11. The Best Deceptions

(Pacey's POV)

I woke up the next morning with Jen in my arms. The sunlight came in through the morning shining on her golden hair, and she looked an angel. I couldn't remember everything that had the night before, but I knew it wasn't mistake. I knew that we had made love, and I knew I was falling hard for this girl. It was amazing how much our relationship had changed over the years. I smiled thinking about the moment we shared in Dawson's room back in high school. How could we have not been able to make love back then.

Jen rolled over and looked up me. Her hazel eyes looked in mine. We stared into each other eyes.

"I think I am going to be sick." She whisper.

"Come on ." I said leading her to the bathroom. I held her hair back as she threw up in the toilet. I must have it bad for her because she looked beautiful throwing up.

"You going to get sick?" She asked.

"No. I didn't drink as much as you. And besides I can handle my alcohol better."

"I forget you drink more often the I do."

"Funny Jen."

"Pacey… I know we made love…but…"

You not thinking about Victor already?" I said feeling jealous again. I knew Victor treated Jen awful. Breaking up with her all the time, and always putting himself first. But from what Jack told me he was gorgeous and financially secure. Maybe he could offer Jen more then me. After all I was just a restaurant owner who would be working a few years before I actually make a profit.

"No. I just wanted to know if we used protection last night?

"Yes. Safety first." I said showing Jen the open condom wrapper on the nightstand.

" Good. That's a relief. I stopped taking the pill a few months ago."

"No worries. Why don't you go take a shower and I'll make us some breakfast."

"Don't forget the coffee." She said giving me a kiss on the cheek.

After she left the room I picked the condom up ready to toss it. But I looked closer and saw that although it was open the condom was still in the package. It was there unused and Jen had stop taking the pill. What are the chances? If we were careful from now on we'd be find. So I decided not to tell her. Why ruin a perfect start to our relationship? I picked it up and placed it in the trash. Then I took the trash out the dumpster outside. I came in and washed my hands. I turned on the coffee maker, and decided to make blue berry pancakes. They were Jen's favorite. I just wanted to make everything perfect for her. I knew the morning after the first time would set the tone for our relationship. And wanted us to have a real grown up relationship where we could keep enjoying each other. I wanted this time with Jen to be different. I didn't want to let anything or anyone get between us.

12.I Know We Could Be So Happy

(Jen's POV)

"You made me blue berries pancakes. I freaking love you." I told Pacey when I came in the kitchen. Saying I love you wasn't something I had planned. I meant it but I knew the timing we was off. We had just hooked up for goodness sake. But I couldn't help how I was feeling. Play it cool, I told myself.

"You're easy to please." Pacey said giving me a quick kiss on the lips.

"I am easy. What can I say."

"And last night was…?"

"What was it for you?"

"The best decision I've made in a long time."

"I agree. We could be happy Pacey. That's what I want. Someone to settle down with, and to have fun with."

"I want that to Jen. And the fact I can't stop thinking about you doesn't help."

"You can't stop thinking about me?"

"No. You drive me crazy."

"Pacey that's the most romantic thing anyone has said to me!" I said putting down my food and walking across the kitchen table. I wrapped my arms around and kissed him again. We couldn't get undress fast enough. I felt excited as he threw me on the kitchen floor and started to make love to me again. The floor felt slightly hard against my body, but we couldn't even stop to go to the bed.

"Why does this feel so right? Everytime we make love?" He whispered in my ears after we made love.

"Maybe this is how it always should have been. Our relationship has always been real."

"That's right always open and honest."

"Let's promise to keep it that way." I said kissing him again.

He looked at me and made a promise without words. His eyes seem to be saying everything I needed to know. And I knew that I should tell him it was love. I couldn't pin point the moment but our friendship how changed over the years. Maybe it was the night at the resturant or one of those three hour phone calls we had. Or maybe these feelings had always been there. Maybe we were kidding ourselves in high school when we said there was nothing there. All I knew was that we were two adults who finally hooked up, and now I was in love with Pacey John Witter. Something I never would have thought could ever happen. I always loved him, but never was in love with now. Until now. It was amazing how things changed.

13. Real

(Pacey's POV)

After we made love everything in our relationship happened so fast. Jen moved in overnight and started working with me as much as possible at the restaurant. We never said I love you and I never called her my girlfriend, but I knew it was a real relationship. I think deep down we were just afraid to say the words. After all it had only been a week and she moved in almost overnight. But I just couldn't let her go back home with her grams. I wanted her there with me. At the apartment, and at the restaurant. She just brought a sense of joy to my life, and I wanted her there with me as much as possible. The school year was almost over, and Jen promised to work full time at the restaurant with me. But I had a surprise for her. Money was tight. But I was a head in my payments to the bank so I decided that we should go away on a trip. Nothing major. Just to Memphis Tennessee. We had both been taking about how much we wanted to go to Memphis in May. So I had gone online and brought us two tickets to go. I couldn't wait to tell her. There was only one problem. Jen was at the apartment, and wasn't answering her phone. I decided to call Jack.

"Hey, Pacey."

"Jack, you heard from Jen she's usually home by now."

"Victor came by the school today. He was waiting for her outside her car. She was trying to get raid off him. I offered to say, but she said she could handle it…"

I hung up the phone on Jack. Was Jen going to leave me so soon? Before she even knew how I felt. I grabbed my keys, and drove to the school.

14. Last Goodbye

(Jen's POV)

"I am not going to stop trying to get you back."

I looked up at Victor. God, he was so fucking beautiful with his dark features. Those brown eyes would always haunt me.

"It's no use Vic. It never works out. So please just let it go."

He grabbed in his arms and tried to kiss me. I turned my face and pulled away.

"Stop. It just doesn't felt right anymore.

"There's someone else isn't there?"

"No…" I lied.

"I am ready now. To get married and have a family. I can be that nice guy you've always been looking for."

"It's too late for us. This is goodbye.."

"I am not giving up on us." He said giving me a painful last look.

I watched as he walked away. He might come back, but I knew that it was over. I was ready to build my life with Pacey. He was the nice guy I had been looking for. What we had was real. And the relationship with Victor was just an idea I had build up in my head. A few minutes later I saw Pacey pull up to the school parking lot.

"Where is?"

"Gone."

"Is it him or me?"

"Pacey…after all we've been through do you have to ask. I know it's only been a week, but we already live together. I'm in this relationship."

" I am sorry I doubted you. Just the idea of you being gone. I just couldn't imagine my life without you."

" I feel the same way."

"So how would you feel about us going a way with me?"

"Where to?"

"I am thinking Beale Street. We can go shopping, eat bqq, check out that zoo, and of course The Beale Street Music Festival. And of course worship each other all night now."

"Like we don't do that every night here!"

"It will just be nice to have sometime alone. To explore our new relationship. I like having you as my girlfriend!"

" So we I am your girlfriend now?"

" Yes. I think we both know how we feel about each other."

I looked up and smiled. We didn't say the words. But we both felt them. I could tell how jealous he was of Victor, and how scared he was to lose me. Knowing this let me know what we had was real. No one could tear us apart not Victor. Not even Joey. Pacey loved me, and knew it was a matter off time before he said it. Everything felt so right between us, and now this trip showed how serious he was about us. I knew spending that much money on me meant something. Being the hard working business owner he was he couldn't afford to through money around the world. Even though it was just a small trip I knew how much it meant so much for him to take me. And I would rather be going with him staying in cheap hotels then traveling first class with Victor. The reason why was because I felt something more for Pacey then I did for him. And when I was with Pacey I could be happy anywhere.

15. If you Could Only See

(Jen's POV)

"Let me get this straight. You are going all the way to Memphis with Pacey?"

"That's right Jack." I said folding my clothes and placing them in the suitcase.

"What about Victor. I mean I never like the guy but don't you think you are moving a little too fast with Pacey."

"What's this really about?"

"Well, I am just worried that the other shoe might drop."

"Meaning…"

"Joey Potter."

"Let's not use the J word. She my friend as much as yours but she has nothing to do with my relationship with Pacey."

"What makes you so sure of that? She has a way of changing her mind about what she wants. Remember she got all mad at Dawson after they sleep together, but wasn't thrilled about you two being together."

"I could care less if she is thrilled about Pacey and I. Joey is in New York living her live, and Pacey is here living his life with me. If Joey wants him she should be here supporting him. But she not . I am. And the one who gets him, and understands him. They might have been in love in the past. But I love him now. "

"But does he love you? And has he moved on from Joey."

"Yes." I said closing my suitcase.

"Then Jen I am happy for you. I know how long you've looking for love."

"It's here and I know Pacey will say he loves me soon." I said giving Jack a hug.

As soon as I said his name Pacey walked in the door.

"Are you all packed up?"

"I am ready to get on that airplane."

"Me too. Jack we've got to going."

"Pacey take care of our girl." Jack said smiling at us.

"I think he's giving his blessing to date you."

"I am glad. Getting his approval isn't easy."

Pacey smiled and took my hand. We hand been waiting what seem liked forever to go on this trip.

15. Goodbye My Lover

(Pacey's POV)

What was wrong with me? Hearing Joey's name still drove me crazy. I knew she was my past, and Jen had been the one that was here for me. She was the one I wanted, but just hearing her name. Got me thinking about the what would it be like if I ran into Joey somewhere in Capeside? Would I able to just keep walking? Or tell her I moved on? That Jen was the one now? I knew I need to tell Joey about us. But our relationship felt safer if it was just between us. Bringing other people into right now felt wrong. I knew Joey had a boyfriend in New York and was living her own life. However, I need to tell her for me. I needed to tell her goodbye. Get rid of any of things lingering feelings. Because I was with Jen now. And I loved her more then I loved anyone. I was there with Jen now. We setting at the airport waiting for the plane.

"I'll be right back."

"Okay, Pacey."

I went to the bathroom and took out my wallet. There tucked behind a picture of my nephew was a picture of Joey. Goodbye Joey, I whispered. I place the picture in the trash car and walked back out to get on the plane with Jen. I was letting the past go, I told myself. Moving forward with Jen.