake! I was so worried! And then you were all freaking out, and then you started to die, and then-" Carlos rambled on, still looking a bit freaked and scared.

"Wait... what are you talking about?" Kendall interrupted his youngest friend. Carlos sighed, and started talking about what had happened. Kendall listened through it all, and memories started pouring into his mind. Logan begging for his mom, James asking if he was okay or not, all the dizziness, and all the pressure and all the worry. Kendall was ashamed of himself. He was supposed to be the strong one, and he had let all of them down. What had happened? He was perfectly fine under pressure. So why did he completely have a panic attack when Logan was hallucinating?

"Is Logan okay?" Kendall asked randomly, hoping the answer would be yes. Carlos shrugged.

"I only came with you. James went with Logan. I told James to come over here if Logan woke up." Carlos told Kendall. Kendall smiled in gratitude.

"Hey Carlos?" Kendall asked quietly. Carlos looked up from picking on the zipper of his jacket.

"Yeah?"

"Why do you always seem to follow me around? I mean, not that that's a bad thing, but why not James or Logan?" Kendall said curiously. Carlos just shrugged.

"I don't follow you around. I guess I always just end up wherever you are." He told him. Kendall wasn't so sure. Everywhere he went, Carlos was always there with him. Carlos had stayed with Kendall, not Logan, when they both went to the hospital just now. Carlos had always agreed with Kendall, and Carlos always did whatever Kendall did these days. Kendall was about to pressure his friend more, but that was when James and Logan came walking in.

"Doctor said I could go home," Logan said happily. Kendall smiled, and told Logan that he was glad to hear it.

"Doctor said you could go home if you woke up and felt fine." James added, sticking his tan finger at Kendall. Kendall nodded, and got out of the uncomfortable hospital bed. He was more than ready to leave this place.

"Let's go." He said firmly. The four checked out of the hospital, and drove home to the Palm Woods. The ride home was normal; the jokes, laughter, and sudden awkward silences.

When the boys stepped into the entrance gate, Logan felt something suddenly landing on top of him. Camille. The crazy girl started dramatically crying into Logan's shirt, relieved that he was better. Logan just smiled and shook his head. Was his hallucination really that bad? He only remembered his mom and the gas... the poison gas.

"Its okay, Camille, I'm back now. Really." Logan said comfortingly. Camille looked up and slapped Logan in the face. Hard.

"Don't you ever worry me like that again!" She cried, slapping Logan again and again until James finally pulled Logan away, and the four boys ran for their apartment. Logan rubbed his cheeks, wincing.

"Ouch, I never knew Camille would break my face." Logan muttered in pain. Kendall laughed and wrapped his arm around Logan. James just grinned, and Carlos had an unreadable expression on his face. But he was smirking, too.

"Your face isn't broken." Kendall pointed out the obvious.

James shuddered. "That would be a complete nightmare." He said dramatically. The other three boys rolled their eyes.

Logan looked down as he walked towards Apartment 2J. He had no clue why he had imagined his mom locking him up in a bathroom filled with poison gas. What had he thought? How did he actually believe it was true? It was so confusing; one of the few things Logan couldn't figure out. And he didn't think he would find the answer anytime soon. He was just so scared... and he felt like the elevator had really transformed into a bathroom. His old bathroom. And next to James another figure had appeared. It didn't look like a ghost, but it looked real. Solid. It looked no different from a normal everyday woman.

And it was his mom.

Logan tried and wanted to think he was okay, it was just his claustrophobia. But he knew it wasn't. He didn't know why he didn't know what was wrong with him. He knew so many diseases; how did he not know this one? All the symptoms were becoming so obvious, he could no longer hide it from his friends. The shark eating Carlos, and his mom and the hallucination... everything seemed to prove that Logan had a problem.

Kendall trusted Logan, so he thought Logan was telling the truth. He and Logan were the mature ones, so Kendall sometimes went to Logan for help. Kendall knew that Logan was trustworthy, and would never accuse Logan of lying until something was proven. Kendall believed Logan completely when Logan told him he was fine. Everything was fine.

James was fiercely overprotective of everyone, even Kendall. He was the oldest, and felt it was his responsibility to take care of all of them. He didn't care what Logan said, all that mattered was that Logan was okay. Logan could tell James he was fine after a shark bit him, and James would just nod in concern. He believed that Logan was perfectly fine all the time because he was protecting him. But Logan didn't have the heart to tell James that his protecting wouldn't work now. James wouldn't be able to protect all of them forever.

And Carlos. Carlos was too innocent and gullible to believe that Logan was lying. If Logan had been confronted by Kendall and James, if Logan had carried either one of them out of the pool that day, they would never have believed Logan's lie. Logan had said that he was having a mere panic attack. Carlos was the only one who was innocent enough to believe in that horrible lie.

So basically, none of his friends were able to detect that there was indeed something wrong with Logan Mitchell. Logan didn't blame him; he couldn't even believe it. He felt fine right now, honestly, but sooner or later, he would have another "panic attack" or a horrible hallucination that looked so real to him. Sooner or later, he would end up in the hospital again. Again and again. Until he figured out what was wrong with him.

He had to figure it out before his friends snapped out of their habits of trusting Logan, being too protective, or being too gullible and innocent. He had to figure it all out before his friends found out. He just had to.

A/N- What'd ya think? Didn't really like this chapter... don't know why... What about you guys? Did this one suck? I'm sorry if it did. :(

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