Chapter 15

Logan was surrounded in blackness. He had no idea where he was, or why he was there. All he remembered being on a moving thing, and then set onto some soft yet uncomfortable. He felt red mix in with some of the blackness; Logan felt angry. So angry, he wanted to kill someone. He didn't care about anything right now. Everyone had betrayed him.

If that guy named Kendall hadn't been a better leader, he would never let Logan go into that cave. Kendall called himself a leader? A leader wouldn't agree with crazy plans, and would never force Logan to go into that cave, where he seemed to be stuck in at this moment. All Logan remembered was more darkness in that cave, and the yellow eyes… Logan glared into the darkness and growled. He was acting more and more like an animal every day.

If James hadn't been so conceited, then maybe he could've prevented this. He could've not decided to play a stupid game on their trip to Brazil… everyone knew that camping wasn't for games, it was for the beauty. The beauty of the nature, of everything… But James only cared about his own beauty, and didn't want to take in anything that was obviously way more beautiful than he was. He just wouldn't admit that the nature was way better looking that he ever would be.

And Carlos… Logan placed even more blame on Carlos than on Kendall or James. Carlos was the one who came up with the stupid idea in the first place. If he hadn't been so stupid or obnoxious, he wouldn't have come up with such a stupid and obnoxious thing. Logan was mad at all of them, but he was totally fed up with Carlos. That little idiot, Logan felt like he wanted to punch him and then smash Carlos into-

Suddenly, Logan felt something change inside of him. What was he thinking? This wasn't Kendall's fault, it wasn't James's fault, and it wasn't Carlos's fault, either. If anything, this was his fault. If he'd noticed something was seriously wrong with him and told his friends, he wouldn't have ended up in this darkness, probably causing his friends pain and suffering. Those thoughts scared Logan; he'd been having them for who knows how long now. Sometimes he just couldn't control it; sometimes he actually felt those feelings of hatred towards his friends.

Logan's mind started fading away, dizziness surrounding him once again.

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It had been a week since Kendall, James, and Carlos had visited Logan. The doctors kept saying that Logan's behavior was strange and dangerous, and that they should stay away from him. Usually, the guys wouldn't care about what a doctor said, but after Kendall got bitten… none of them could be sure of anything.

Kendall was afraid he'd gotten rabies or something, too, but the doctors cleared him and told him no harm was done from the bite. Other than the bite mark that would stare back at him day after day, reminding him of what Logan had become.

The boys decided that they owed Logan a visit now. They decided that no matter what the doctor said, Logan's behavior wouldn't stay like that forever; it was only temporary. They decided to give themselves and Logan another shot at this, whatever this was.

The doctors didn't look surprised when the three boys finally showed up after a week or more, and showed them to Logan's room indifferently. The three saw Logan sitting up in his bed, and his eyes had something unreadable in them/. He jumped when Kendall cleared his throat hesitantly.

"Kendall." Logan said, still staring at the wall. Kendall licked his lips, and sat down beside Logan cautiously. He didn't want a repeat of last time.

"Hey, Loges." Kendall grinned. Surprisingly, Logan grinned back, a big and toothy smile. "So, how are you doing?"

Logan looked around and was overwhelmed by the number of people there were. There was Kendall, James, and Carlos, and three was already too much. It started to make Logan feel claustrophobic.

"Can I talk to you guys one by one?" He asked, his statement sounding lifeless, but firm. Kendall shared a glance with James and Carlos, who nodded in understanding. They quickly left the room, leaving Kendall alone with Logan.

"So, long time no see, huh?" Kendall joked, trying to break the uncomfortable silence. It wasn't awkward, just… strange. Usually, the boys would be jabbering to one another no matter who was with whom at the time. This was an exception.

Logan's eyes, if possible, turned a shade darker. "Kendall, you're not my leader. You're not anyone's leader." He growled, his eyes narrowing into a glare. Kendall took a surprised step backwards. What did Logan mean?

"Wh-what?" Kendall stuttered, not knowing what to make of the situation.

"If you were a good leader, this wouldn't have happened. You could have prevented that game, Kendall, but you didn't. You forced me. You forced me." Logan hissed at Kendall. Kendall's eyes widened. What Logan said was completely true. If he had been a better leader, this wouldn't have happened. Leaders were supposed to prevent bad and dangerous things from happening, not try and encourage them. Kendall encouraged Logan to go in that cave. And at that moment, Kendall Knight knew that he was a horrible leader.

"I'm sorry, Logan." Kendall started.

Logan shook his head. "No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry you weren't born to be a leader. I'm sorry your dad died, and that you weren't as good a leader as he wanted you to be. I'm sorry you aren't a good enough leader we wanted you to be." Logan said. His voice sounded so Logan, and yet Kendall was so shocked and so hurt at what had just come out of Logan's mouth. Usually, Logan's words were calm and comforting, but not this time.

"What are you talking about?" Kendall replied, not wanting to know the answer.

"You're not my leader, you're not anyone's leader anymore. I wonder how you're family's even holding up with only you to support them." Logan said, his eyes staying the same dark shade as it was before.

Kendall felt his breath hitch away, and his knees almost give way. This couldn't be happening. It couldn't.

"What happened to you, Logan?" Kendall whispered, turning his back on Logan and walking out of the room. He felt like he was going to either cry his eyes out, or punch a hole in the wall.

"Kendall?" James stood up when he saw his friend walking out slowly. Kendall didn't look happy at all, and that wasn't a good thing.

"Everything okay?" James continued, wanting to know so badly what had happened in that room with Kendall and Logan. Kendall didn't answer him; he just clenched his fists together, taking a deep breath and shaking his head.

"It's your turn, James." James looked down and saw Carlos staring at him with begging eyes. His voice sounded so vulnerable, so scared, that James had to look away. It broke his heart to see both of his friends feeling so down. He nodded silently, and entered the room. He was ready to face whatever hardship awaited him. Logan, here I come...

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Carlos stared at Kendall. The blonde hadn't said a word since James had gone in with Logan 5 minutes. Carlos was seriously worried that Kendall might start to cry then, and he wouldn't know what to do. Carlos was never good at comforting people, just cheering people up. He didn't really know the difference, but he was sure that there was a difference.

"Kendall? Are you okay?" He asked quietly, not wanting James or Logan to hear from across the wall and the door. Kendall looked up, his hair messed up and his eyes blank.

"I'm not a leader." He whispered, more to himself than to anyone else. His voice was full of hurt and guilt. Carlos stared at Kendall in disbelief; Kendall was the best brother, friend, and leader he'd ever wanted. How could Kendall think that he was a bad leader?

"No you're not. Who told you that?"

Kendall sighed. "Logan. And he's totally right. If I had been a good leader, then he wouldn't have got bitten by that bat. I could've stopped that from happening, yet I encouraged it. I can't call myself a leader after what I did to Logan." Kendall's voice cracked, and he stopped talking all together, not being able to say anymore. He didn't want to cry, and he didn't want to seem weak in front of Carlos. That would prove even more that he was a horrible leader.

Carlos bit his lip. He'd never seen Kendall act so down before. He wasn't even trying to be confident; he was completely discouraged and lifeless. This wasn't Kendall, this was someone else. And Carlos wanted his best friend and big brother back.

"You're my hero, Kendall." Kendall looked up and stared at Carlos for a long time. Minutes passed by, and Kendall's stare still bore through Carlos's head. He was Carlos's hero. He was Carlos's leader, his hero, someone he looked up to. He kept Carlos alive, didn't he?

"Really?"

Carlos nodded. "Yeah. I mean, to me, you're the most perfect person I've ever met. You help us, encourage us, and you make the best chocolate cookies ever. You're like Superman." He said.

Kendall nodded, and his lips curled up into a smile. "Thanks, buddy." Kendall whispered, his voice full of emotion and relief, surprise and pleasant confusion.

Because Kendall would never know how such innocent words cured him more than anything else ever could.

A/N- A bit Kendall angst there… and Logan's going… crazy. James is next chapter; wonder what Logan's gonna be like. ;)

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